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ODAT
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ODAT When I say to myself that I am going to turn all my problems over to God, this does not give me leave to shirk my responsibilities. **I used to sit and wait for God/HP to do everything...I forgot, that I have the tools, like intelligence, abilities, talents, and my choices.....and its my job to do the...
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neshema2
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A hui ho Carson...
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Please permit me to leave this message of hope to a recovering brother who passed just recently...we shared all of our recoveries...everything...both programs to help us gain and maintain our serenities and sobrieties. He was a family member dropped into our community by his higher power for hi...
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step 4---My good friend
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Doing step 4 was an eye opener for me on so many levels...I do it routinely b/c I love this step...yea, it stings at times, but it is so freeing....... Before i got to step 4, .I was treating my "symptoms" I was not digging at the roots of my problems... I was just hacking at the leaves.... doing...
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desperate
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It is early in the morning & need support. pstbtime
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waiting...
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I am waiting for my appt right now. Will let you know what's up later.
Kathleen
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Positive thoughts and prayers needed
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I came home from work early today with a bad headache. I am also feeling really depressed about everything thats going on with me. House will probably foreclose next month. Leaving a familiar area of work after a very long time. Starting a new job next month. Miss my older college kids a lot. Feeling lon...
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Newlife girl
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hot rod
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I think I will PM you if you don't mind?
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I'm a double winner
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I'm a grateful new member of AA. 2 weeks sober and working my program hard. I have a very active lifelong alcoholic partner and its so hard to maintain my sobriety. Now that my head is clearing I'm seeing how very toxic this relationship (of 23 years) is. I went to my meeting last night and he was soooo...
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summerstorm
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Courage to change
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Courage to Change talks about how writer used to live their life asif they were on a ladder...everyone was either higher...lower....and HP was waaay up there, out of reach..... This hit me b/c in the old days, everyone, mostly was higher then me, I had no self esteem and HP was so remote and unreachable...
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neshema2
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Hope for today
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Hope for today Feb 02 Hope for today talks about gossip....how the writer's mother used to share her flaws with the neighbors, etc..... My parents did this to us kids...only they had no friends, so they gossiped with each other or other kids about the target's latest screw up.... I became a perfectio...
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neshema2
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going to see my NP
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Prayer needed I am going to found out out what my team is going to do about my sleep. I obviously have marital issues.
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Hoot Nanny
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while everyone is watching SB49
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I have mind on my friend who means the world to me. Also I feel like yeah it Is cool but fball isn't ruling my life My HP is. I spent nearly a half hour listening to my sermon.
It was amazing! Said things I could put into. Yoke is easy burden is light.
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Hoot Nanny
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Feel like I've lost my daughter
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Hello. Long, drawn out story. My 32 year old daughter (at the time) realized she needed help and started doing AA. Her sobriety is her highest priority, which it should be (3 little kids). My husband then lost his job, we lost our home, etc with the 2008 crisis. We were divorced after 36 of marriage, and h...
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joanlee13
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Damage to Church
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Hi everyone,Sunday church service went very well. The damage to the church has over $100,000 and there has been a special :vandalism account "that has been set up for us all to contribute to. I really admired how the church handled the issue. It reminded me very much of Al-Anon principles...
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hotrod
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Learning to be gentle and patient with me
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my sponsor and I had a good talk...it helped me to learn that If i'm struggling, I deserve to make self-care a priority. No matter what that entails...Crying..Meditation...watching you tube...surfing the goodwill stores for some good books...being EXTRA sweet to me and cutting out or postpon...
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neshema2
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hit my head & slammed
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My head hurts. I slammed against the wall. I think this one's gonna hurt! Prayers that it is not that bad.
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Something I learned from a non CAL book..modified post!!
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Something I read about what I practice......and here is MY esh only on what i think about what i practice...what i do repeatedly.....if i do the same negative thing over and over, its crazy to expect different results....different outcome...If I keep enabling my A's, over and over, it usually does n...
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neshema2
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sermon went well
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It went well more details later
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Hoot Nanny
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sermon today
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Prayers for my pastor & me for a heart touching sermon.
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Hoot Nanny
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Today's odat February 1st
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Todays odat talks of the first step..ingraining it so deeply onto our conscious that it almost becomes second nature in the way we live. It also talks of practicing the step hundreds of times and still reverting to old behaviors. It also talks of surrendering to Gods will concerning other people And t...
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karma13
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question for Betty and Kenny and el-cee (sorry el-cee..didn't know u were mod, lol)
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I posted a except and my esh on Days of healing days of joy this book is widely used in the aca/coda rooms, but i don't see it on CAL list that said, can we post exerpts and our esh on books we are reading, have read OR do we need to do exerpts on the CAL only I know...i should have asked this FIRST but did not....i...
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neshema2
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Proof that life begins WITHIN me
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I saw something, a quote and it made me think of my struggles w/my perceptions which cause chain reaction...... I have always said, that it all begins WITHIN me....like the slogan...Let it begin with me.......my thinking is ground zero for what my recovery is gonna stand on....good foundation...w...
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neshema2
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he said she said
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He thinks I am leaving him out & thatI am like mother becbecause I like to socislize out & about. I like even love my friends. He is no matter what my friend too. I still love him. Does he really know what he is saying?
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Treatment VS AA meets/Counsellor
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I am seeking others ESH particularly doubles on their thoughts regarding the validity of inpatient treatment. I whole heartedly believe in AA and Al anon and counselling and feel that people will get help when they hurt enough or hit bottom. I do of course realize that it is dependant on the drug of c...
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serenity47
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MP
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It is here &:I am not ready... I will never be.
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Hoot Nanny
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A really good HOPE 4 TODAY
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I sometimes just leaf through, not paying attention to dates, I just flip through and STOP when i see a message I need to hear..... IN this hope for today...... Hope for Today Living one day at a time as an adult child of an alcoholic can seem insurmountable when faced with the myriad feelings and memor...
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giving another chance??
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I saw a post on facebook that resonated with me it talked about the more chances that I gave someone, the less respect they would start to have for me.....they start totally disregarding my boundaries and my standards b/c they know I will always give another chance they become unafraid of losing me, th...
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here I go again
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I found my odat. It was behind something not under something. That's usually how it is searching & finding something under something.
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odat
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I can't find my book. I wanted to read my 29 year old book & share the reading for today maybe I should just go back to bed??????????
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Hoot Nanny
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the furenal wss OK.
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So I found out things I didn't know about my friend. I thought I knew a lot about her but it was much than that. Her name was Katherine Ann & my name is Kathleen Diane. She was a very loving & was a huge part of my life. We were in our weight group together for many year& sat by me often so I knew her. I...
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Hoot Nanny
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Life onLife's Terms
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I had a very unsettling experience yesterday that I would like to share. This sad incident happened at my church and it is depressing.The church holds AA meetings in a side room every night of the week . It appears the night before , a young member wandered off into the church and fell asleep....
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hotrod
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hotrod
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Did you get my PM? Can't' check my messages until Monday. I am on a mobile phone.Kathleen
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Courage to Change 1 -31
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C2C January 31 speaks about working the 12 steps once and then discovering that although we have worked the Steps, we are far from perfect and still lapse into self-pity and resentments. The reading goes on to explain that that a meditation on step six and seven is important so that we can discover...
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hotrod
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my girl got into a car wreck!!!
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My D#2 got into a car wreck with ALL the kids on the car...thank goodness it is a rather large suv/truck and she wasn't going fast... A lady suddenly stopped in front of "C" and she hit the brakes, but it wasn't enough.....she went into lady's rear end, lady bumped into the car in front of her.....
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neshema2
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Just for today!!!!
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Being a participant in my life
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neshema2
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Honoring a friend
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A week and a day after I injured my hand sending my life sideways for a while, my neighbor passed away. I cleaned her house for her, did heavy lifting sort of things, came to her aid when she called; she was my friend. She was a recovering alcoholic, had THE BOOK on her shelves; we had many a conversation abo...
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dilemma
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I don't' know what to do. Should I go to bed or stay up? My back hurts so bad. I took alleve earlier. I want to stay up but then I don't'. What do you think?
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Hoot Nanny
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hot rod
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I am going to PM you today. I would love to tell you my story about my dad.
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Hoot Nanny
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almost dawn
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The day is starting & I want to sleep. I hope I get some responses soon. But don't' rush.
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Big long ramble about everything.
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Well we're in and this will be our 3rd night in our own place and the first night that it is just daughter and I. So this is awesome and at the same time, there are large teething problems, I won't lie, daughter and I are both very grumpy and tired but hey, we're in our own place. She's settling in at her schoo...
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missmeliss
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Now we're cookin'.
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Finally feeling normal today. Happy even. My parents came over so that step-dad could put up my daughter's trampoline. I didn't ask that they do that but I know that they spent a lot of money on it a year ago and wanted her to be able to use it. They were in friendly moods for the first time in a long, long time...
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missmeliss
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I'm thinking
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That I will update my status tomorrow on the computer. Good night wherever you are!
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Hoot Nanny
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Codependency-Abandonment-Shame
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I have really been floundering in recovery and as a result I've been searching out information in all corners. I'm an information gatherer...if I have a problem I can solve it if I can just gather enough information. This trait has finally proven valuable in my personal life. I'm an adult child of an...
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Spur
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Anyone else's alcoholic spouse in the military?
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Are you more apprehensive and cautious about who you talk to about all this?
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mlang
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missing my dad
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I am missing my dad. He is the only man who truly loved me unconditionally.TThat's all I have to say for now.
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Update !! It's been a while !!
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First and formorst I'd like to thank you all !! I have to say as a mother of an addict letting go was the best thing for me but I never lost the hope.. Encouragement !!! Stay focus on your own recovery because we need too. I thank JESUS for hearing my every tear .. Here's our updated picture and he is now on a yea...
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Gaby
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Strong enough to stay or strong enough to leave
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There is a saying I heard once "some of us are strong enough to stay, some of us are strong enough to leave" So true, so true. I'm very interested in hearing the stories of those strong enough to leave. Please share- Was there a moment when you just knew it was time?
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Got a book called "cyber junkie"
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because it does have a chapter for the loved ones of a person with internet addiction. And help me understand the problem. I'm told that some men, post-stroke, will just shut down. I thin that is what I'm dealing with here. I tried to talk to him about it this way: I just asked him if he'd even thought a...
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zebrafish
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The Truth According to the Alcoholic ..
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When I was married to my XAH I used to really think I was special and unique because he only lied to me .. that was until I figured out that he lied to everyone it wasn't just me and honestly he couldn't tell the truth. That is obviously part of the distorted thinking on my part about my importance. So today...
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Jan 30 Courage to Change
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"Living with alcoholism, I learned that plans could change at any moment and that rules varied accordingly". The reading goes on to state how difficult it is to count on anything, resulting in grabbing at opportunities out of desperation. For me, living with the inconsistencies resul...
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i am helping my pastor
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She is doing a sermon on Sunday & I will be part of the sermon. I hope this isn't wrong but I wanted to share w you. This another victory of not feeling alone. And feeling useful.
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Hoot Nanny
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I signed papers!!
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I did it today. I signed divorce papers. He went back to gf last night so I had to follow through. I'm trying not to cry but it hasn't really hit me yet. I'm just trying to make it through one day. Ellen
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leaving temporarily - how to get past his reactions
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my stomach is in knots. On Monday, the kids and I got home from school to find AH on the couch, passed out. When he woke up, he was kinda aggressive and rude. He had it out for me. This is the first time that he has (obviously) drank, in a few months. I had drawn a line that next time this happened, I would leave...
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please post I am desperate!
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Need contact w another soul
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Hoot Nanny
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just me again
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Slept not long after I posted.called friend ate wait ah got up & not much iI was easy to get back to sleep. Maybe java will wake me up!
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Hoot Nanny
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then and now
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When i think back to the person i was just a few short years ago, its amazing to me how much ive changed. I reached the stage where i was taking to my bed, everything was a crisis, i couldnt cope with anything, the negative thinking had taken a strong hold. I lived day to day in self pity, resenment, bitterne...
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el-cee
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can barely post
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I am on highly strong medicine to make me sleep Whoopie!
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Hoot Nanny
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funeral tomorrow
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My friends service is officially tody now that it is Friday!
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Things I have to say to her . . .
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. . . that I say because of me (if that makes sense). With my AW, morning appears to be the her most rational, non-insane self. I suspect it's because the BAC has (usually) dropped of overnight and the morning "fix" hasn't occurred or hasn't kicked in. Anyway, during the morning, if all is ca...
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