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I can tell things in my life are shifting in a good way, there are a bunch of gold plated problems (I LOVE that!!) on my plate that I would like to go away .. lol.
I feel like I"m healing and moving forward, there is a long ways to go. Good grief .. I'm finding as I shift the more drama is being dropped in my lap. I'm trying to handle things in a different way.
It's been a lot better than I would have handled it in past months or years. I keep looking outside for the full moon .. good grief.
It's just sooo weird!! It's all going to be ok .. I"m trying to sort through give what I can to God and let it all go. Some is easier than others. Part of the issue is my AH has informed me he's going to the dr for pain meds and sleeping pills that threw me for a big loop. (I'm hanging on to the reality is he's going to take pain pills/sleeping pills or not what am I going to do?) He hasn't been to get them and probably won't be able to for a bit so I have that going for me. The other issue is he probably needs to talk to someone at the SCRAM office before taking anything as well. I'm staying out of that issue as well, or trying to .. lol. There is a reason that man is wearing that bracelet and for me it's a God thing. It brings to the front of how far I have to go. I'm grateful for that too, it humbles me in big ways.
There are other things going on, that are more gold plated issues (I love that too) that have nothing to do with addiction. It reminds me that my life is more than just addiction and that I love.
Hugs all :) P :)
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Stepping onto a brand-new path is difficult, but not more difficult than remaining in a situation, which is not nurturing to the whole woman.- Maya Angelo
Pushka...if your hubby is not drinking then i think this is a blessing and the most important thing. pain meds arent great and can be addictive. my mum is addicted to pain meds- her speech is slow (not slurred) and she is tired all the time.... but she is sober and thats great. IT really, really is the main thing.
pain meds can bring about a whole different box of problems- the side effects can really weigh you down and your quality of life is quite crap on them. but im sure your hubby has a sensible doctor and he must do what he has got to do to remain sober. thats what i think regards my mum. maybe she just needed them for the anxiety and to slow her manic hysterical thoughts down. i think without them things would have not been managable for her.
i do tend to think that my mum thinks that every problem in life has the solution in the form of a pill- and this has now backfired on her- she has taken so many sleeping tablets she now doesnt get a full nights sleep- the tablets wake her up now and do the opposite
but i really should be saying this (slap wrist) as these are his issues and you probably have enough to cope with in your own life.
@Linda, Pink Chip said something in a previous post to me about regular life issues just being gold plated (or was it golden plated) problems. Meaning draining, however just part of life, problems/challenges never go away I know in my life they are certainly better than they used to be, I am grateful for that in a very huge way!! More importantly I"M better and maybe it's not that the challenges really haven't changed I have. :)
@rosielee, Altered state of mind is an altered state of mind and he's not going to be physically sober in my mind. A long time friend of mine her ex dealt with drugs and alcohol, well he was off the booze however never quit the cocaine and other script drugs and she would talk about oh he's been 60 days sober .. umm .. nooo .. that's not sober from a stand point of being physically sober. Yes, he stopped drinking however doing any kind of drugs in my mind doesn't = sobriety. Again .. that's my opinion, I know everyone has a different one and is entitled to it, and while I am grateful for the fact my AH is not drinking and this IS his issue, of course I would prefer he not do anything that would alter his state of mind. It takes him back to that idea he can numb out instead of dealing with the issues at hand. The real bottom line is I don't have to worry about it .. I won't lie and say of course it popped into my mind as fear yesterday and I did panic .. today is a new day. It's raining out and yes you'll get a big yippee from me over that .. lol. I just wish I had some dry wood. LOL!!
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Stepping onto a brand-new path is difficult, but not more difficult than remaining in a situation, which is not nurturing to the whole woman.- Maya Angelo
regular life issues just being gold plated (or was it golden plated) problems.
I call them High Class Problems.
LOL!! I like that too!!!
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Stepping onto a brand-new path is difficult, but not more difficult than remaining in a situation, which is not nurturing to the whole woman.- Maya Angelo
My AH is #1 a drug addict but the alcoholism just completely lingers along with it.... i.e if he's not drugging he's drinking.. if he's not drinking he's drugging... until now.. he's in AA. Because drinking alcohol, to me, was just a normal event in life coming from a catholic/irish family of partiers... alcholism exists in my family but my Mom is not and my dad doesnt drink... my extended family drinks alot, some may be alcoholics I'm not sure and I'm working on giving up judging people... but because of this I thought drug addiction and alcoholism were two separate things. I thought since my AH or ABF at the time did not have a problem when he drinks (no vulgarity, no falling over, no abuse, no driving drunk.. etc) that his problem was only drugs and he could drink. Since when I met him I was still in college and partying.. I would drink with him. I am also working on mending the anger toward myself for this because i am unaware and at the time it worked for us... now it does not. As time went on and we got older the drinking went to a minimum.. at weddings or occasionally on weekends etc.. he began using prescription pills, inapropriately, daily. Anyway I, personally, have found that they are intertwined and laced together like licorice because as the old timers say "it's a thinking problem not a drinking problem." I am glad I have gained this knowledge through AA and Al-Anon and also grateful my AH is aware of this and working on sobriety one day at a time but I know my happiness cannot depend on his working the program, it must depend on my working MY program.
I like that (gold plated problems,) pushka, wherever you heard it from (pinkchip?) .. thanks for reposting it... every day there's a whole bunch of those that I work hard at keeping at a minimum.. I often am thinking... will this matter in a year, month, week, day? usually the answer is no.
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Michelle!
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