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Well, the holidays were very difficult, and yes, I'm glad they are over.
My daughter (grandaughter) who left home the 10th of Dec. did come for a little bit Christmas Eve and then again for a few hours Christmas day. She didn't say much, although did say she loves me when she left. I haven't seen her since.
My other grandaughter whom I have had since Thanksgiving is still here. Her mother, my daughter, was in and out...mostly out...she just can't seem to stay away from her new boyfriend. I know my grandaughter was hurt deeply. Then she took her back to their town to "spend time with her" but instead dropped her off at friends while she went with her boyfriend and then brought her back here early.
Our New Years was the pits cause we had an ice storm hit and were without electric for 3 days.LOL How spoiled we are to electricity!!!
Jan. 1st some of our AA andAl-anon family lost one of their son's and/brother to suicide as a result of alcoholism. What grief! Last night at out f2f meeting we had a combined meeting with them there and everyone shared on the ESH of times like this. My grandaughter even spoke up and shared on her loss of her father. What a loving interchange in our family of AA/al-anon.
I listened ... didn't share ... but what a wealth of information and love!!!!
Thank you God for showing me what real love is all about, and I pray that I can continue to learn and share what you are teaching me.
My son cannot be in one spot very long either. If he is in my house more than a day he is very antsy.
You are such a wonderful mother and grandmother. I hope it is not too much for you. When I think about my son and the way he is sometimes, I just say to myself:
"it is what it is" and I cannot change it as much as I would like to.
I don't feel the strength or "giving" right now. I was thinking yesterday in one of my many "self pity" modes ..... boy, I am not feeling much strength or hope ... but I'm sure feeling lots of experience!!!!!! LOL
Thank goodness for f2f meetings ... where we get recharged from others strength and hope!
Sometimes I look at this 14 yr old grandaughter I have now, and I think oh God, what am I doing!!!!! I don't want to raise another child!!!!
I don't know why I am in this position; God much surely have a plan in play here, cause I sure don't have one .... other than 1 day at a time!
I don't want to raise another child!!!!