Al-Anon Family Group - Al-Anon Family Group

Michelle814 · Michelle814

I have been really struggling. I have had my own sort of relapse this past week. I have been caught up in things that are not of my concern, worrying about the past, scared of the future. questioning my husband about how his own program has been going.. constantly asking whats going on in his mind.. hor...

Doozy · Doozy

Hi All, I'm still here, though not much has changed since my last posting. Just went another round on the roller coaster with my ex BF. Calling it a roller coaster is kind of ridiculous though because it doesn't even begin to describe what the experience does to my heart. Anyway, we did finally talk on th...

orchidlover · orchidlover

For 4 years I lived around addicts and alcoholics and put a lot of boundaries in place. I would say every day without fail the boundaries were tested on different levels. At some points I dreaded going out the door. Now for 2 weeks I am living in a non A environment. Here is the difference: 1) No fear abou...

NCSUgeology · NCSUgeology

My brother has been getting a lot of resistance from family members that have set boundaries. I started the I dont want to talk to you when youre drunk boundary, and it worked great for me and my sanity. It was bad. Sometimes he couldnt talk. After that boundary was set, he never had a fat tongue when I tal...

jitsuka · jitsuka

The title says it all really. There have been some posts recently about being in a relationship and feeling totally lonely. That's exactly how I feel. I can be intellectually stimulated when I'm at university (I've just started a PhD). I've started going back to Jiu-Jitsu after a 4 year break and I'm a...

ilovedogs · ilovedogs

Some of you may remember that my AH went to see his psychiatrist and was warned not to drink while on his antidepressants. As far as I know he hasn't been drinking, at least not in my presence. He may be drinking while traveling for work but I can't prove it nor do I care. Anyway, I was helping him with som...

jmanning · jmanning

I don't know what to think or maybe I am reading too much into it. But I got a letter from my AH today and in his letter he says, "God honey I am so so sorry for my wrong doings and I'm going to get help for my alcoholism. I ask that you also work a program to help us both through my disease, for better or wors...

kris10 · kris10

When they say "If your not sure...don't" does that apply to getting rid of ur A?? Pretty sure today is going to be the day... I can feel it... I feel I know I'm going to regret it also.... I don't know what to do... I got the name calling this morning too which was AWESOME after being up all night to...

kris10 · kris10

730 in the morning and i havent slept all night because my Abf has been banging around all night cleaning ( heroin induced) now i get to try and take care of a sick little one all day... ( my son) god im going to need some help today.........

Grace7 · Grace7

Hi all. I've had a great deal of experience of living with an active A, who has been my ex for quite some time now. In other words, I've not lived with "active" addiction in some time. However, now my grown sons have the addiction or ACOA issues that make it tough for me sometimes. My curren...

lookingup · lookingup

he thought id never come back ,was sooo happy to c me as i was him,we will always love each other,i do know now he wants it as bad as me to work out for us ,he is doing better with his drinking but still drinks um 4 24oz a day instead of a case and a pint of vodka,my freind told me that it could all blow up ,this i know...

Jozie · Jozie

Hello MIP ;0) I know its been a while, but it is def, the time of the change of Seasons for me... Some Good =) Some Not so Much :'( My Son ended his Soccer Outdoor Season, and we are about to begin our Soccer Indoor season, which isn't near the hassle, its only 1 day a week, and tho I signed in as Coach, I have tr...

stephaniej · stephaniej

Throwing myself quite a pity party today (combination of phases 1 and 3 Tom!). I am having such a hard time coping...my mom's terminally ill, I'm living in a new area where I know nobody because I lost my job in my old area...I need support and understanding and compassion so much, but it's nowhere to be f...

Lindaoakford · Lindaoakford

I am going out to a show that I bought ticket for myself and my friend. to see a psychic medium Hubbie doesn't want to come. He came to one before and liked it, but isn't really into it. Now here is the bit.... A month or so ago, I would not have bought the tickets becasue whenever I go out.. I know he will stay h...

orchidlover · orchidlover

For me taking care of myself was really foreign for a long time. I left 7 years of non stop chaos and crises to live by myself. Initially I've been surrounded by roommates who are addicts and alcoholics and some other stuff in there too. Their chaos and out of control life certainly came in to affect me...

Cupcake · Cupcake

Last night I came home from work and my husband was drunk. I ignored it and pretended I didn't notice. He is hiding the fact that he is drinking from me since I've started to go to AlAnon. He's not very good at it. LOL I have called someone from my group, read some literature. It's just kind of a bummer. Liv...

amills4294 · amills4294

God grant me the Serenity to accept the things I cannot change The courage to change the things I can And the Wisdom to know the difference!!!!!!!! I really need this today!!!!!!!!!!!!!

mdkm0726 · mdkm0726

I could not get out to one in my area but was very glad to remember there was one here. I was so disappointed...I needed a meeting desparately. I'm having a problem with the fine line between detachment and honesty. I would like to have heard others speak on this subject. Sometimes I am so busy detac...

amills4294 · amills4294

I know it's important to work the program, and really all I've been doing is reading daily readings and going to a face to face meeting once or maybe twice a week, if I'm lucky. Plus, participating on this board. It's hard to stay focused on it all the time. I hope to reach a point where it doesn't have to...

rara avis · rara avis

I'm sure I'm not the only one here who has had this phenomenon happen. I feel like I have just learned the lesson of detatchment [ well not with love, ] and self care, but not in the alanon way, instead in the wrong way. What I have learned is this: heartbreak can be cured with fear. My ex RA is REALLY acting u...

Very Very Tired · Very Very Tired

In trying to reclaim my life, I have gotten busy and gotten out of the house a lot. I'm involved in some great groups doing both personal and civic things. But, what I haven't done is invite those who don't know me well into my "inner sanctum". Tonight, a few people who don't know I am the wife of...

Very Very Tired · Very Very Tired

I normally don't move alcohol bottles or beer cans. They sit where they sit. Today was an exception. I was getting ready for tomorrow's big Halloween party. I needed counter space in the area where some bottles were. So, I moved the bottles to the basement in an area where I knew AH could easily find them...

Ness · Ness

My heart is sore. Our son passed away on Thursday. He is free of the torment and ravages of the disease..... for that I am grateful.Thirty five years ago today was a day of joyous celebration when I delivered him into this world at 11am, a healthy 7lbs 6 ounces with a mop of blonde hair. He grew to be a gentle...

Something simple · Something simple

New here and would like to hear how others handle keeping boundaries clear. The gist if my background is i come from a narcissistic mother and alcoholic father who quit after having paranoid delusions. My husband of 11 yrs and a decade younger than me lost his alcoholic dad as a child and was raised by a n...

pinkchip · pinkchip

Sometimes it would seem that terms translate well from the big book of AA to alanon and sometimes they don't. Here is one term that definitely applies to big headed egotist alcoholics like me: Self-Will Run Riot: This phrase comes from chapter 5 of the Big Book, 'Selfishness- self-centeredness! Th...

Pushka · Pushka

Holy cow last night was a blast. My AH and I took the kids door to door trick or treating in our town that is not as easy as it sounds. We live in the country and that is not going to happen out here .. lol. For some crazy reason I never thought about driving to another area to go door to door. We've done trick...

Hoot Nanny · Hoot Nanny

I am grieving today over the loss of my step-mom suddenly yesterday afternoon. She was in ICU for awhile but she didn't make it! I have had so many ups & downs since she came into my life over 36 years ago. It really took a lot to start to accept her & love her over the years. Because of my recovery, I h...

callmemara · callmemara

He's got this bad habit of taking the car and driving it to the bar even though the bar is a 7 minute walk. Even though we discussed him not doing it Last week I was dropped off by a neighbor and took the car home and he got a ride from someone. Tonight we were at a friends house and he left 30 seconds before I did s...

RunnerChick · RunnerChick

Thank you all for the warm welcomes - it means so much. I'm sitting here this morning and pondering over yesterday - Easter. My qualifier, my ABF and I had a nice day/dinner. In these seemingly peaceful times I seem to feel a stirring anxiety of sorts; like I don't want to enjoy myself in his company too mu...

Cupcake · Cupcake

Do any of you use the chat room either for meetings or general chat? I have been on there a couple of times but the meetings don't seem to happen at regular times even though regular times are posted. I'd like to attend more meetings but as many of you do, find it difficult to drive to a meeting and would lik...

Green Eyes · Green Eyes

Both of the A's in my life went into their "victim" mentalities with me yesterday. My AH texted to me that all of our phone conversations these days (we're currently separated) "are interrogations." Pre-Al-Anon I would have lashed back and tried to defend myself or tell him he...

usedtobeanyer · usedtobeanyer

My wife said those words to me as I was leaving for work this morning. She was surprised by my reaction, and kept saying "you shouldn't worry". If there weren't kids involved that needed to be picked up from school, I wouldn't worry. If she hadn't driven blind drunk 2 weeks prior, I wouldn't w...

kris10 · kris10

ok my head is running wild again.... It's 2am and I woke up and my Abf is STILL not home.... Although lately that isn't anything new... But beings that it's saturday and I don't have a kid I asked him if we could do something together tonight... I got in the shower and poof he's gone... Haven't seen or heard...

Jennifer · Jennifer

I keep coming here and not knowing what to write :) I am doing well, keeping up with my self care and program tools. Meditation and meetings (phone support is keeping me balanced, thankfully) have taken a backseat for a time while my normal schedule has the addition of the puppy, taking in my brother's y...

jmanning · jmanning

Well I don't know how much my HP thinks I can handle but I feel I have just been given too much. My AH is still in county waiting to go to rehab. He had transport papers to go but rehab denied him because of his paperwork. So today he goes back to court to fix it hopefully and then wait more weeks til a bed opens in...

callmemara · callmemara

I've been doing pretty good about not saying anything when I know he's been drinking/is drunk. Apparently though I don't hide it well b/c he's always asking me "what's wrong, what's the matter, what's that look for" which he does to some extent the same thing while sober and before he even s...

flopadopilus · flopadopilus

Last night I went to a fondue party (which was so nice nad fun) and was listening to one of my girlfriends complain about feeling stagnant in her life. She in my mind has a wonderful husband, healthy 4 year old, doesn't have to work and is okay financially. I don't blame her for being bored in life we all get...

Pushka · Pushka

I'm feeling a bit over loaded at the moment, it's not bad in the sense that I'm depressed. I'm more just feeling burnt out and up. I'm ready to redifine myself for lack of a better term. I'm more than a problem drinkers spouse, I"m more than the co dependent in this relationship, I'm more than a mo...

GailMichelle · GailMichelle

The Al-Anon program and other sources have taught me and continue to teach me so much about what is really important. My appreciation is continually growing. Some of what I appreciate: * The knowing that futality of taking other people's inventory. This knowing has freed me beyond measure. * The k...

Tracy · Tracy

Hi everyone, I have been tired never went to my meeting last night stayed home watched tv. this morning I was tired thought I am not going to my sat morn meeting having a lie in. when my alarm went off i turned it off, it went off again, i turned it off. then a knock at the door It was really early I got up it wa...

Hoot Nanny · Hoot Nanny

I can't seem to sleep in to well these days! I guess when I get up at around 4:30 am I have a little trouble getting back to sleep--technically I get enough sleep--to bed by 11 & up before 9 most days. Just having to get up early on Thursdys too kind of throws off my week. I go to TOPS on Thurs. mornings as I h...

Very Very Tired · Very Very Tired

I don't want to wake up my sponsor. I know I should. But I don't want to. So, I'm writing here to keep my head from exploding. Part of my disease, my addiciton, my co-dependency is obsessively checking up on my AH. I took all the power out of his HP's hands and decided I was going to run the show. The obsession...

sookie · sookie

My estranged AH showed up drunk to take our kids trick or treating at a local festival with me last night. He blamed his relapse on having seen me out with friends earlier having a glass of wine (on my birthday--happy freaking birthday). I am SOOOO tired of being his reason to drink or the pressure of bein...

nyc018 · nyc018

I just need to vent as it's a snowy Saturday night in NYC and any feelings of tranquility during the day have been sapped. Yes, it is my qualifier (AH) who caused this all. But I have another battle, with my family, whose need to control, bully, threaten and strongarm me into banishing him from my lif...

Mlkiss75 · Mlkiss75

I just finished reading "Marriage on the Rocks: Learning to Live with Yourself and an Alcoholic" by Janet Geringer Woititz, Ed.D. I HIGHLY recommend this book! It is only 194 pages and makes PERFECT sense. And I don't even remember mention of higher power - it points out clearly and logica...

Pushka · Pushka

I've got an amazing friend who I love dearly and we probably know each other better than anyone else. They are really truly amazing. I'm having challenges trying to remind them I am more than my AH's issues. They are getting stuck in their own past at the moment and there is a part of me that wants to sho...

Jackie11 · Jackie11

I'm at work, trying so hard to focus because I have so much to do. I'm so beyond aggravated and I just want to scream. I'm repeating to myself that I can't control this, that I can only do what I can do. That my AH has a disease. We had a conversation last night, I found out the previous evening (while AH was dru...

Lindaoakford · Lindaoakford

HI all This weekend I had pizza for dinner and watched a movie on Friday night. Saturday I did a few jobs around the place and visited a friend and picked some mangoes from her back yard trees. I did a bit of Christmas shopping. I looked around the boards a bit. Sat night I relaxed and watched soem TV. T...

Debilyn · Debilyn

For me it is not that we don't say anything, hold it in, feel frustrated. It's not about the A asking me what is wrong. It's more it is none of my business, it is his life, his disease is his own. I love him, I am glad he is home, I am sad he is so sick. But I choose to live with him as is.If he is not ready to go into re...

rara avis · rara avis

Hello everyone, Just an update since I haven't been on here much and don't want to be rude by just disappearing! My RA has access to his storage and stuff, getting him there was a comedy of nuisance. The only concern now is that I have his plants, so getting them back to him at some point could be problem...

mdkm0726 · mdkm0726

My daughter has 3 small children living with her. She is an active addict and is barely functioning. She has had no electric for about 10 days..and her and her children have been staying elsewhere unknown. DFS and a police officer has been looking for her and the children. She has sent an occasiona...

Tracy · Tracy

I have been learning how much I have lived in denial. I lived in a bubblw were I could only see the nice in the world and people. I must of developed this as a reaction to my childhood. It wasnt to long ago that I allowed myself to face the reality that my childhood was not perfect. All my life I have only all...

GreenerGrass · GreenerGrass

Hi, well I have a problem and it may be a little off topic but is still caused by the AH. Here is the story: He wasn't happy at his job, he took a job in another state even though it wasn't what I wanted at all. So now he's renting a room there, our house hasn't sold, although its only been a month and a half. But I r...

flopadopilus · flopadopilus

Amazing young woman! This changed the outlook of my day! I am no longer letting anyone abuse or misuse me! I am no longer choosing to be a vicitm and suffer for it!changes..www.youtube.com

mychem · mychem

omg I am so happy to have found this place. My spouse is the a in my life. It sucks cause I feel like I can't talk to anyone about it . His issue is making the entire house toxic. I don't think he is so bad to where he would need a medical detox so he can't use that as an excuse. It sucks cause some days he's nice and...

orchidlover · orchidlover

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cM5A1K6TxxM I know when I left the ex A I felt that I had nothing. No money, no home, no truck, no health, no job, no friends (he had made sure he isolated me well). I started over. I got back up again. Now I am making twice what I made last year (still isn't enough but i...

Becki67 · Becki67

Well, that didn't work. I've been doing so good just going on and not letting things bother me. But, I just went off on him on the phone and hung up on him. The entire day yesterday I never heard from the ABF while he was on the road. He typically calls several times a day. The night before he had told me t...

Hoot Nanny · Hoot Nanny

Don't have a lot to say today! I just want to share the LOVE I find on this forum. I am doing rather well. I still feel the blessings that I am showered w/ every day. I am so fortunate to be a SURVIVOR! I have survived a lot of difficult times but today I feel like I am over a hump that I thought I would never get ove...

Mlkiss75 · Mlkiss75

My AH's father returned from a 6 month stay in his native Hungary last weekend. My husband has been struggling big time with his recovery - he and his dad work together and as soon as his dad returned, he expected my AH to jump right back into work again. I'm not blaming his dad - my husband needs to take ca...

amills4294 · amills4294

OK, I know it never goes away, but I've done a fairly good job detaching myself from her disease. But, I'm not perfect and there are times that it just hits me in the face again. She went in for surgery for a blocked carotid artery. My father told me the night before she went in, she went out and bought 4 la...

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	really struggling lost struggling relapse worry fear hopeless (Preview) I have been really struggling. I have had my own sort of relapse this past week. I have been caught up in things that are not of my concern, worrying about the past, scared of the future. questioning my husband about how his own program has been going.. constantly asking whats going on in his mind.. hor...	Michelle814	15	8218	Nov 3, 2011 by Michelle814
	Did good today - reaching out and trusting (Preview) Hi All, I'm still here, though not much has changed since my last posting. Just went another round on the roller coaster with my ex BF. Calling it a roller coaster is kind of ridiculous though because it doesn't even begin to describe what the experience does to my heart. Anyway, we did finally talk on th...	Doozy	6	469	Nov 3, 2011 by Breakingfree
	Living in a non A environment (Preview) For 4 years I lived around addicts and alcoholics and put a lot of boundaries in place. I would say every day without fail the boundaries were tested on different levels. At some points I dreaded going out the door. Now for 2 weeks I am living in a non A environment. Here is the difference: 1) No fear abou...	orchidlover	6	492	Nov 3, 2011 by orchidlover
	AB & Boundaries (Preview) My brother has been getting a lot of resistance from family members that have set boundaries. I started the I dont want to talk to you when youre drunk boundary, and it worked great for me and my sanity. It was bad. Sometimes he couldnt talk. After that boundary was set, he never had a fat tongue when I tal...	NCSUgeology	8	406	Nov 3, 2011 by NCSUgeology
	I feel very lonely and isolated in this relationship. (Preview) The title says it all really. There have been some posts recently about being in a relationship and feeling totally lonely. That's exactly how I feel. I can be intellectually stimulated when I'm at university (I've just started a PhD). I've started going back to Jiu-Jitsu after a 4 year break and I'm a...	jitsuka	7	469	Nov 3, 2011 by tommyecat
	Is he trading one issue for another? (Preview) Some of you may remember that my AH went to see his psychiatrist and was warned not to drink while on his antidepressants. As far as I know he hasn't been drinking, at least not in my presence. He may be drinking while traveling for work but I can't prove it nor do I care. Anyway, I was helping him with som...	ilovedogs	9	563	Nov 3, 2011 by tommyecat
	Don't know what to think (Preview) I don't know what to think or maybe I am reading too much into it. But I got a letter from my AH today and in his letter he says, "God honey I am so so sorry for my wrong doings and I'm going to get help for my alcoholism. I ask that you also work a program to help us both through my disease, for better or wors...	jmanning	14	522	Nov 3, 2011 by tommyecat
	??? (Preview) When they say "If your not sure...don't" does that apply to getting rid of ur A?? Pretty sure today is going to be the day... I can feel it... I feel I know I'm going to regret it also.... I don't know what to do... I got the name calling this morning too which was AWESOME after being up all night to...	kris10	16	514	Nov 3, 2011 by tommyecat
	Up all night (Preview) 730 in the morning and i havent slept all night because my Abf has been banging around all night cleaning ( heroin induced) now i get to try and take care of a sick little one all day... ( my son) god im going to need some help today.........	kris10	5	320	Nov 3, 2011 by tommyecat
	Need Advice (Preview) Hi all. I've had a great deal of experience of living with an active A, who has been my ex for quite some time now. In other words, I've not lived with "active" addiction in some time. However, now my grown sons have the addiction or ACOA issues that make it tough for me sometimes. My curren...	Grace7	14	494	Nov 3, 2011 by Pushka
	back with my ex a (Preview) he thought id never come back ,was sooo happy to c me as i was him,we will always love each other,i do know now he wants it as bad as me to work out for us ,he is doing better with his drinking but still drinks um 4 24oz a day instead of a case and a pint of vodka,my freind told me that it could all blow up ,this i know...	lookingup	6	584	Nov 3, 2011 by pinkchip
	Continued Recovery...Yay... (Preview) Hello MIP ;0) I know its been a while, but it is def, the time of the change of Seasons for me... Some Good =) Some Not so Much :'( My Son ended his Soccer Outdoor Season, and we are about to begin our Soccer Indoor season, which isn't near the hassle, its only 1 day a week, and tho I signed in as Coach, I have tr...	Jozie	7	359	Nov 2, 2011 by hotrod
	Struggling (Preview) Throwing myself quite a pity party today (combination of phases 1 and 3 Tom!). I am having such a hard time coping...my mom's terminally ill, I'm living in a new area where I know nobody because I lost my job in my old area...I need support and understanding and compassion so much, but it's nowhere to be f...	stephaniej	7	577	Nov 2, 2011 by Breakingfree
	Im going out (Preview) I am going out to a show that I bought ticket for myself and my friend. to see a psychic medium Hubbie doesn't want to come. He came to one before and liked it, but isn't really into it. Now here is the bit.... A month or so ago, I would not have bought the tickets becasue whenever I go out.. I know he will stay h...	Lindaoakford	8	321	Nov 2, 2011 by hotrod
	How do you take care of yourself (Preview) For me taking care of myself was really foreign for a long time. I left 7 years of non stop chaos and crises to live by myself. Initially I've been surrounded by roommates who are addicts and alcoholics and some other stuff in there too. Their chaos and out of control life certainly came in to affect me...	orchidlover	9	525	Nov 2, 2011 by orchidlover
	Looking for some good esh! (Preview) Last night I came home from work and my husband was drunk. I ignored it and pretended I didn't notice. He is hiding the fact that he is drinking from me since I've started to go to AlAnon. He's not very good at it. LOL I have called someone from my group, read some literature. It's just kind of a bummer. Liv...	Cupcake	11	573	Nov 2, 2011 by pinkchip
	Serenity (Preview) God grant me the Serenity to accept the things I cannot change The courage to change the things I can And the Wisdom to know the difference!!!!!!!! I really need this today!!!!!!!!!!!!!	amills4294	4	304	Nov 2, 2011 by rrib
	I am Very Disappointed there was no alanon meeting tonight (Preview) I could not get out to one in my area but was very glad to remember there was one here. I was so disappointed...I needed a meeting desparately. I'm having a problem with the fine line between detachment and honesty. I would like to have heard others speak on this subject. Sometimes I am so busy detac...	mdkm0726	7	458	Nov 2, 2011 by abbyal
	sometimes just tired.... (Preview) I know it's important to work the program, and really all I've been doing is reading daily readings and going to a face to face meeting once or maybe twice a week, if I'm lucky. Plus, participating on this board. It's hard to stay focused on it all the time. I hope to reach a point where it doesn't have to...	amills4294	4	370	Nov 1, 2011 by orchidlover
	learned the right lesson the wrong way (Preview) I'm sure I'm not the only one here who has had this phenomenon happen. I feel like I have just learned the lesson of detatchment [ well not with love, ] and self care, but not in the alanon way, instead in the wrong way. What I have learned is this: heartbreak can be cured with fear. My ex RA is REALLY acting u...	rara avis	6	449	Nov 1, 2011 by Lindaoakford
	Breaking out of isolation (Preview) In trying to reclaim my life, I have gotten busy and gotten out of the house a lot. I'm involved in some great groups doing both personal and civic things. But, what I haven't done is invite those who don't know me well into my "inner sanctum". Tonight, a few people who don't know I am the wife of...	Very Very Tired	6	689	Nov 1, 2011 by orchidlover
	Note to self: Never move an alcoholic's bottles (Preview) I normally don't move alcohol bottles or beer cans. They sit where they sit. Today was an exception. I was getting ready for tomorrow's big Halloween party. I needed counter space in the area where some bottles were. So, I moved the bottles to the basement in an area where I knew AH could easily find them...	Very Very Tired	7	2696	Nov 1, 2011 by Lindaoakford
	Dear Friends (Preview) My heart is sore. Our son passed away on Thursday. He is free of the torment and ravages of the disease..... for that I am grateful.Thirty five years ago today was a day of joyous celebration when I delivered him into this world at 11am, a healthy 7lbs 6 ounces with a mop of blonde hair. He grew to be a gentle...	Ness	28	699	Nov 1, 2011 by orchidlover
	How to stick to my word (Preview) New here and would like to hear how others handle keeping boundaries clear. The gist if my background is i come from a narcissistic mother and alcoholic father who quit after having paranoid delusions. My husband of 11 yrs and a decade younger than me lost his alcoholic dad as a child and was raised by a n...	Something simple	4	494	Nov 1, 2011 by orchidlover
	Applying slogans and terms (Preview) Sometimes it would seem that terms translate well from the big book of AA to alanon and sometimes they don't. Here is one term that definitely applies to big headed egotist alcoholics like me: Self-Will Run Riot: This phrase comes from chapter 5 of the Big Book, 'Selfishness- self-centeredness! Th...	pinkchip	14	1045	Nov 1, 2011 by tommyecat
	Control issues .. much? (Preview) Holy cow last night was a blast. My AH and I took the kids door to door trick or treating in our town that is not as easy as it sounds. We live in the country and that is not going to happen out here .. lol. For some crazy reason I never thought about driving to another area to go door to door. We've done trick...	Pushka	3	739	Nov 1, 2011 by never going back
	so sad...what do I say? (Preview) I am grieving today over the loss of my step-mom suddenly yesterday afternoon. She was in ICU for awhile but she didn't make it! I have had so many ups & downs since she came into my life over 36 years ago. It really took a lot to start to accept her & love her over the years. Because of my recovery, I h...	Hoot Nanny	12	506	Nov 1, 2011 by Ruby
	Taking his (my) car from the bar parking lot. (Preview) He's got this bad habit of taking the car and driving it to the bar even though the bar is a 7 minute walk. Even though we discussed him not doing it Last week I was dropped off by a neighbor and took the car home and he got a ride from someone. Tonight we were at a friends house and he left 30 seconds before I did s...	callmemara	7	500	Nov 1, 2011 by orchidlover
	The Fear of Relapse (Preview) Thank you all for the warm welcomes - it means so much. I'm sitting here this morning and pondering over yesterday - Easter. My qualifier, my ABF and I had a nice day/dinner. In these seemingly peaceful times I seem to feel a stirring anxiety of sorts; like I don't want to enjoy myself in his company too mu...	RunnerChick	7	1658	Nov 1, 2011 by Michelle814
	Just curious (Preview) Do any of you use the chat room either for meetings or general chat? I have been on there a couple of times but the meetings don't seem to happen at regular times even though regular times are posted. I'd like to attend more meetings but as many of you do, find it difficult to drive to a meeting and would lik...	Cupcake	6	384	Nov 1, 2011 by kris10
	Practicing My Program Working the Program (Preview) Both of the A's in my life went into their "victim" mentalities with me yesterday. My AH texted to me that all of our phone conversations these days (we're currently separated) "are interrogations." Pre-Al-Anon I would have lashed back and tried to defend myself or tell him he...	Green Eyes	2	325	Nov 1, 2011 by Pushka
	"I'm feeling vulnerable today" (Preview) My wife said those words to me as I was leaving for work this morning. She was surprised by my reaction, and kept saying "you shouldn't worry". If there weren't kids involved that needed to be picked up from school, I wouldn't worry. If she hadn't driven blind drunk 2 weeks prior, I wouldn't w...	usedtobeanyer	7	761	Oct 31, 2011 by Debilyn
	lonely.... (Preview) ok my head is running wild again.... It's 2am and I woke up and my Abf is STILL not home.... Although lately that isn't anything new... But beings that it's saturday and I don't have a kid I asked him if we could do something together tonight... I got in the shower and poof he's gone... Haven't seen or heard...	kris10	17	623	Oct 31, 2011 by GailMichelle
	Check in (Preview) I keep coming here and not knowing what to write :) I am doing well, keeping up with my self care and program tools. Meditation and meetings (phone support is keeping me balanced, thankfully) have taken a backseat for a time while my normal schedule has the addition of the puppy, taking in my brother's y...	Jennifer	5	339	Oct 31, 2011 by pineapple
	Okay is it okay to fall apart........ (Preview) Well I don't know how much my HP thinks I can handle but I feel I have just been given too much. My AH is still in county waiting to go to rehab. He had transport papers to go but rehab denied him because of his paperwork. So today he goes back to court to fix it hopefully and then wait more weeks til a bed opens in...	jmanning	11	594	Oct 31, 2011 by tommyecat
	I did something stupid tonight. (Preview) I've been doing pretty good about not saying anything when I know he's been drinking/is drunk. Apparently though I don't hide it well b/c he's always asking me "what's wrong, what's the matter, what's that look for" which he does to some extent the same thing while sober and before he even s...	callmemara	14	568	Oct 31, 2011 by tommyecat
	More fully seeing my choices (Preview) Last night I went to a fondue party (which was so nice nad fun) and was listening to one of my girlfriends complain about feeling stagnant in her life. She in my mind has a wonderful husband, healthy 4 year old, doesn't have to work and is okay financially. I don't blame her for being bored in life we all get...	flopadopilus	8	539	Oct 31, 2011 by nyc018
	Long week :) (Preview) I'm feeling a bit over loaded at the moment, it's not bad in the sense that I'm depressed. I'm more just feeling burnt out and up. I'm ready to redifine myself for lack of a better term. I'm more than a problem drinkers spouse, I"m more than the co dependent in this relationship, I'm more than a mo...	Pushka	4	492	Oct 31, 2011 by tommyecat
	Appreciation is Growing (Preview) The Al-Anon program and other sources have taught me and continue to teach me so much about what is really important. My appreciation is continually growing. Some of what I appreciate: * The knowing that futality of taking other people's inventory. This knowing has freed me beyond measure. * The k...	GailMichelle	6	363	Oct 31, 2011 by tommyecat
	learnt so much from a newcomer (Preview) Hi everyone, I have been tired never went to my meeting last night stayed home watched tv. this morning I was tired thought I am not going to my sat morn meeting having a lie in. when my alarm went off i turned it off, it went off again, i turned it off. then a knock at the door It was really early I got up it wa...	Tracy	4	366	Oct 31, 2011 by tommyecat
	very tired... (Preview) I can't seem to sleep in to well these days! I guess when I get up at around 4:30 am I have a little trouble getting back to sleep--technically I get enough sleep--to bed by 11 & up before 9 most days. Just having to get up early on Thursdys too kind of throws off my week. I go to TOPS on Thurs. mornings as I h...	Hoot Nanny	3	424	Oct 31, 2011 by tommyecat
	Writing here so my head doesn't explode (Preview) I don't want to wake up my sponsor. I know I should. But I don't want to. So, I'm writing here to keep my head from exploding. Part of my disease, my addiciton, my co-dependency is obsessively checking up on my AH. I took all the power out of his HP's hands and decided I was going to run the show. The obsession...	Very Very Tired	8	592	Oct 31, 2011 by tommyecat
	trying to get off the insanity roller coaster (again) (Preview) My estranged AH showed up drunk to take our kids trick or treating at a local festival with me last night. He blamed his relapse on having seen me out with friends earlier having a glass of wine (on my birthday--happy freaking birthday). I am SOOOO tired of being his reason to drink or the pressure of bein...	sookie	6	458	Oct 30, 2011 by Lindaoakford
	Stuck in the middle again (Preview) I just need to vent as it's a snowy Saturday night in NYC and any feelings of tranquility during the day have been sapped. Yes, it is my qualifier (AH) who caused this all. But I have another battle, with my family, whose need to control, bully, threaten and strongarm me into banishing him from my lif...	nyc018	5	569	Oct 30, 2011 by flopadopilus
	Grateful! (Preview) I just finished reading "Marriage on the Rocks: Learning to Live with Yourself and an Alcoholic" by Janet Geringer Woititz, Ed.D. I HIGHLY recommend this book! It is only 194 pages and makes PERFECT sense. And I don't even remember mention of higher power - it points out clearly and logica...	Mlkiss75	6	479	Oct 30, 2011 by never going back
	More than my AH's issues (Preview) I've got an amazing friend who I love dearly and we probably know each other better than anyone else. They are really truly amazing. I'm having challenges trying to remind them I am more than my AH's issues. They are getting stuck in their own past at the moment and there is a part of me that wants to sho...	Pushka	11	542	Oct 30, 2011 by angelchar375
	In order to focus (Preview) I'm at work, trying so hard to focus because I have so much to do. I'm so beyond aggravated and I just want to scream. I'm repeating to myself that I can't control this, that I can only do what I can do. That my AH has a disease. We had a conversation last night, I found out the previous evening (while AH was dru...	Jackie11	7	600	Oct 30, 2011 by angelchar375
	I worked the program this weekend, for real I think (Preview) HI all This weekend I had pizza for dinner and watched a movie on Friday night. Saturday I did a few jobs around the place and visited a friend and picked some mangoes from her back yard trees. I did a bit of Christmas shopping. I looked around the boards a bit. Sat night I relaxed and watched soem TV. T...	Lindaoakford	9	627	Oct 30, 2011 by Cupcake
	Well do you love them????? (Preview) For me it is not that we don't say anything, hold it in, feel frustrated. It's not about the A asking me what is wrong. It's more it is none of my business, it is his life, his disease is his own. I love him, I am glad he is home, I am sad he is so sick. But I choose to live with him as is.If he is not ready to go into re...	Debilyn	10	617	Oct 30, 2011 by hotrod
	Update (Preview) Hello everyone, Just an update since I haven't been on here much and don't want to be rude by just disappearing! My RA has access to his storage and stuff, getting him there was a comedy of nuisance. The only concern now is that I have his plants, so getting them back to him at some point could be problem...	rara avis	7	318	Oct 30, 2011 by Pushka
	Addict Daughter with 3 young children My anxiety level is soo high (Preview) My daughter has 3 small children living with her. She is an active addict and is barely functioning. She has had no electric for about 10 days..and her and her children have been staying elsewhere unknown. DFS and a police officer has been looking for her and the children. She has sent an occasiona...	mdkm0726	4	339	Oct 29, 2011 by mdkm0726
	trust myself (Preview) I have been learning how much I have lived in denial. I lived in a bubblw were I could only see the nice in the world and people. I must of developed this as a reaction to my childhood. It wasnt to long ago that I allowed myself to face the reality that my childhood was not perfect. All my life I have only all...	Tracy	4	454	Oct 29, 2011 by flopadopilus
	your thoughts on my problem please. (Preview) Hi, well I have a problem and it may be a little off topic but is still caused by the AH. Here is the story: He wasn't happy at his job, he took a job in another state even though it wasn't what I wanted at all. So now he's renting a room there, our house hasn't sold, although its only been a month and a half. But I r...	GreenerGrass	10	500	Oct 29, 2011 by flopadopilus
	I think this is a must watch!!!! (Preview) Amazing young woman! This changed the outlook of my day! I am no longer letting anyone abuse or misuse me! I am no longer choosing to be a vicitm and suffer for it!changes..www.youtube.com	flopadopilus	2	485	Oct 29, 2011 by Pushka
	new and frustraited (Preview) omg I am so happy to have found this place. My spouse is the a in my life. It sucks cause I feel like I can't talk to anyone about it . His issue is making the entire house toxic. I don't think he is so bad to where he would need a medical detox so he can't use that as an excuse. It sucks cause some days he's nice and...	mychem	5	391	Oct 29, 2011 by never going back
	Getting back up (Preview) http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cM5A1K6TxxM I know when I left the ex A I felt that I had nothing. No money, no home, no truck, no health, no job, no friends (he had made sure he isolated me well). I started over. I got back up again. Now I am making twice what I made last year (still isn't enough but i...	orchidlover	10	339	Oct 29, 2011 by never going back
	So much for detachment (Preview) Well, that didn't work. I've been doing so good just going on and not letting things bother me. But, I just went off on him on the phone and hung up on him. The entire day yesterday I never heard from the ABF while he was on the road. He typically calls several times a day. The night before he had told me t...	Becki67	6	545	Oct 29, 2011 by Jerry F
	not much to say but I will post anyway! (Preview) Don't have a lot to say today! I just want to share the LOVE I find on this forum. I am doing rather well. I still feel the blessings that I am showered w/ every day. I am so fortunate to be a SURVIVOR! I have survived a lot of difficult times but today I feel like I am over a hump that I thought I would never get ove...	Hoot Nanny	3	387	Oct 29, 2011 by Jerry F
	Plugging along (Preview) My AH's father returned from a 6 month stay in his native Hungary last weekend. My husband has been struggling big time with his recovery - he and his dad work together and as soon as his dad returned, he expected my AH to jump right back into work again. I'm not blaming his dad - my husband needs to take ca...	Mlkiss75	12	463	Oct 28, 2011 by Debilyn
	facing my mom's alcoholism - again... thankful for alanon (Preview) OK, I know it never goes away, but I've done a fairly good job detaching myself from her disease. But, I'm not perfect and there are times that it just hits me in the face again. She went in for surgery for a blocked carotid artery. My father told me the night before she went in, she went out and bought 4 la...	amills4294	2	354	Oct 28, 2011 by Debilyn
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