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Hello and happy Saturday morning (early--6:30am) to all
I have put things into action and my A's sister is due to come here and come pick him and his stuff up. I will push it. I am calling her as early as possible to give her a heads up that my A and I have talked about it and actually are going to (at this point) leave each other on good terms. He said no hard feelings. He has hidden feeelings he wont admit to and I pray he gets help but I cannot ever guarantee that the man I truly love has to be sent out of my life because his drinking is affecting me (and my daughter when she is here and hears about it) will ever come to that point. He has to make a choice. Jails, institutions and death. Or reach out and take his life back.
I made mine===freedom and the chance for a peaceful life.
With all that said, I desperately need to see if anyone. after reading this can pass it on to others they know that has spoke to me in chat or posted replys to my posts/anything---willing to sponsor me might add a reply to this post so I can see if anyone here really will help me. Please alll of you, think about it and if you can and are willling, please let me know. And please, I am asking for real help here and I am willing to listen and work.
I just cannot believe all that is happening
I have gotten a sponsor on another AFG site I never post to, I thought she was from here and we had a missunderstanding. she agreed to stay with me till I got one of you wonderful women to help you out. I have MSN messenger and can get other messengers for live chat. At the moment, I am unable to make committments to get to f2f meetings due to my health.
I fell in the bathroom last night, just got dizzy. Seeing a doc in Jan--they think I may have MS too. Hit my head when my A came running to see me, opened the door, and my head hit the floor with a thud. He had no idea I was slumped up against the door.
No matter what my health, God will provide, and Please pray I stay strong and adament about him leaving. I am hurting, and my heart is breaking but at the same time I feel some of me wanting to come back out.
know all our prayers/positive thoughts/love are with you stacie! what a place you are at...so much strength and clear vision to get you here...now that you are here, trust your higher power that it is where you are meant to be. taking care of you is what you are doing by asking him to no longer be a destructive force in your life - find that peaceful place in your heart as often as you can - keep coming back to it each time your emotions throw you down - and trust that just because you feel like you do in your attached pic, doesn't mean that is who you are- it is just a feeling, just a moment and tho you might feel like you will be swept away, you have an anchor in your higher power, your supports and your truest self that will never let you. you are held.and loved. good luck. fifi
I lost it. No sleep last night and this morning I went to Wal-mart. He hasn't left yet. Actually he is taking care of me. We had ourselves another talk and our decision came to as long as nothing came up that was threatening to me, and I felt safe, he can look for a place to stay. He actually agreed that he would be thinking long and hard about his drinking. He admited it to me! I was actually surprised and happy by that, but He knows that if he gets real bad drunk and I feel threatened, he will lose his place to stay to look for something else, because I will call the cops again. I made a mistake I am sure. I am very very sleepy and need rest. I will be back when I can think straight again.
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This is HippieTrippieChick Signing Off
Be blessed and have a wonderful day.
Remember God loves you.
PEACE
i want you to know, that all of us here care and are concerned for our PROGRESS. i'm so happy you are taking control of your life and brightest blessings for what lies ahead. i, too, don't have a sponsor, but being here, I feel like I have 100s of sponsors. people listen, support, respond to the exact nature of what i post.
with love cj
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time to stop going to the hardware store to buy bread.
I'm not sure what to say. I hear myself if your words. It makes me so sad for you. I remember telling myself that if and when I am out of the situation with my ah I would remember what it felt like to be in it. I guess I didn't want to be desensitized so I can help others and try to be sensitive. Because it's really hard to not scream "GET HIM OUT NOW!" I know it's easier said then done. Being away from mine for so long makes me realize the peace that I have, because when he comes home it feels like that picture you have. It's like someone hits an on and off switch. I swear he made me feel as if I was bi-polar. I can't say I know what I want in a man but I do know what I do NOT want. The sick disease has a way of making us a human rollar coaster and you are just as sick as he is if you let the disease treat you that way. You have to be free and the only way to be free is to get away from it. Sadly, you can not help them. When they REALLY want help they will find it themselves. But I'm here for ya.
He said no hard feelings. He has hidden feeelings he wont admit to and I pray he gets help but I cannot ever guarantee that the man I truly love has to be sent out of my life because his drinking is affecting me (and my daughter when she is here and hears about it) will ever come to that point. He has to make a choice. Jails, institutions and death. Or reach out and take his life back.
they know that has spoke to me in chat or posted replys to my posts/anything---willing to sponsor me might add a reply to this post so I can see if anyone here really will help me. Please alll of you, think about it and if you can and are willling, please let me know. And please, I am asking for real help here and I am willing to listen and work.
site I never post to, I thought she was from here and we had a missunderstanding. 
she agreed to stay with me till I got one of you wonderful women to help you out. 
I have MSN messenger and can get other messengers for live chat. At the moment, I am unable to make committments to get to f2f meetings due to my health. 
I stay strong and adament about him leaving. I am hurting, and my heart is breaking 
