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rollercoaster remedy anyone?
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I wrote a long rambling post about my feelings.. then read some of what others are going through.. and decided I have it pretty good, and maybe I need to pray for those who are really struggling today,,, thanks to ALL of us who share no matter how large or small,, you never know how what you say may help some...
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My self worth
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It's been about a week since I've been on here. I shouldn't have stopped for even those 7 days. I have been having a tough time. I can't figure out how to love myself. I feel so 'xxxx' about myself all the time. I am working towards the future but I feel so lost still. I know that my patterns of thoughts and be...
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The Guilt of being OK
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I am finding that I am really struggling with guilt that I am doing alright. My now ex-boyfriend is 30 days clean, through a live-in rehab program. I spent 5 years with him, taking care of him financiallyand in every other way, completely burning myself out in the process. He was always loving and c...
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Autumn0729
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Really Scared of My First Meeting
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I found a meeting that I could attend tonight. It has childcare, so I can bring the kids. I'm really scared about going though. I don't know why. Will everybody there already know eachother? Will I have to tell my whole story? The website says there are special meetings for newcomers. I can't get to...
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MidwesternMom
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Multiple Rock Bottoms
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It's been a rough stretch for me, as my AH's emotional abuse has escalated dramatically over the last two months. But tonight I'm feeling grateful and reflective about many things, and I feel so optimistic about my ability to be healthy, emotionally AND physically. I found this website about a yea...
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stephaniej
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Not Sure He Should Come Home Yet
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I told my AH to leave the house on Sunday. I was so angry because I went to church, only to find that I had no money for the collection basket. He stole all the money from my purse. He was high when I got home. I have 2 little kids and I run a home daycare. I cannot have drugs in my house. I could lose my busin...
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MidwesternMom
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When to say something
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This is something that has been on my mind for weeks. I can keep my side of the street clean. Most things I can hand up to HP, I work to leave them there. My AH and I have a daughter who just turned 3. She lives with her mom during the week and we have her almost every weekend, if not for a full weekend then at leas...
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Update!
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Again, thank you all for your incredible ESH (and for your research). It is serving me well, and helping me to feel stronger. I met with a divorce lawyer yesterday - to ask questions. She was VERY concerned about my safety. I was a bit embarrassed when asked "is there any domestic violence?&q...
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KLotus
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Intern and judgments ..
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Good morning fellow shippers ? I'm starting an Intern this morning and am nervous. Of course my confidence isn't all that because I put it off for a year and am just now returning. It wasn't waisted time, however, I am feeling the effects of my procrastination in that I've forgotten many things through...
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Husband Hiding Alcohol
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Hi, I am new to the group and never thought that I would need to reach out for something like t his. I have been with my husband for 13 years and married 10. We have two boys and have had a happy life together. About two years ago, my husband seemed to have lost a lot of weight so I urged him to get in for a physi...
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I do not want to enable....
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My DH has been clean for 13 months. He has come a long way in a lot of areas. Thanks to Al-anon, I have come a long way in a lot of areas too. However, money is an issue that keeps being a big problem. He works and I stay home. With 4 children, me working and putting kids in daycare is financially out of the q...
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LostToday
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Alcoholic husband in recovery
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Hello..I am new to this forum and am hopeing I will be able to get some answers from people who have been through this... My husband and I have been married 18 yrs. He has been an alcoholic since I met him, i just didnt realize it in time. I finally left 2 years ago with our son. He started an out patient reh...
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H is recovering…Y can't I? Help….
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After 9+years of marriage to a "functional" alcoholic he seems to be a new man. I won't go into the long ugly history now but his recovery started when I had an "exit affair" 6 months ago. My affair devastated me and it has been difficult to come to grips with. On the other hand he say...
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upintheair
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Changing the things I can
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Pushka
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I've Got This!
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I've Got This! So my world came crashing down on me.the ground pulled from under my feetI was lost and so heart brokencrying so much, there was no copinThen out of no wherea voice hard to missthundering from the HeavensHe saidChild I've Got this!I've got it under controlI've got your heart here.you...
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John
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90-90
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My sponsor and I have agreed that I will not be finishing my Al-Anon 90-90. I can see why it's extremely beneficial for AA members in their early days of sobriety -- keeping them busy with the program gives them less time to revert to old behaviors -- but for me, being super-busy brought back old behavior...
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atheos
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feel my past is hauting me
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HI From my bio you will read that I have a few violent past partners. One of those partners still lives in the relatively small city that I live in. He is a local businessman in the same area of building trade that my husband works in. I have often expressed my warnings that if they were ever to run into eac...
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Lindaoakford
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Growth / Stagnant Growth
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I've shared on this before that I had the awareness that the addicts stops growing from the time they started using. What I later had the awareness on was how I quit growing also the second I began obssessing and focusing on the addict/alcoholic (s) instead of me. For me, this was honestly around 5. Wit...
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MeTwo2
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husband
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My husband is a physically abusive alcoholic. He had to go to the emergency room for a suicide attempt and then to a mental health facility. During this time I ran and got a restraining order. The court dropped the restraining order b/c he was in a mental health facility. Since it has been dropped, h...
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ttpurtee
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Support
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I've been looking for a support group for those in relationships with prescription drug addicts. My bf is now in recovery for 8 months after a 3 month stay in rehab. Looking for infor and support with the rollercoaster emotions that go along with it. He was great for 3 months, went back to work and now...
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double rainbow
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ugh
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Well, I tripped from my bad leg on the deck over the river. Fell flat hard on my front. Broke my rib again and am sore everywhere. Someone messed up my fence and stole all my gas. Mind you I am way up in the mountains.... Had horrible dreams about my brother. I need ACOBB's. Adult children who had a bad brothe...
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Debilyn
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Disturbing phone call!
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So the other day I expressed a very long post saying: The start of step 1! Finally put an end to living his addiciton! Refuse to live this way! Well I started the process of feeling good and not sad, not mad either. I was a little pissed but I actually have been blanking him out of my head. Well I dont know why...
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Julie3310
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"Why is Daddy being so mean?"
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My 5 year old asked me this just now, and it is breaking my heart. My AH is home, but severly stressed about losing a lot of his work (due to cutbacks), and having ugly feelings that, for today, he is not masking with drinking. He is, however, in a bad mood and snappy. With the children, he has a history of...
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danni
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I wish I could believe this gets better
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I feel like I have to do things for people or they won't like me, because I am the weird, shy, awkward fat girl who likes to stay at home and read instead of party, that I'm no fun to be around, and people only put up with me because I do nice things for them and they feel guilty like they have to be nice. I do thing...
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atheos
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keeping secrets of the one who's sick
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My husband just admitted to me that he had been using Heroin all day yesterday (for the first time). This admission comes after I continued to ask him about his tracked and bruised arms. He continues longtime suffering from alcoholism and prescription opiate Dependancy. He has been on a 14 month long...
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smzele
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holding to my boundries
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I am being pressured by my AS to give him money so he can take this girl on a "date" . #1 I don't believe him that it is for a date. #2. I truely have no money to give him. I told him "no" and he won't let it go. He was in his room texting me and just keeps it going . He is so desprete that he ask...
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debbiems
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The Storm is Passing
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Well.. I took a day off work Friday for a spiritual day. Every sign I fell upon was my HP telling me that it is okay to live a little. As in I heard this tale of a man who asks a monk... "If I meditate for 6 hours a day how soon will I reach spiritual enlightenment?" The monk responds "ten yea...
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Michelle814
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Learning How to Live (by Beth Hart)
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John
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Senseless loss. Prayers please!
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Last night my friend's ah shot and killed her while her two babies slept! This is so unreal, such a tragedy. I know she was trying to separate herself from him but was torn because of the kids, and had said he was "rarely" violent. There were so many red flags, and I tried to be there for her when s...
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sarebaer
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how to word it.
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I have told my Abf several times now that if he drinks do not come home just stay with who ever you are drinking with. But every night he drinks and then drives home or calls me to come get him. Well I am done with it. I am serious I do not want him in my house if he has been drinking. Its eaither drink or live here...
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HoofnIt
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Don't know how to explain to my kids
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My mother is an alcoholic. She has had serveral relapses since first getting sober when I was 15. I am now 35, I am married, have three great kids. My mom lived with us for about 7 years and in Jan 2011 moved into her own apartment, my two youngest, ages 8 and 9, spend most weekends with her. Until last n...
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NumbandAngry
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In Crisis
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This weekend was my husband's weekend. Last night we went to a concert (tickets were my Xmas gift to him), and today he went to a fan convention for his favorite sports team (tickets were the kids' Xmas gift to him). We had a great time at the concert, and he had a wonderful time at the convention today. ...
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stephaniej
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Can I ask my alcoholic unemployed roommate to leave within 3 weeks?
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My alcoholic roommate "Ron" is a good friend and has been living with us for 6 months. Ron and I both rent rooms from my best (and lifelong) friend "James" who owns the house, and there is no written lease for either of us. We are all 30 yr old bachelors. Previously, James and I lived...
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SnowRavenX
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hugs to you all, haven't dropped off the face of the earth!
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Hey everybody, Just wanted to say that I've been doing a lot of writing lately [ big presentation ] hence I have not felt like writing much besides that. So I've been lurking, been reading a lot of posts, nodding or shaking my head where appropriate, and have wanted to send support to every single one...
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rara avis
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update from the weekend
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For those of you who may remember.... I was a little concerned and really employed the One Day At A Time thing this weekend. I thought my husband would contact friends of his who are in town due to a personal family medical emergency. They are major pot smokers. I decided that no matter what, I have thing...
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Lindaoakford
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No internet can respond to posts cant start any it's on my en
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Pushka
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How do I detatch and not take us both down?
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My siginificant other and I joined forces in business almost 4 years ago. She's the licensed professional, and I'm the marketing guy. Despite her 4th stage alcoholism, we've been able to grow the business successfully, and we're set to have the best year ever. I finally became wise enough to try alan...
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sparky60
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A comforting thought I keep coming back to...
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Regardless of whether I turn right or turn left, I will still end up where I need to be. It's OK to enjoy the journey and stop worrying about the destination. Looking back at my life, everything was leading to me being right where I am now. I took a lot of different turns, but I still ended up here. And here...
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Very Very Tired
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Update
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First of all, thanks everyone for all your support. It was immensely helpful. My AH came home last night. He called in the afternoon, and I told him I was uncomfortable not knowing where he was and what his plan was. He said he was coming home. So he did, gave me a hug, said he missed us, and i felt...su...
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danni
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Life Without the Internet
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Hi All, I jus0t got re-connected with my Internet provider. It's been around 3 weeks without service. First, my laptop had to be sent to Dell for repair. Coffee, cream and sugar were accidently spilt on it. That took about 2 and a half weeks to get it back and $360 (ouch!) Then, my re-connection was de...
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GailMichelle
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How do you "let go" when a child is involved??
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Hello everyone...I'm new to the forum & am so happy to have found it! It's so frustrating when people don't unstand what you're going through. I tried an Al-Anon meeting once, about 4 yrs ago. But, I didn't think it was for me. I had a hard time w/ it because it made me feel like I was the alcoholic....
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Peace33
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Help! Confused about how to be around her...
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I'm going to my sister's to do her hair soon & I don't know what expression to have on my face, or how to behave anymore! We've been through this rollercoaster so many times, I'm confused between trying to do the right thing & of knowing how to help her & myself. I'm tired of having to walk on...
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Peace33
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My fiance drinks too much
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Hi all. This is my first post and I am new to Alanon (5 weeks). I don't have a sponsor as yet to ask this question. Although I was uncomfortable with it, I left my fiancé to drink with my work friends at a barbecue last night whilst I went to work. She is aware that situation makes me uncomfortable and upon lea...
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AusRat
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Whose BOAT is it anyway?
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Readers Digest version: Been in Alanon since 2003, changed my life in so many positive ways (I should write a book), have an active healthy life. Married a terrific guy Dec 2010, have a dream honeymoon, happy life on our busy little ranch, perfect right! Oct 2011, I am at a stop in my little corolla waiti...
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Yllek
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no nonsense; just me!
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I am open to the posibilities today. I hope for only the best & sometimes expect the worst. The program has taught me to face fears & accept the things I cannot change. I have noticed that lately there are a lot of things I cannot change. The are no absolutes in this that I can see. The only thing con...
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Hoot Nanny
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gratitude list in pictorial form
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ok, I got hold of a few facebook photos to put onhere. I have chosen things that make me smile today...... My big cat's name is Colin and he is now 13 years old. the big black dog is my husbands dog and she is not allowed near the little ones or she will eat them.... the flowers are a sample of the type of thing...
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Lindaoakford
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Fellng kind of bitter and angry today!
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Although I have accepted my AH is SICK. He is mentally sick and he is an alcoholic. My neighbor just had a baby. He wants to act all lovey dovey with me and start talking about how nice it would be to have a baby at home. Ababy of our own. I just feel so angry with him I want to cry. Angry that we couldn't have one m...
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odalis
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AH took off for a few days
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After expressing that he felt overwhelmed and lost, my occasionally drinking AH said he wanted to take a break for a few days. I said (I was prepared this time) , "if that's what you feel you need to do". I used to plead and talk him into staying. So within half an hour he left. He woudn't tell me w...
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danni
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hope it gets better...
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As I am sitting here I don't have a plan what I want to say. I noticed today that my family ties are really severed. I guess if I want to I can piece them back together. I am only responsible for what I can do these days. I have a cousin who I would like to reconnect w/ some day. I have family who seems distant at so...
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Hoot Nanny
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Authority Figures
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Starting my intern next week and have one class to take on the side to accompany it. I'm having a hard time going back to finish college; I took a year off that was Much needed. Now, however, I am looking at things and recognising I have to work for someone. I am still dealing with the area of authority figur...
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MeTwo2
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More Update
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Thank you to all who've responded. You are amazing. Truly. Below are answers to some questions, and an update about an incident last night To answer some questions: My AH went into rehab last May-June. He got out, did some AA for about 8 weeks (at best), and ditched. Then he went to couseling, ditc...
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KLotus
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The start of step 1! Finally put an end to living his addiciton! Refuse to live this way!
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The other day I wrote a post on how do i end things. Should I visit him or not. I already mentally prepared myself that this relationship is over. After a year of cheating, lying and instance of physical abuse and taking a hard hit financially with this person and sticking with him through the 1t time in ja...
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Julie3310
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How to like ourselves more....
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Recovery is civil war, but it is a war that can be won. --Sister Imelda How often do we hear people say, "Sure, I know it's the right thing to do - but it's easier said than done!'' But "it," whatever "it" is for each of us, is actually easier done than not done. As hard as it is t...
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glad lee
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Consumed with hate for my AH
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I have really regressed in my recovery. I hate my soon-to-be ex-AH so much, and I am so full of resentments. I've been going to extra meetings, but it hasn't really helped yet. I posted before that I am divorcing my AH. He's been clean for about 15 months, but not really working a program of recovery. And,...
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stopandchat
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Will I ever find the trust?
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After 2 years of living apart, ultimately ending in divorce, my ex-husband still begs me to give him another chance. We struggled through 8 years of dealing with his drinking before his violent rampages sent bricks and benches through my windows while I rushed to hide with our 3 yr old. After a DUI he w...
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GettingStronger
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Need Reality Check
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I've been lurking here for some time, but this is my first post. There is quite a lot of wisdom here, and I'm in need of a reality check. My addict husband has been clean for a year now. A lot of progress has been made. But lately he has been doing little things that bring up an incredible amount of rage i...
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LostToday
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selfish emotions
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I am in a strange place today. A few things have happened over the last few days. 1. Lots of little niggly things have gone wrong like lost passwords, internet access problems, large loan payments going wrong meaning visits to banks etc (more debt for me!!!), phone not working properly.... you know t...
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Lindaoakford
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Want to go to a meeting tomorrow but.....
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Yes, I have a 'but' up there. I'm nervous and don't know what to expect. If my husband can't take my son to tennis practice tomorrow night, then I won't be able to go but if I can get him to take him then I can go. So, that's part of the 'but', too. Anyway, I think I really need to go. He's out with some tenni...
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ilovedogs
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SEX!
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LMAO... just wanted to see how many of you would click it as a subject line. Okay, I'll get serious now... Did you hear on the news about the kid that overdosed on his dad's Viagra? They had to rush him to the emerency room.. He had second degree burns on both hands! Gotcha! I truly hope everyone is starti...
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John
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Dealing with an alcoholic parent's disapproval - as an adult
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Last night, while my spouse and daughter were out, I called my parents. It's rare that I do that because my alcoholic mom can barely hear over the phone and she makes you repeat everything and she never wants a discussion she just wants to talk about her ailments. She drinks heavily every night and the...
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amills4294
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