The material presented
here is not Al-Anon Conference Approved Literature. It is a method
to exchange
information, ideas, feelings, problems and solutions on a personal
level.
As I share this, I consider my HP to be God; however, don't let that stop you. As in Step 3 - Made a decision to turn our will and our lives over to the care of God as we understood Him, feel free to make your own substitutions.
You are who you are for a reason. You're part of an intricate plan. You're a precious and perfect unique design, Called God's special woman or man.
You look like you look for a reason. Our God made no mistake. He knit you together within the womb, You're just what he wanted to make.
The parents you had were the ones he chose, (sigh) And no matter how you may feel, They were custom-designed with God's plan in mind, And they bear the Master's seal.
No, that trauma you faced was not easy. And God wept that it hurt you so; But it was allowed to shape your heart So that into his likeness you'd grow.
You are who you are for a reason. You've been formed by the Master's rod. You are who you are, beloved, Because there is a God.
Source: Russell Kelfer
For me, for today, this helps. Just learned that my 24 year old niece is pregnant. She has no plan, hasn't finished school, taking yet another semester off, lives paycheck to paycheck barely and so I've been struggling with should I say something, should I not?? I often think of the children. It's not fair and it's selfish for the child to be brought into this. I'm still not convinced but this reading today helped me.
It also helped me love me even more. Yes I grew up with abuse. Yes I grew up with an alcoholic. But I am here for a reason. God loves me and he wants me to love me and love all of you. And so I shall.
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If I am not for me, who will be? If I am only for myself, then who am I? If not now, when?
Hmmmm....see God and me had a long talk about my parents. A LONG talk. Namely, because I had been blaming God--did you just have a blackout, I asked him/her, and "forget" me? Did something else take priority? Because I'm not the first you know!, I said to God, and You know I won't be the last! And if you really wanted to, you could stop this nonsense! (That's what I called it, nonsense.) And God listened very patiently, very quietly, never interrupting, never telling me how stupid my argument was. And God sent me a sponsor who had worked in battered women's shelters, a lawyer!. And God sent me a friend who had been a nurse on the mental health units of some of the leading hospitals of America. And God sent me this program. And as time went on, there was a very very clear message sent: No, no forgetting, no neglecting. No quitting. You quit me when you became too wrapped up in the insanity to tell what was real vs what was your parents sickness. That's okay. No one is mad. Or upset. Or going to come and get you. No, no hating. Humans have "free will." They make choices. Choices affect others. Sometimes in very sad and dark ways. And again I turned to God and said, "But what about this theory taht says 'I chose my parents?' Or, even worse, 'God never gives me more than I can handle?' Am I supposed to believe you trusted me with them as a little girl?" Well, God sent a minister who was in the program and ready to hang up his shingle for good. He told his story. I watched him grow. I heard his anger. And it occured to me: All of us get angry at god at some point in our lives. For differnt reasons. At different levels. It's not a bad thing. It's not a good thing. It's a part of our relationship to an infinite entity. We're human beings. God isn't. Therefore, we're trying to "put god in a box," when God is BIGGER, DEFINES, MAKES the box. They were theories. Not facts. I was born into my family. They are my family of biology. Of origin. Not of choice. I choose to spend my time with you. With my al anon and aa family. Because of one very big, very obvious reason: God sent you to me.
OMG, did i need to hear that today? i needed to hear that for the last few months!!!! perhaps that is why God sent me this lifeline... raise YOURSELF up, CHOOSE to be healthy and happy!!!
right on, Tiger!!!! right on! thank you thank you thank you and thank God
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time to stop going to the hardware store to buy bread.
THANK YOU Maria123!!! This is just what I needed to see! And starting today... January 1st, 2007...I will put this at the very beginning of my journal and read it FIRST THING EVERY DAY!!! It is absolutely AWESOME!!! I just LOVE it!! See, God brought you to MIP for a reason!! To inspire people like me! To keep hope alive, that He (God) is working out great things in the NEW YEAR ahead of me! Love Ya! Hugs, Korinne
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Today, I am grateful to be on the path of dealing with my life and continuing to grow truly stronger.
Wonderful as always. I have to print that out for the fridge. It is especially true for hubby. Your HP will tell you what to do with your niece. Be still and let your heart think, as my granddad use to tell me. You are so worthy of being loved, and we certainly love you.
Happy New Year sweet lady. Thank you for all you do. Love and blessings to you and your family.
Live strong,
Karilynn & Pipers Kitty
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It's your life. Take no prisoners. You will have it your way.
but this reading today helped me.
