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Omgosh I could only do two big wheel barrow loads of wood and one wheel b of kindling in the van I borrowed from my son! My arms are owee. I am a wus! lol
All the while Fezzik my Pomeranian is running around like an idiot and under my feet, squished Pom anyone? (c:
Of course the only time it rained was when I was doing the wood...
I loved your responses to my update thank you!It means more than you realize. You guys keep me hooked to the earth. I don't feel alone.
Yes corgi, I am too thankful for effexor. I am trying to get my son on it. He is going thru the horrible stuff we do. Wife is A and just so not good. He has a lot of integrity so it is so hard to see her lie, drive drunk with her kids, fighting, uno. He is at the point where he is seeing himself climb out on his own.
Sooooo yes we are blessed.
I tried to get my tv internet and phone done. OMG what a nightmare. doesn't anyone do their jobs anymore?? I finally after an hour with the tv people, an hour with the bundle guy. thought I was done. THEN I get a call that they need more info. I call they have NO record of the transaction.
rrrrr I used my al anon skill of not reacting. I told the gal, honey I gotta go now, cuz if I don't my head will explode and I will cuss you out.....true haha
felt like I had had my brain egg beatered. gads. So... I will go to a mellow place and call again. please pray for THEM! lol
then I stupidly ate burgerville fish sw and felt awful. my virgin guy cannot take it.
ugh. Remember Erma Bombeck? I loved her and so related.
WEll the birds are cussing at me to fill feeders, they are my bosses...
(c: hugs,hoping you guys are ok. love,debilyn just one of the birdbrains....
-- Edited by Debilyn on Thursday 24th of March 2011 01:42:46 PM
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Thank you dear man! You know RLC, all my life I was told I was crazy, and emotional. Well I used to think that was a bad thing! lol Now I love my eccentricity!
So I rode my horse all over town when I went shopping or visiting someone in the hospital!Or I was always bringing animals to school.
Or I didn't drink or do drugs becuz I wanted healthy babies some day! I grew up in the 60's.
I like having gpas silliness and no one is a stranger, teasing and being a loving smart a.
I raised a bummer lamb in my mother and daddys nice house. Well he was in diapers!
Would rather play cards in the barn than go eat or to a movie. Or go hang out in the dark under the covered bridge! My ex AH did that all the time. He used to be so much fun doing anything.
hmmmm I kinda like being older RLC. I do miss my strength. But there is a wisdom that comes. You know everything will be ok It may take a long while, but I ask hp to hang on to me tight. When something awful happens, whatever comes next is always better!
I don't worry ever. I don't control ever. I don't want to control. Then I will miss who that raw person really is! I love showing up at my friends houses when they just wake up. They are so crazy haired, droopy eyed and dopey! lol I used to say, ya gotta wake up early to steal peoples flowers...oops.
I don't care that I am in my weird pink long sleeved nightshirt with my blue long unders with green pink and blue apples on them, My ugly great Simple wool slippers on and going out and filling bird feeders while people dressed all nice for work are going by in their fancy cars they are working to pay for!
haha. Ok yes I will take smart A. But MIP helped me temper that. Poor Tom put up with me. His mild responses helped me to calm down.
So mr. have a good day. What time will you be over to help me move? (c: love,deb
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Putting HP first, always <(*@*)>
"It's not so much being loved for ourselves, but more for being loved in spite of ourselves."
I remember years ago one of my best friends was moving to another house and I told him, "Taylor I will be glad to come help you move", and I really meant it. I've always remembered his reply. "No RLC, friends don't help friends move". I didn't quite understand at the time, but over the years it's probably a good idea. But short of a 2500 mile trip I would be glad to help.
Off the subject but I think worth mentioning........I'll never forget what Taylor's father, who I had tremendous respect for, told me when I was in my early 20's, his words of wisdom........."If you can go through life and fill just one hand, five fingers, with true friends, you have had a successful life". How True.
Join the club, Debilyn! I, too, was a sixties child and in some ways, I don't think I have changed much inside my head. It's the rest of me that's a problem; back, hip, knees all feeling the effects of getting older. Neither living with an AH or growing older has stopped me having fun, though! I still love a giggle with my pals, shedding a tear at a weepy film (movie) and playing my music too loud! I nearly got thrown off a bus the other week. I had just acquired an i-pod and was bopping away to Jon Bon Jovi when the bus stopped and the driver asked me to turn it down! I don't think I had the earphones plugged in properly. Mind, she did say it was a surprise to have someone say sorry - she usually gets a mouthful of abuse when she tells youngsters to turn the music down!
I think that corny old saying "You're just as young as you feel" rings very true.
I agree RLC, friends are precious! Including mip ones!
Mark does this mean you are not going to show up and help me move???hahaha
Oh tatty, you too eh? young as ya feel? I feel ageless. I mean soooooo much has happened in my life, so many memories. I have a super good memory Sometimes I wish it would die out....
My childhiood friend, wishes I would forget too. I remember everything about her!
Now keep in mind I was not a JW then, but my childhood friend was gardening with her waist long ringlet brown hair all over, and wearing only a sweat shirt! Her husband saw this, and told me that is what made him fall in love with her! lol
they have been married since 1974!
Ah the days we were so beautiful! I am ok with my older lady beauty though. i mean my dogs still love me...haha
love ,deb
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Putting HP first, always <(*@*)>
"It's not so much being loved for ourselves, but more for being loved in spite of ourselves."
You ... "I don't care that I am in my weird pink long sleeved nightshirt with my blue long unders with green pink and blue apples on them, My ugly great Simple wool slippers on and going out and filling bird feeders while people dressed all nice for work are going by in their fancy cars they are working to pay for!"
Me ... green wading boots with old welder's goggles tied on my head (so the world looks green) around a pink stocking hat with a umbrella shaped like a duck and whatever I thru on ... it is just fun sometimes to be different in or out of my yard.
You are not always alone even if I do have to dress "normal" most of time and leave the goggles home. Glad to hear you are getting closer to your new place, a little at a time and it will get done eventually! But I know the feeling I found a little used dolly moving thing yesterday and decided I better buy the thing for 2.00 even though I think I should still be able to lift and carry anything I want.
slobber kisses! deb um I have 3 dolly thingys. hanging head, and one of those cart things old ladies pull from the store. Though right now it has my bird seed and my extentsion arm to put the feeders back up after I fill them.
Today I got about half of one poured down on me going everywhere even my mouth!cough cough cough....
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Putting HP first, always <(*@*)>
"It's not so much being loved for ourselves, but more for being loved in spite of ourselves."