The material presented
here is not Al-Anon Conference Approved Literature. It is a method
to exchange
information, ideas, feelings, problems and solutions on a personal
level.
Just now, tonight, at 11:46 p.m., I looked at the inspirational reading for December 29. Here is what it says, and if anyone has been keeping up with my posts, this is an eye-opener:
I will be having his sister pick him and his stuff up in the morning. And as my heart is breaking, here is the reading for Dec 29:
The time when you need to do
something is when no one else is
willing to do it. When people
are saying it can't be done.
Mary Frances Berry
I am so mixed up in my feelings right now, I can seem to only think of all the wonderful things in our relationship. I am hanging on to a broken dream. I have to let gO
PLEASE ALL WHO CARE TO KEEP ME IN PRAYER. I HAVE A BIG THING TO DO. AN OBSTACLE I AM AFRAID OF BUT WILLING TO TRY.
I will read your previous post so I am up to date with you. Your not alone and I know you might feel like you are. I'll post again after I read what you have written okay? ;)
I wrote two lists -- One list had everything that I loved about the man I lost; the other had everything that drove me knuckin futs (CRAZY) about the man.
When I was feeling angry or mad, I read the list of his attributes. When I was feeling vulnerable and sad, I read this list of things that drove me crazy.
It really worked to keep everything in perspective.
The other thing that I have heard through so many others experience is that A's do the bare minimum to keep us holding on and often it does not last. It's the crazymaking, they do what the have to to stay one more night, for example, and then the next day they are back to themselves.
I hope making lists helps you too.
yours in recovery, Maria123
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If I am not for me, who will be? If I am only for myself, then who am I? If not now, when?
You are in my prayers - good luck to you. I know it is hard and can be so painful but it sounds like you are doing what you and your HP need to do right now. Taking care of you is number one important
here is the reading for Dec 29:
I can seem to only think of all the wonderful things in our relationship. I am hanging on to a broken dream. I have to let gO
I HAVE A BIG THING TO DO. AN OBSTACLE I AM AFRAID OF BUT WILLING TO TRY.
