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Was just thinking
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Having to do all this stuff on my own I have noticed something. NOTHING has gone smoothly. I think I have my tv thing all tied up and done. Instalation day set, order done, price done. They sent the wrong receiver. I call them, they go on about all this bolony. I took notes I KNOW what he told me. So now they ar...
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Debilyn
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Forgot to keep reality where it belonged!!
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For the month of January my Ah and his drinking buddy take the month off from drinking to prove they can. They usually dont make the entire month. But mine did this year. I told him I have mixed feelings because I get to see what a "normal" life could be like without his drinking then get shoved b...
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sarebaer
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New to Al-Anon...sister just completed inpatient for narcotics and alcohol
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We live in different states and my other siblings and I were not included in therapy sessions during her two weeks of rehab. I tried to talk to my brother-in-law about my sister's strange behaviors (not paying attention to her kids, ages 4 and 3, always arguing and angry at me and our other sister) and d...
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vols2001
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abandonment
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I just left a very tough therapy session. As I often do, I sat in my car crying. I've cried more in the last month than I have in my entire life. Not only has my husband told me that he doesn't love me anymore. His entire family will no longer speak to me. They haven't spoken to me since august. I didn't do anyth...
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Steph444
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this is WAY bigger than me.. call the cops?
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I have been posting about my 17 yr old son and how he is living with a friend right now. I will save the regret and guilt I have about this for another post, for I really need some guidance right now. We were following the guidance of a counselor who suggested we do different than we always have, and allow ou...
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Loupiness
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My da
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Im 16 and my dad is an alcoholic. Ther is nothing i want more for my family to stay together and be happy but i do not know when or if that is even possible. In the fall of last year we had an intervention for my dad, he refused to have treatment but said the famous line that he would just stop drinking. His drink...
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Lostinthisworld
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Detachment?
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From the little bit of reading I've done on detachment, I've done nothing more than confuse myself. Is it in a physical or emotional form? Both? Can I remove myself from my relationship but still be there to provide occassional support and still consider myself 'detached?' Again, I'm confused. What...
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amanda07
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Marisie where are you??
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Please check in if you can. Been too long. love,debilyn
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Debilyn
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Couples Behavior Therapy to treat alcoholism....
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This is my 1st post. I am active in Alanon in my town and have attended a couple online meetings here. To make a long story short, I have an AH who I've been married to for 18 yrs. We have 2 daughters, 15 & 17. He had a "nervous breakdown"" 6 months ago and afterwards became verbally abus...
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Chelle3
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When and How to Tell People about the group
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I was just wondering how open you veterans have been about your recovery. I am somewhat embarassed to tell people about the meetings, which is probably ridiculous. I guess it's kind of like going to a therapist...it's personal and I was never one to share with many people what I was doing. I really do wa...
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delhommefan
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megacrisis time, need a sponsor
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my A boyfriend of 5 years has "broken up" and come back so many times, i've joked that i need to install a revolving door. i've learned so much from the offline meetings i've been able to attend as well as this group, and i'm getting the hang of detachment. however, Wednesday when the A broke up...
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purpleraven
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HP Gives of Challenges Right?
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Right as I start this whole process, I feel like I am being tested. (That's ok...just hard) Sadly my BF called last night with horrible news. He's been at the hospital with his Dad for the past 3 days and they've been running all these tests on him. They diagnosed him with pancreatic cancer last night and...
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delhommefan
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Today Would've Been 8 Years of Marriage
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I left my husband for good reason. Very good reason. One of the women in the meeting I went to last night said she'd been part of Al-Anon for 7 years and in all her meetings she sees about 50% of people who can and will stay married to the alcoholic and 50% who cannot and will not. I was part of the cannot/will n...
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delhommefan
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I still cried!!
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I watched, "Bicentennial Man" spell? I found myself crying at the end. Though I cannot remember, blocked out, the strong love we had. my A and I, things will make me cry. AFter all these years! What Dreams may come gets me too, and Ghost. Some is my first A husband who died, some is my dear ex AH k...
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Debilyn
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Intro for sick-and-tired
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Hello. I don't even know where to really start. Bare with me..as this might be a little long. My alcoholic is my mother. She was diagnosed with cirrhoses of the liver about 3 years ago. They put her on hospice (an agency for the terminally ill) The disease ran its course pretty quick, and within the year s...
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sick-and-tired
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Not sure hpw much more I can take!!!!
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I was married to an alcoholic/co-dependent. My mom is very co-dependent and is now addicted to pills. I've been in a relationship now for two year with a man who I love very much. He is also an addict but he has only had one slip up during our this 2+ years and has sporadically attended NA meetings (not enou...
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delhommefan
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First time - Need help
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Hello group, My name is Mike and this is where I am at. I myself am a recovering addict with 16 years. However, this side of this is new to me and I am now learning what I put my loved ones through when I was active in my addiction. Recently, (this week Wednesday) I had to put my foot down with my wife. Actuall...
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badvox
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I Think I Did This The Right Way...
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Since A-BF's relapse over the weekend, I have been so hurt and angry. But I am still focusing on my recovery. I was scolding myself for being angry, but it is what it is. I feel like I have that right, as long as I don't react. I have been trying very hard to detach from the situation. If he calls me and starts w...
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delhommefan
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"moderation" .... update
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So. I talked to my AH last night. Took care of the kids, did some journalling and soul searching and then woke him up and said we need to talk. I told him "you need to go to rehab or AA and the alcohol stops today. You need to accompany me to marriage counselling if you still want a marriage. I love yo...
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newleaf66
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To Embed a Youtube video - how?
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At times, some have shared helpful youtube videos on this board. How does one do that?
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GailMichelle
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First time
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I have a Social Work degree, so I have always had a need to nurture and 'help' others in need. However, I never thought I'd allow myself to remain in an unhealthy, toxic relationship. I even did my undergraduate internship with a chemical dependency support program, so I know the signs. I've been datin...
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amanda07
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Update
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Hi family..........my long trip is over. Ive had no computer for the last 2 months on the road..... it was an old laptop and finally gave out. Ive missed checking in here at MIP and now have lots of catching up to do. The trip has been healing for both husb & I....taking ourselves away from the disease...
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Ness
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Just keep thinking that divorce is the only answer...
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My wife and I are basically a year into this situation...a year ago it was becoming apparent that there was a problem with her drinking...the other issues in our relationship were there previously; and the other individual issues in our lives have been there for many, many years, long before we knew e...
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usedtobeanyer
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Need some ideas please
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This may not be all that important in the larger scheme of life, but it is driving me crazy. Everytime my husband is home in the evenings and I am studying, he finds things to try and fight about. Everything could be perfect and he would find SOMETHING. If I'm just watching tv or cooking, he doesn't do i...
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Steph444
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In desperate need of advice.
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Ive been living with an addict for a couple years now, in the form of my sister. Me and my sister used to have a really good relationship, but after she came back home from college her drinking took over. She started doing other drugs as well. After the past couple years, Ive grown to have a immense dislike...
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Issy18
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I Did It!
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I attended my first meeting tonight. It was emotional and comforting at the same time. I didn't say much. When I first got there, a man in the group talked to me and asked me if I wanted to share why I was there. I tried to but ended up getting choked up. WHY do I DO that??!! I know I am strong enough to admit I ne...
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delhommefan
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Feeling Really Rotten about myself...
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I probably should be at a meeting but I have not been feeling good. The problem is even when I`am not feeling well, I want to see my grandaughter and I push myself to make a good dinner because I feel that this is a good opportunity to get her to have some healthy food. I`am really struggling with her lately....
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Samsgram
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broken record
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I know I really must sound like a broken record. After no contact with my AH since the first of January, I decided I would let him know how our daughter is doing. It ended up in a big fight. I know he is still using. He does not want to come to our home to see her, he wants me to bring her to him for an extended stay....
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kath
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Started my Practicum
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I am working at the state mental health facility in Myrtle Beach, SC. I was talking to my supervisor who said.... I want you to start going to alanon meetings... I told him I was well acquainted with alanon and had no problem with that and that I had been for personal reasons. He said he had too and that i...
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carolinagirl
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New here, LOST!
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I am new to this forum, but have been lurking for a while reading others post. My husband of 23 years was diagnosed with Lupus and RA three years ago. Since then our life has been a living hell. His family doctor started giving him pain pills, while his rheumatologist told him he didnt need to be taking op...
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GG Jones
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Coping with regret
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Again things are ok, I'm not particularly down etc but I am having trouble dealing with regret. At the moment I stuff it more than anything or ignore it but I know that's not coping. I haven't learned yet how to actually "cope" with it. One of my biggest regrets is that my life choices have l...
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mjhyankees
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twists and turns
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After all the fear of my exah, which I later figured out was actually fear of myself reverting back to pre AlAnon days ... I have been in contact with my exah and am just fine. My side of the road is pretty normal, busy with work, school, working on myself and my moostiff. Over on his side of the road, a treatm...
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Jennifer
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Stayin' On the Right Track
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Well, my husband went back to work yesterday. He has been off since January. That's the nature of his job, so we are used to that. When he walked in the door last night, he was a completely different person. He gave me money for bills and was rather pleasant to be around. Today, I am sick....sinus cold.......
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Steph444
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"moderation" has run its course...
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Hello all, not been on for awhile. AH and I had reached an impasse and he was set on doing the "moderation" thing. I set some rules of what I could tolerate and went about my own business. I have started counselling with a therapist who specializes in addiction. I have not been to any meeti...
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newleaf66
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It sucks loving someone who is sick!
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Okay so mostly I am venting....it has been almost two months since my ABF sent me a text I don't want any communication from you and three months since it all came crashing down. It hit me like a truck everything was perfect then my sober (off alcohol not pot) BF started picking fights. We were back wher...
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parfait624
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Without the drama life seems dull
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I am breaking my addiction to me exAH and am reading every Al-anon book I can get my hands on. I am being a good mom and working my 3 part time jobs. I signed up for a 5k and my 13 year old a half marathon in May. I go to Church. I walk my dog regularly with my friend, I attend bible study, I attend a once a month par...
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flopadopilus
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extracting happiness
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Hey everyone. I'm still doing fairly well. I've made a conscious effort to play with the puppy my wife got (even though I still don't WANT him). I find I get more annoyed than I usually would when he craps on the rug etc. Not his fault, but it reminds me that I don't want him. So, I try to have fun with him...
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mjhyankees
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why guilt is coming again!
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My ah & I did something kind of underhanded yesterday. I don't want to go into what it was but I feel guilty. It has to do w/ my MOM who I love dearly. Anyhow, I hope if she ever finds out she will forgive us. Like Forrest Gump says, that's all I have to say about that! Now I have to go on w/ my life & strugg...
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Hoot Nanny
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my Dad again!
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It is my Dad again! I can't believe it --it looks like he might be back in the hospital according to my Mom. I can't believe that he is not getting healthy again. I want so bad to get good news that sticks! I am so grateful today that my Dad is still alive, though. I am counting on some good things happening for...
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Hoot Nanny
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Friend is distant since starting AA is this normal?
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I have a friend that lives out of state. He recently got sober and has been going to meetings. I have been sending him messages of support and he has been grateful and thanked me for supporting him. However last Sunday he responded to a message from me saying he was good but overwhelmed and would drop m...
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helpinghand56
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Need advice
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Okay I know in Al-Anon we are not really suppose to give advice but I could really use some right now. A little back history: My AH has admitted his problem (he doesn't drink constantly-but occasionally he will go out with friends and get totally wasted), he drives drunk, swears it won't happen again, I...
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floridawife
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How to start via internet
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Okay, So I've decided to start this program...the problem is that I care for 2 young children almost always. My ah is hardly ever here and I don't really have childcare. Can I start the program online? Here? How do I get a sponsor?
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Niecy
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confusion, fear and insomnia
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Life has been a whirlwind. My 14 yr old daughter broke her arm snowboarding, and needed surgical repair with pins. New boss at work, and I am convinced he is a drug-user. No other explanation for erratic, crazy behavior. Finally figured out what "al-anon in all my affairs means". Ha!...
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Loupiness
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choices
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Speaking from my own experience and feelings. I did not choose to have alcohol affect my life the way it has, I do recognize now however that I was an active participant in the progression of the disease. It is because of this that I have the choice to find recovery or claim the role of victim and seek ot...
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DadtoCandE
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Looking for an outsider's perspective
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Really glad that I found this site. I am a teacher and I also work at a restaurant a few nights a week. Sometimes my schedule gets so hectic that I don't make it to meetings. This is just what I was looking for. A safe place I can go when I can't make it to a meeting. Where people understand my feelings and where...
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Corgi2
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We had THE talk again
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Why is it everytime I have to talk to my exAH about dettachment I end up sobbing and him angry. I set down my boundaries he said they all sounded understandable and than I told him that I had to let go completely no more hanging out for a movie or just being a friend, because it interferes with my recovery. Th...
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flopadopilus
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Oh noooo! I meant
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virgin GUT not virgin guy! oh geez
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Debilyn
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It's official, I am old!
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Omgosh I could only do two big wheel barrow loads of wood and one wheel b of kindling in the van I borrowed from my son! My arms are owee. I am a wus! lol All the while Fezzik my Pomeranian is running around like an idiot and under my feet, squished Pom anyone? (c: Of course the only time it rained was when I was d...
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Debilyn
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Missing him
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It's been almost 2 weeks since my AH was told by Childrens Aid that he can not live with us at this time. Any visitation with the kids has to be supervised, and that he is to not have any alcohol 24hrs before the visit, or anything during the visit. This is the result of an argument that he was trying to have wi...
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Evian
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Second meeting tonight...A-M-A-Z-I-N-G!!!!
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I went to my second meeting tonight, my first "beginner's meeting". I am just amazed at how wonderful this is. While it's hard to work through my emotions, because I am used to being "the strong one", the people I've already met so far have been beyond amazing. I spoke tonight......
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delhommefan
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How can I live with active alcoholism??? Help
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I have been actively attending Al-Anon meetings for about two months now. I tried it once about five years ago, but I wasn't ready to work the program. I went to a meeting out of pure desperation because I had no idea where else to go. I have two qualifiers - my boyfriend and my father. My father was in a coma...
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Corgi2
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update, getting thru it
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My best friend called me a smart a** so I must be back to myself! (c: I am me again. That was a horrible one. I guess I have to face I need effexor. Thats ok. Am grateful it helps me! Learned to accept how I felt, took the help offered. Let myself heal as fast as I did.Cried a lot, mourned a lot. Got thru it. Kept ho...
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Debilyn
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Yahoo for me (I think!)
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Hi Team, I was having a read of my AW's 12 Steps AA book which is her bible and read the following under Step 6:
"Self righteous anger can be very enjoyable. In a perverse way we can actually take satisfaction from the fact that many people annoy us; for it brings a comfortable feeling of superiorit...
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Nutbar
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How Do You Know If You're Just Being "Codependent" or Your Thoughts are Justified?
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I have been in the same relationship with my boyfriend for over two years now. He's great to me in the sense that I trust him, I know he loves me, and he is supportive of me being my own person. The problem is that he had to take a job in south Florida in January. We haven't seen each other in almost two months no...
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delhommefan
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Getting the elephant off my chest
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Living with an active alcoholic is like living with an elephant sitting on my chest. It is crushing and heart-breaking. Through Al-Anon, my elephant has gone on a diet and lost a lot of weight. This past week, though, my elephant went off his diet and started crushing me again. So, I turned to my AH (...
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Very Very Tired
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Why I have avoided alanon
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Ok, so the meeting are late as heck...that's my bad excuse. My good excuse is that I'm afraid of detachment. I love my husband. (I know the rest of you love your spouses too) I don't want a divorce. I want my husband back without the worry of him turning to full-blow alcoholism. I want the days back wh...
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nadjjaa
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Social Anxiety
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I think I suffered from social anxiety since I was a teenager. However, when my wife was drinking she did hugely embarrassing things at parties. This includes telling people how to run their lives which ended in arguments, flashing parts of her body that should not be flashed, pinching the bottoms of...
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Nutbar
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How do I Override Guilt!
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I just had probably one of the Best Weekends, I have had in a LONG Time... So Why is it I feel so Guilty about it... My Husband and I purchased a Piece of Property that in the Next 5-7 years we hope to Move too, When My Son is Out of School or Off to College... No One has lived there in Many Decades, and it has been o...
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Jozie
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another update: MY DAD
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It looks like my dad is out of the woods for now! He is home now & doing better--eating solid foods & all. To all who prayed: thanx so much! By the way, I could probably have called to check on him directly but he has a very huge loss of hearing & can barely talk on the phone. Now I don't have to cal...
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Hoot Nanny
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me again: update!
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As I was sitting here, my mom came in & told me that my dad--they are divorced & have been for over 35 years--but anyhow, my dad is reluctant to get surgery because he is taking pain pills & feels better--I think he needs the surgery, though. He had been in painon Tuesday morning & ended u...
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Hoot Nanny
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