I have to let go & move on. I did go to the meeting on Tuesday & it went pretty well. My sponsor gave me my Alanon coin & I was moved by that & the meeting. I was almost the last one who shared. I guess I did a pretty good job of holding back but I had to share my feelings. I mentioned my dad of course & how I have been feeling the past month or so. I wanted to update what it is that is going on. I also was able to share about how I was able to get to 26 years in the program one day at a time. I feel like I am a success in some ways but I still have old ideas & too many bad memories. I want to share the good I have been going through lately but sometimes memories overshadow what I really want to say. I am just grateful for today & what I have. My HP knows what I need & that is the most important thing to me. The fact that my HP & I have a relationship that is healthy is what really matters to me.

I am rambling but you all get the picture I hope.

Much love, Kathleen

P.S. I got my hug & seeing my sponsor was a surprise too!