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I don't think so!
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Guess he's feeling a bit threatened about my distancing. I get a call and he's all sweet, apologizing again for being an ass and wants to know if I want to make a deal. His offer was that he'd stay sober all work week if I would allow him to drink what he wants on his days off. What?! I simply stated I'm not...
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The Awakening
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The Awakening~~
A time comes in your life when you finally get it... when, in the midst of all your fears and insanity, you stop dead in your tracks and somewhere the voice inside your head cries out - ENOUGH! Enough fighting and crying or struggling to hold on. And, like a child quieting down after a bl...
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Peggy7
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Taking control over my life
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I have quit obsessing about where I am going to be 6 months from now, a year from now. All I can do is deal with today. So much time wasted obsessing about where AH's addiction was going....what is was going to do to me. Today the sun is shining. I wrote for an hour this morning. I was able to attend half o...
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optimistundone
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"Holiday"
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This post will be brief; I'm out of words...for a change.
"Holiday," in most European countries means vacation. I intend to "celebrate the Holidays" by taking a Holiday, that is, a vacation.
A vacation from myself, my obsessions, and most of all, my thinking.
I'm going t...
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Euoria
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Sharing
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You all have been so kind and supportive in responding to my posts that thought I should share a little about myself.
I am 31 years old, single,and the mother of a 3 and a half year old. I have a twin sister and we are the product of an alcoholic and a drug addict. My mother passed away about 6 years ago from al...
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Anger
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I find that I can detach easier and establish boundaries when I think on the things about A that have hurt me, etc. However, when I allow myself to "care" about A I find I start to lose these boundaries, etc. Does anyone have insight into how we can forgive and yet stay detached?
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Codependent
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Kindness for weakness
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I was thinking this morning about how I wish that I could just be nice to the A, be kind to him but it seems that every time I acknowledge him he takes my kindness for weakness. He sees every act of kindness as an opening to try to come back into my life. Each time I talk to him or reply to an email I get escalati...
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carolinagirl
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I want to thank you
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Maybe it's the season or maybe it's because I found you a year ago but I've been somewhat introspective this week, reading my past posts over the last few days. I've read how much pain I was in and what a source of comfort you all were to me. Because of my job I didn't feel like I could go to f2f meetings, my f...
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tryingtoheal
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Reality Check
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I have been asked by the director where I work to perform a function that will make our company look bigger than it actually is. I told him that I do not feel comfortable doing so. It feels very deceptive to me. He told me that, that is the way it is going to be. Do I have too much of a conscience??? Is this black...
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kissers
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setting goals keeping busy
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Thanksgiving was a disaster for me. I got pulled into stuff in the house I live in. I am determined not to do that this Christmas. The issue for me is that I have even more time off. For lots of reasons I was not able to get a part time job. I had a part time job that was time limited. That helped. For lots of re...
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maresie2
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paralysing fear
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I have come to the realization that I have been putting off a couple of things for the last few days because I am afraid of the outcome. One is to contact the pastor of the church we hold my homegroup meeting at. I have to ask for the key and I guess I'm afraid he'll say no. The other thing is a customer that I nee...
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Jen
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hi all
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hi everyone,just wanted to know if anyone else going to be spending christmas all alone..i mean alone with no kids no hubby no family{my SAH HAS TO WORK THAT DAY}he came home from work yesterday and told me he had to work christmas day,we had plans to go to his moms for christmas{she lives over an hour awa...
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bev
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Kaufman Drama Triangle
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Maresie brought up the Kaufman triangle (thanks Maresie!). Please google it, its fascinating reading. Here is what I could find to counter the effects: its excellent food for thought as we all jump to all the corners when dealing with the A (at least I sure did). Enjoy-
Healthy Skills for each Role P...
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Jean4444
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holding on to the end of my rope
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I found the following somewhere and read it often, sort of like tying a knot at the end of my rope to hold on better. "when we remember HP's faithfulness and his ability to bring good out of any situation, we find our fears calmed and our confidence renewed." Does it seem to anyone else that bef...
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ddub
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Constant Negativity
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I think that the thing that wears on me the most is the constant "expecting the worst" attitude of the A's in my life. Nothing is OK. Everything is bad all the time. Each and every occurrence, phrase, situation, comment or idea is met with negativity and pessimism. I think this is what wears m...
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Jean4444
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Hiding his drinking., Part 2
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Per my previous post, I just called my AH from my office and told him that I knew he was drinking last night and that I would have a lot more respect for him if he told me the truth. First he hemmed and hawwed, then said that he had had a piece of rum cake a lunch. I told him that was bull - that I could smell the al...
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Chetch
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Frustrated and sad...
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Hi everyone-
So, this is my second post here, and thank you all so much for being such an amazing resource and source of comfort.
I went to my first f2f meeting a few nights ago, and it was really amazing and terrifying at the same time. It felt really safe, and I was so thankful to see that there are all o...
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sara777
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What is my part in it?
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I am upset about something with my boyfriend who is my qualifier. I am having trouble seeing my part in it. This may seem trivial to some, but here goes.... I asked him to take two boxes and a tv to the shed in the backyard. I asked him about a week before my sister, her husband and my nephew were coming to s...
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Leetle
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Vent - I am angry
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I am seething with anger and need to vent. Been sick with this Norwalk virus for a few days and am weak. My A is playing mind games again and it is making me very angry. A couple of days ago he accused me of faking my illness for attention. This was after the doctor diagnosed me. Yesterday he comes home f...
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loves2read
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Bail Bonds
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Last night I got another call from a bailbondsman. He says so he's a laborer right? and I say I don't know. He's silent for a minute and he says you're his wife and you don't know what he does? and I say we have been separated for about 15 months, I have no idea what he's doing. So he says, well I guess there...
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carolinagirl
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Newbie seeking support, my story...
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Hi...I'm new here and am seeking support so I don't lose my mind. I've been in an on/off relationship with my A for almost a decade. My A comes from a household where the mother is the A and he is the only child. I'm an early 30s female living with chronic illness and I come from a family where my father was an a...
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loves2read
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remorse
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my two dogs are such happy dogs these days. They don't flinch, shake or shudder like they used to. There were plenty of days when they hid behind the sofa with the A screaming the place down. I felt absolutely dreadful then. After one year of the A putting them through homlessness, leaving them alone...
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maresie
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I am new here ......
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I have just joined this board, and I am so happy to have found it. I am the mother of 2 and step mother to 2, my Ex Husband is an A who still believes he doesnt have a problem. I covered his drinking as best I could and made excuses for years until I finally had enough last year and took the kids and left. My fav...
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pogache
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Starting from where I am.
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One of the key issues with the A was he was never able to be in reality. One of my core issues is that I find it hard to be where I am. Right now my goal is to try to get more stability in my life. I need a regular job with benefits. I need a more organized existence. I need support from people who can give it. I need...
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maresie
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Rita G
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Where are you???? Are you still here with us? Gail
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Gailey
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new encounter at f2f meeting
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my ah is well known in our location so folks know me that I don't know which made me pretty skitterish about going to al anon. Went out of town until I learned al anon was about me and confidentiality really does happen in al anon. Have run into a few acquaintenances at the local f2f mtgs but this week I w...
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ddub
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Has you A offered to go to Alanon with you?
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Just wondering how many others have had their A offer to go to Alanon with them? Mine has in the past and it makes me uncomfortable. He went with me to one meeting and after that I wanted to keep on going - but alone. He lied at the meeting, I didn't say anything but we both knew he was not telling the truth w...
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loves2read
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I got the call Sunday Night
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He's back in jail again. Merry Christmas... All I can say is that I'm glad it doesn't affect me like it did anymore. I don't have to rely on him for a paycheck and scramble to figure out how to bail him out before he loses his job, etc. The strange thing was that I found out by calls from bail bonds places. ...
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carolinagirl
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Random seizures, caused by Antabuse?
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hello forum, First of i apologize for a detailed story, but I dont know of any other way to get some answers. I am new, for i am seeking answers. My g/f has been sober for well over 40 days now. She has been taking Antabuse for the duriation of her sobriety. A few weeks ago, she consumed an unknown amou...
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MikeM
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Psychological vs Physiological
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I am reading a book that essentially says alcoholics have same problems that non-alcoholics do, anxieties, depressions, family and work issues etc; It goes on to say that the above is not what CAUSES an alcoholic to drink, that their disease causes them to drink then makes the aforementioned probl...
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klm4446
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Invisible
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Sometimes I wonder if I am in the land of the living and whether there is a purpose to my life. It is ten days to Christmas and I have found it even harder this year to feel the spirit of Christmas invade my soul. Having managed to wrap up the few gifts I have for my children and grandchildren, posted my cards...
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Heartbroken
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Christmas time
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I think I have been pretty charitable by calling some of my house mates dysfunctional. I'd now after living there 4 months call some of them total psychopaths. They tend to act out over the holidays. So my plan is to go to a couple of movies on Christmas day. I may go to a movie with a friend on another day....
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maresie
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one of those ENOUGH moments
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So while taking my Son to school this morning I backed out of my parking spot - went over some snow - actually ice, heard something dragging and thought it was ice stuck under the car - pulled over and saw the front of the car hitting the ground (the protector part) and then noticed, I am leaking something t...
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tea2
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A Christmas Angel is Here
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OK, you asked for it! Here is my own little Miracle in Progress, my new granddaughter, Delilah Paisley, born 3 weeks early on Nov. 26! She weighs about 5 lbs. now. Santa said she was the most tiny baby who came to see him that day. Isn't is strange how children can remind you of how precious life is, how f...
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Becky1
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I get so tired of the selfishness.
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We are trying to get off to a cat show in north Texas. He (A) doesn't want to go because he has no interest in showing cats. That's ok. I can do this alone. But...he insists on going anyway. Just so he can complain about it. He just left to take one cat to the vet's office; her nails must be trimmed. SO he harrum...
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Diva
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MIP Recovery House Needs Christmas Cards
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Hello and Happy Holiday Season Everyone! Every Christmas I ask everyone who is listed on the Miracles In Progress message boards to help me bring a awesomely memoriable Christmas to the many newcomers in the Miracles In Progress Recovery Houses by simply sending each house member a Christmas Card,...
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John
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It's been almost a year
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Hello all...
I know I haven't been seen much round here, but I've been so busy putting together a great new life.
My A wife and I separated almost a year ago, and under my state's laws, I can now file for divorce.
Folks, sometimes things don't work out, and that's not a bad thing. I have never been happie...
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wbfox58
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Why do I want to believe
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((((Everyone)))) My A is so emotionally unbalanced. He's gone from scaring me to making me worry he's going to hurt himself. In the last two months his drinking has progressed to the point of insanity. He's taking days off of work and calling them "mental" days. He doesn't want to be alo...
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Lunamoth
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Got my Blue Belt!!!
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Ok I got my Blue Belt last night at karate. Shewweee. I was worried about breaking my board too but I did it on my first try. In fact I didn't even believe I had actually broken it until I looked up and saw the instructor hold the bottom half. Then I saw the other half on the other side of the room. LOL. Hu...
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QOD
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New Here-My Story
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I am in a relationship with an alcoholic. He is my dearest friend. He was my High School Sweetheart. Yes, Im 44 years old and found and have been with him for 9 years. He has caused my self and my kids (from another marriage) into total caoss. When we first got together he said that he was an alcoholic b...
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wen5454
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Finding this site
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I am new to Al-Anon and have attended seven F2F meetings since October 2007. I came upon this website and began to browse around in hopes of just finding others similar to my Alcoholic Situation. My F2F meetings are only once a week, so this looks like another option for information and being able to r...
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Just For Now
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Treefrog!!!
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Please get ahold of me on here! Send me a message...total misunderstanding and I feel horrible. I didn't know how else to get ahold of you...so please message me?
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Miranda
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Question about self-inventory
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I am having a hard time doing self-inventory. Ever since I threatened to leave my marriage to H's drug addiction, he has gone off the deep end. He has been placing a lot of blame on me and finger pointing - much worse than I could do to myself. So, how do I sort out all this gunk and truly evaluate myself. ...
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optimistundone
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walking away...
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My ah has been sober for about 6 weeks now. It is interesting because I think I am starting to see some difference in his behavior, however, more importantly, I am feeling more detached, though admittedly still a work in progress. Last night he came over to watch a show with the kids. I had every intenti...
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Loupiness
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I am really concerned about AH!
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Hello all! I haven't posted ina long time, but often read the posts. AH's drinking is getting worse. He has been in a lot of pain lately in his stomach area. He thinks it might be an ulcer. Doesn't alcohol make it worse? He seemd to be losing a tremendous amount of weight, yet he eats quite a bit and doe...
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desperate for help
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Ten great things about recovery from someone elses addiction (brorrowed from another source)
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1. The sun manages to come up without your your help. 2. Therapy finally kicks in. 3. You can stop aplogizing for what someone else did. 4. Other people can solve their own problems or not. 5. You really know you didn't cause it. 6. The statue of limitations has expired on your old mistakes. 7. You let othe...
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maresie
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This Disease Thing
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For much of my time in both programs, I've seen and heard the "disease" debate probably hundreds of times. I understand it's a founding premise of AA, that it's something we must accept as truth in order to recover. Really? I would like to put out the notion that "disease" is a hu...
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New and full of questions
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Hi, I'm am new and I'm not sure where to start. I am newly married and my H has issues with drinking. His family has a history of alcoholism. Background, we've been together 4 years and in the beginning it was liquor and beer and constant. Then he stopped drinking liquor and it was strictly beer. Then...
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whatnow
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Examples of alcoholic games w/o the presence of any alcohol
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Here is a good one from my mom:
My mother asks my sister what she wants for christmas. My sister tells her she want some old dishes that my mom has. My mom does not have a lot of money and does not like to spend much so my sister thought this might be a good "re-gift", etc. My mom says: "OH wha...
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Jean4444
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JOHN update on entering room problem
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I went into Tools, options, security on puter and I blocked crown.com or whatever the name of the spam site is that was blocking me. It is in tiny print on that spam page. mspw
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JOHN same problem here
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John, I am having the same problem that abbyal described. I tried twice to get into the chat room, got some kind of spam and notice I have been suspended. Will keep trying..... mspw
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My epiphany today
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I had an epiphany today which came to me through my dreams. Ive been struggling these past few weeks with a loss Ive been experiencing. I am losing a friend who has meant the world to me. Theyve been like a soulmate for me. They are not dying just going away, moving on shall we say. Ive been working my progra...
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Maria123
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JOHN
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Hi John got some wierd pop up stopping us from entering the room says we have been blocked , happened several times and finally got in . peg , mae and ncc said it was happening to them too .
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abbyal
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Struggling today, prayers please.
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((((((((((Family)))))))))), Hubby and I are both struggling today and could use some prayers. His spinning thoughts are coming back and his psychiatrist has left. We can still get meds, but we need someone like her to help him. I'm struggling because I am tired emotionally and physically. Cal...
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Karilynn
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A Lesson Learned
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Hi, I am new to this but would really like to stress a hard lesson that I have learned on my journey to recover from my addict in my life. Unfortunately she happens to be the only child I have, and it has been a hard long road in coming to the point of Letting Go and Letting God. The bottom line is she has to want...
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Jen4Recovery
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Self-esteem
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Has anyone else here been willing to do ANYTHING for someone only to be rejected- I mean let him use, give him money and a place to stay, etc.- for him to only consistently reject you and pick other women- some who are okay and some really crazy? I mean can someone sense your powerlessness and insecurity...
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Codependent
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Picture of My New Granddaughter
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Here is Miss Delilah Paisley, born Nov. 26, 2007. Three weeks early. Weighing in at a whopping 4 lbs. 11 oz. 18.5 inches long. She was born natural, I was standing by my daughter's left foot when she was born! OMG! First birth I had actually seen, and I was not wanting to be THAT close. I was wanting t...
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Becky1
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I went to a party tonight...
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...and I came home with Mr. Perfect. I really did! He has a great smile and is well dressed. He is just a doll, and when you squeeze his hand he says things like "Honey, I hope we can spend the holidays with your family again this year", "Baby I've arranged a spa day for you next Sat. at you...
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Loupiness
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Just don't get it...
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Hello family, I just don't get! How do I make a searching and moral inventory of myself and my behaviour when I do not understand what a moral inventory is? I understand moral, but it is getting it all down as a moral inventory that is screwing me up. If I say I am compassionate - and the qualification behi...
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Heartbroken
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friend who was alcoholic killed himself...
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Just wanted to ask for prayers on behalf of the wife and 2 daughters of a friend from church who shot and killed himself night before last. He was a struggling alcoholic, sober sometimes and sometimes not. Apparently his wife heard the gunshot and found him. She is a dear angel of a woman, and one of th...
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lmt123
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