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I am on edge this morning. Just feel anxious and uneasy. My ex is picking up the kids for his time with them at Christmas. They will be with him from today through the day after Christmas. I just feel like I could fall apart at any minute. That is so not right I know. He is living in India this year--so he hasn't seen them in 3 months and won't see them again until April, but I just really don't want them to go. I have enjoyed not having to "share" them these past 3 months--the house is calmer in some ways! He and his family don't think the diet I have my son on is that important--Caleb will be thrilled if he gets to "cheat" on it, but it will cause him to have terrible stomach aches and gets him a little lethargic and depressed when he eats foods that he shouldn't. (It doesn't put him in physical danger, but it's just better when he stays to this diet.)
After time with his dad my son gets meaner to my husband--I think he feels like he is betraying dad if he likes or is nice to my husband. I also just don't do well with my son not around--I worry about him.
I know this does me no good. I know in my head they will love being with my ex and his family, but I just so don't want them to go. I want to relax and remember HP will take care of them!!!!
Ya'll please pray that I can let this go and let God--there isn't anything I can do anyway!!! (and he really deserves time with his kids!!) Help me be grown up about this!
I know it is easier said then done but try to relax and enjoy this time you have to take care of you more.
You are right...they do deserve to be with their dad and you deserve to be calm in the fact that their dad loves them and will take good care of them.
I won't get to se my granddaughters until the day after Christmas...at which time they will be spending the whole week at my house. We will enjoy our Christmas Day with my family and then do it all over again on Tuesday with them.
I am just trying to accept "what is" and I will make the best of whatever time we are together with them.
My prayers are for you that you can let it go and rest in faith that your HP will take care of everything.
I did much better after he came and picked them up yesterday! Now I am focusing on what I need to do in order to get ready for my trip--clean my house really good, which would have been difficult to do with all the kids there!
Thanks Gailey for the support and encouragement. I will accept "what is"!
I wish for you enough faith in thier HP that they will be well looked after while gone, and the pease to enjoy yourself until they get back. You certainly deserve it!
Take care of you!
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"Good judgement comes from experience... experience comes from bad judgement" - unknown
