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jewely · Senior Member

went to another face to face tonight

ZiggyDoodles · Senior Member

I love the drives it takes me to get to other meetings. Gives me time to think about what was said before I walk into my house. I have more time to process than a short drive because the moment that I do walk into the house....I get distracted by meaningless stuff around me.

I also, like to take some speaker tapes with me. I have enough time in my drive to hear them sometimes with some of the places I go. I took a six hour road trip once and had about 10 cd's with me. Meeting on wheels!

Good for you! I am glad you were able to get some rest and that the road was safe enough!

Ziggy

jaja · Senior Member

Well, I like that, Jewely! I'm trying to rise above the stuff tha't been trying to drag me down. Trying to relax and let HP take care of me. I've been trying to replace negative with good in my thoughts. Hopefully my mouth will follow. My A is still drinking with his buddy at the place he's staying (can tell by the phone calls people he's called who then call me for their own belief that I should know about it). Today it's 7 days since hestarted and I don't think he'll hold out much longer. His pancreass and stomach can't. So when I get that first sober call from him, I hope I can keep my nose where it belongs - in my own business -and let him deal with his own. Someone told me they read where it's like a baby learning to walk - it's something they work to and keep working on it in spite of the falls. They keep on working it with the help of people and whatever other support they need.....jaja

jewely · Senior Member

jaja,

i am smiling over your post.

although i felt somewhat resolved and at peacel ast night [before i knew he was home],
today i have butterflies in my stomache flitting around.

not because i am afraid of what he will do but because i am afraid of what i will do.

it's all nice and 'jim dandy' to get myself to meetings and talk to people i like,

but,

today the proof will be in how i behave around him.

today i will really, really, really have to concentrate on letting my higher power take care of me no matter what it takes.

i get resentful when he is here and i have to leave my home because the atmosphere has become unbearable.

but,

i am beginning to see............,

i will have to go to any lengths to maintain sanity,

and,

if that means getting out of here for the day [or more]

so be it,

let it be done.

it is a matter of reprograming my mind to what is right for me.

thanks for your reply jaja,

you sound great !!!!!!

i love to hear from you.

blessings

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