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QOD????
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I'm calling yoooooooooooooooooooooooooooou!!!!!!! Sending smoke signals, putting up fliers, sening an APB,,,,,, ver are yew dahling??? love,debilyn
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Where can I start.
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We took my best friend to the detox wing at our local hospital yesterday. He's been struggling with alcoholism his whole adult life (30+ years). The last relapse has been about 3/4 years long. But increasingly worse over the last 3 months. He agreed to go to a 28 day program, that will begin as soon as the...
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Not handling the labels well
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New to Al-anon and all of this. My counselor, Alanon, and the books I am reading for both say that I am co-dependent and controlling. I don't feel that way at all, but if I am, I am willing to change. I guess I am just wondering if you guys felt that way. A year ago I filed for divorce and ever since then I have be...
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New here, just my second post
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Hello. I have an AGF of four years who has now been sober for just over a year. I have tried a few face to face meetings but all the meetings in my area seem to be mostly A's, and I don't feel comfortable discussing how difficult it is to be with an A, in front of A's So AGF, just days after her 1 year sobriety an...
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Amends, apologies, and forgiveness
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Often times I hear questions of "How do I forgive?" "What is the difference between amends and apologies?" "How do I get my loved one to make amends?" I thought today's reading was fantastic. I also thought it made me recall a time when I was baffled by Al anon's parado...
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Just what is "wet brain"?
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...and how far progressed might an A be before they appear to have it? My A hasn't had a drink since his last binge (11 days) in January. He'd been on 2 other drunks during a year prior to that. But lately his behavior is often odd. One minute he's fine and the next he doesn't even recall what I said. He says o...
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Hey guys, I'm new.
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Hey, normally I wouldn't start a new topic about being the new kid, but I see a couple other topics like this so I guess you guys won't mind... I don't really know how to start off my foruming here. My name's Sarah, I'm 21 years old. My boyfriend is in rehab for alcoholism. I'm here because I need people to ta...
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The weekend...
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"THE WEEKEND" ... those are two words I really don't look forward to anymore. Those are two words that have become synonymous with "alone", "fearful", "sad", "worried", "depressed", but most of all "ANXIETY". Duri...
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Update on me and my felonious A
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Is "felonious" a word? Anyway, for those who missed my most recent post, my A has finally, thank HP, been "stopped" by the law, and is at the county jail on a $25,000 bond for felony narcotic posession in three counties and two states. I obtained an ex parte yesterday, and go back t...
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WANT OR NEED
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Guys In reading the BIG book, I came across this sentance. "We are taught to differentiate between our wants (which are never satisfied) and our needs (which are always provided for).....Page 559. This Is confusing me... As you know I have a Recovering A in my life.. Who's working the programm...
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An outcast in my own home...weird
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This is a hard one for me to put out... Stories can be so conveluded and so screwed up. I'll try and do the abbreviated one. So as Iv'e said before, my husband has refraimed from alcohol use for 5 months now. Thats an absolute miriacle in itself. And I must say life is better then it has been in years.......
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Do you blame others for your unhappiness?
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For years I blamed the A's in my life for things that happened in my life. If I felt sad or distressed surely it was the doing of another. I could not see within myself , that I was allowing another's actions or reactions, or even non-actions, affect me so deeply. I was in a totally different frame of mi...
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Finances and re-finances
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I have tried, multiple times, to cut and paste today's article from Yahoo! writer David Bach, aka "The Automatic Millionare," however, no dice. Today's article has two critical subjects in it that I know concern many of our readers and members: an earlier article he wrote, "6 ways...
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update
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I found the A somewhere to live. The issue is he is probably going to take a few days to move in as there is a lot of moving and adjustng to do. In the meantime he makes no income.
I guess the priority is to get him off the street and out of the bind of just being on survival.
I could allow myself to feel in...
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He's horrible even on Father's Day
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I know my ah is throwing a temper tantrum but why take it out on the kids? I had to call ah and beg him to please call the kids for Father's Day because they are not understanding why he's not calling. I honestly think he would sweep them under the rug as well. He totally hates me because I had the miscarriage....
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Being Used
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I was reading over some other posts and was thinking about my A and my intense anger toward him for finding another girl that he keeps "ending up with". I was pondering the obvious fact that he just can't be alone. Then it hit me. I'm not there anymore to do all his crap for him and take care of...
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carolinagirl
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Reconnecting and taking care of me ;)
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Hi All~ I am taking some time this week to take care of me and reconnect with the program and my hp. My oldest three kids are away this week on vaca with my former hub,so I only have the baby during the days. While I miss them,I know they are having a blast with dad and their cousins and grandparents. I made a v...
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carla036
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The power of Al-Anon
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I came here, gosh only a 2 weeks ago at most. It has already made a huge difference in my life. I worked the first 2 steps, started posting up here, and set my official boundaries for AH. I've set boundaries before only to have him disregard them or talk me into letting him have beer in the house bc he promise...
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Gurl25
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ESH needed
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It is difficult to decide where to start with this one. A very good friend of mine who is new into her AA recovery is going through a difficult time at the moment. Her husband had charges against him (non addiction related) during all of the court appearances he was told that he would not be facing jail t...
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Mobirdie
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Dealing with Debt Collector's
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Has got to be one of the most scariest things I've been up against. Now of course the whole mess with AH kicked this thing off, but after assessing all of this honestly I have come to realize my part in all of this and the avalanche would have happened at some point this year regardless. Living with A'ism...
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twinmom2
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Got my stinky mutts back!
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I went and picked up my dogs from my mom's today and brought them home. They had been with her for a year. When we lost the house she took them because I wasn't allowed to have dogs in the place I was renting. It is so nice to have them here. I have missed them so and now I have a reason to get out there and walk the...
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Anyone have trouble posting?
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Twice I wrote up a post and when I hit submit there was some sort of error.
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Gurl25
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Maybe I am the one that is CRAZY ????
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Wow, what a week.. !! I have rode this emotional rollercoaster until I am ready to puke.. It started Tuesday when I saw a friend of my husbands ( a female ) and realized that she was out on our boat. I lost it had an anxiety attack so bad my daughter was going to call 911. I finally got myself together and ca...
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not looking forward to tomorrow
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I spoke with my son tonight. His mouth said the things I would like to hear him say. Time will tell if the walk will do the same. I know he is scared, He did say though "this might all come out good....I can see this is not where I want to be." He has a court appearance at 1 pm tomorrow. Now to me...
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greta
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Some good news ~ hopefully (Enforcing the Boundaries cont.)
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Continuation from "Enforcing the Boundaries" post...AH came home Sunday, was all aplogetic, but I said "what do you have to say that's gonna be different than all the other times? I don't wanna hear the same old stuff - it doesn't mean anything." He said "I wanna get help....
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Gurl25
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Is this part of the process?
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I have done nothing but cry for the past 2 days. I hold it together long enough to make thru my meetings. But as soon as I am alone ( which is when I am not at a meeting) I cry hysterically. I have been on my couch crying all day. I can't even get it together enough to do anything besides get up to use the bathroom...
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serendipity
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Dr./Test Results
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I went for my dianogstic test yesterday. Dr. seems to think it's a natural change in breast tissue. I will go back in 6 months to make sure. But he didn't feel it was warranted to even do the ultra-sound...so good news here. Thank you all for your good thoughts and prayers! Hugs Mar
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MIP DADS.....
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(((((((((((MIP DADS)))))), Just wanted to take a moment and wish all those MIP Dads tomorrow: HAPPY, HAPPY FATHERS DAY! May it be extra special for you. To those of you who are playing the role of Dad for whatever reason, HAPPY FATHERS DAY too! Or for those Dads who are also playing Mom too: HAPPY FAT...
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Karilynn
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confused and returning to recovery
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I recently returned to alanon after nine months (I had only been in recovery for 6 months, but they had been very successful months. I stopped going because I moved and it has taken me this long to return, or rather, to stop denying the feeling that my life is out of control again). I am in such a state of c...
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Another new one
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I'm new to posting, too. I've been reading here for about 8 months, posted a few times, and think I should introduce myself. My partner -- he's more than a boyfriend -- is the first active A I've known, or at least who's been a big part of my life. I had a few recovering A boyfriends, and interestingly e...
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Jamekaticy
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Working on yourself first
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The following words were written on the tomb of an Anglican Bishop (1100 AD) in the crypts of Westminster Abbey and illustrate how one man recognized the importance of working on himself first:"When I was young and free and my imagination had no limits, I dreamed of changing the world. As I grew...
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Christy
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Oh I'm Stressin'!
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I am so freakin' stressin' out right now. I am just getting so tired of being the only one to contribute financially to my household. My AH just started a new job this week and it is a good steady job w/a good company. He has worked w/them before and they know his history. So that is good. Problem, he has...
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QOD
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Enforcing the Boundaries (venting abit)
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Turns out that he did EXACTLY what he's done so many times, he came home around 8, but said I'm going for tacos, invites us then uninvites us (our daughter and son, 5yrs & 6mos) bc I don't have extra money n neither does he (his friend had offered to pay for him). I specifically asked him please be home s...
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Gurl25
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the hooks for me
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I am always amazed that I can do things for others I can't do for myself. I may have found the A somewhere to live. I don't think it is for me but for him it would work.
Of course I am going to ask him to come up with the money to move there. I am not going to pay if unless I live there. And I am leery and very very r...
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maresie2
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Talk about crazy!
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So, I woke up this morning with a smile. That hasn't happened in months. It was fleeting but it was there. I went to my meeting. The feeling came creeping in, the anixety and pain. But I still wasn't crying. I was ok. Today is so damn hard. Father's Day and I've lost my dad and the kid's dad. There are no dad's...
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serendipity
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Feeling fed up
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I was taken into hospital early hours Friday with suspected angina. Turns out I have chronic degenerative arthritis. I texted the A when I was in and 0520am today I got a call from him saying he was lost, could I help him, he had noone else.... NOT a mention as to how I was. I then put my phone on silent- 8 miss...
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What happens at the meetings?
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Hello. I am going to try to go to my first meeting today...I was wondering if the meetings are like AA meetings and what goes on exactly? Is there a speaker or does everyone speak? Thank you for your help.. Also...it shows like this : Thursday - B7:30 and right underneath the 7:30 it says 8:00??? Wh...
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ler0719
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Father's Day poem, for my dad
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My dad died in Feb. 2002, during the ice storm that winter. It was if the wrenching of his soul from this earth was so dramatic that the trees cracked as the storm raged on, while his life blood slipped from this earth. This poem is in dedication to my dad. Family Tree Dad is still with me. I feel him still in...
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java
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Sponsors
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So I have someone who I knew had been in Alanon for 7 years, and two husbands. She went with me to my first meeting and has been "coaching" me about the program ever since. I call her whenever I am confused or angry and she helps me see my side of it and suggests things to say (or in my case, NOT say)...
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mosaicmax
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One more time
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This morning I am numb. Last night I let my son use my car to cash his pay check. I was hesitant because it had smoked and I needed to get it looked at. I said to him, just go to the bank because it was smoking. Went out to finish mowing my lawn and showed my sis how to use my riding mower...( it can be fun) and...
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greta
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Higher Power
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I have always struggled with the "higher power" concept which has prevented me from completing the 12 steps. I'm sure I'm not the only one who has this problem. So I thought I would share some information that helped me. We discussed this very issue during Family Education night at the tre...
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karrele
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The sheriff showed up tonight
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I was out milking the goats when a police cruiser pulled up . . . I already knew what they were there for. The A ran from police, was tazed into submission, and is now in the ER on police guard. "Sorry to have to tell you this, ma'am" said the cop. I looked him in the eye and said, "No, good....
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Kim65
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Things are getting pretty bad with ah
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Ah is no longer sober and I saw the true him once again the night I was in the ER miscarrying. The next day I told him that I could not do it all over again and that I have to file for the divorce. That was my boundary and he crossed it so it's going to be done. Now he is with holding money and giving me and the kids no...
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I doing great
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Today is a very good day for me. It has to be one of the best. I feel so good about myself even if it just today. I have makeup on and have a good attuided. I have come a long way since I have stared. I not fighting with my husband like when i first started. I used to get very voliet and break glass and anything I had...
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Someone's lost, is there hope? Keep praying for him.
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Good Morning. This is my first posting (and going to be a long one at that, Sorry!), and to be honest I am scared. Ive wanted to post something for a while, but never had the courage until this morning, when I saw my best friend throwing his life away even more than before. I don't know what I am doing, but I k...
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taco
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feeling all mixed up... rambling
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I've been feeling a bit mixed up last night and today... different emotions spinning around in my head... I don't know... am getting to a meeting tonight, not sure if it will be AA or Alanon... both meet at the same time... probably need to go to the AA meeting, since my sponsor will be there and she'...
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LisaF
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grief and disappointment
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Hey y'all, well, my mind's sorta been on overload a bit lol but was thinking a bit today about the meeting I went to last night, it was a book study, not sure what book it was from actually, but they were just starting on it, so we read the preface and introduction, and it was talking about grief and disapp...
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LisaF
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Livid
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[FYI: My husband is an alcoholic (binges alot of wkends to the pt of passing out but doesn't drink the rest of the time).] Anyway, my sister is in rehab and was able to have her first visit last Thursday - Thursday nights are family group nights. So my husband knows her and is (or seemed) supportive of m...
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Gurl25
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Hi, I'm new here...
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Hey y'all... my name is Lisa, I'm a recovering alcoholic... and realized over the past few months that I should probably be in Alanon as well... I've been going to the AA forum here on MIP for quite awhile now... I'm originally from Memphis, TN... I left my (alcoholic???) husband in December... m...
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LisaF
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Update on the Livid thing...
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He was still mad this morning, which is why I was still so upset and wrote that huge vent (thanks for the comforting replies everyone). He just called to apologize and says he'll be home around 7:30 tonight. We'll see abt that...my anxiety always starts to pump as the minutes tick by after I get home fr...
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Gurl25
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Faith Remains - a poem
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This is a glum day. The sun is shining, but not in my heart. Life beats on, but without any melody. A fog of gloom hangs about in the sunny corners of the day's rays. Where is the hope, the faith that lingered but yesterday? Not that much has changed, yet everything has changed. Circumstances in life have d...
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java
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Dream's!
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I spent a lovely afternoon with an alanon friend yesterday ,I alway's have the feel good factor around and after I been with her.We talk at length about how alchohol has affected our lives and the lives of our children.And then, I had a dream last night about going to buy another house, I just wanted it s...
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Katy
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A great reminder for me...
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Hi Friends~ After searching my archives of CAL literature ,I found this to pass on to a friend in the program ,and was reminded of the compassion I need to keep for the alcoholics in my own life~ Hope you all don't mind me sharing it here ;) An Open Letter to My FamilyI am an alcoholic. I need help. Dont allow...
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carla036
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Going to another meeting today....
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Hi friends, I haven't posted in a while. I had graduations and trips and changes. My oldest son in the military is still sick and just hanging on. Even in all of this I realize that he has to be in enough pain to ask for help. My mother went through surgery two weeks ago. She is elderly and has had a rough go. I...
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nmike
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Am I being selfish?
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AH still in rehab. Talked to him last night. I told him about a job interview that I had. I'm really excited about the job and I hope I get hired. It's exactly what I've been looking for. The only drawback is that it requires overnight travel about 50% of the time. AH asked me how he was supposed to go to AA mee...
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karrele
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taking it one day at a time
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As you all know the A is homeless and penniless. He has appointments for various socail service things. In theory he has work that is coming down the line.
He would like me to snap my fingers and fix it all for him.
I don't.
Everything in me screams that I should stop everything and do that.
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maresie2
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Needing Balance
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I am feeling very powerless today with the goings on of those around me. My mother, who I helped a week and a half ago get my A brother out of her apartment has rescued him once again by putting him up in a motel - "good news she says, he has decided to go the VA for help!". Meanwhile, she has kept...
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A date?
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((((Everyone)))) I need a reality check. My A actually wants me to get a sitter for the kids so that we can "go out and see what happens." So since last night my mind has wandered to all the scenerios that "could" happen and I can't think of one that is positive for me. The past...
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Lunamoth
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Are they capable of loving? Even their children?
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I have thought about this here and there and then reading lunamoth's post made me think once again I am reading my own story. Almost anyway. What I was wondering is if A's truly love their children or just see them as a tool to keep women/men attached to them so that they can continue to use. Then I start...
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carolinagirl
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Depression
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This depression is not lifting and since yeasterday I feel like I have gotten worse. I cry and get mad and feel better for a bit after but never feel great or happy. Or even relieved. Just sad. And then they've started a public service campagane for couples. Every stinkin 10 minutes they show some happy...
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