It was very awful being here alone without my AH. No phones no power, no vehicle.

Had candles and my headlamp. Was afraid to sleep in my room becuz it has a slider to the south and a window to my tree. Did anyway as all my feather bedding was in there.

I feel so bad I did not bring the horses in. But everyone said not to. sigh. I am sure Glaes got cut by some flying roofing.

He is so freaked now if he hears the tin rattle. My hands were shaking so much stitching him up.there was a piece of skin missing.

A did not even call to see if I was alright. My cell's answering thing still worked.  It is horrible how sick they get, how uncaring. When 9-11 happened he called me asap.

My brother/friend tom grew up with my AH. He says he is A but has not used anything for at least 25 years. He was abused by an awful father too, like AH. He has not even called me. I don't get it, he comes by at least once a week to check on me. But when I needed him, forget it.He has not called or came since the storm. I will not be talking to him. My plan is to send him a letter.

I am sure he is too much of a wus to ask me to forgive him.I don't usually get upset, but knowing i have no vehicle right now, a hurricane with all my animals and barn and stuff to not call or come over is very cold.

He was very condisending too when I called him. I told him that too. Sounded like his old icky A dead father.

rrrrrrrr so change me, toxic tom is not my friend. I even offered  him a chunk of my land to put his rv on becuz he was afraid of being homeless. Also offered my house and I would build me a small pole barn and make a home inside.  whatever....

Well hp kept me goin the last couple days. Made sure I had enough money to get me food and feed. (c: It works like that.

hp takes care of me in his time. I have two people who want to move in. I will have the living room and kitchen and dining room and am making a sunroom/bedroom on my back deck!! I have all the materials already. So the young gal will have the south end of the house and the guy will have the north end!!! so I will have my one room basically. The gal and I will share the bathroom. I don't care about that at all. I will put some kind of toilet somewhere for emergencies...

I watched my wedding video for the first time. It sure made me cry. He was trying to say his vows and crying. He had been sorber for years. Looked so handsome. You could tell how much in love we were/are.

Was sorta sad too, Larry bil, steve our friend, mother, my gma in it are all dead. Made me feel pretty sad. Larry and steve both dead A's.

I went out in the wind, on my back deck in the dark. Saw something blow up way out in the mountains. It was not horrible cold either, nice feeling, but scarey. I thought about what if things get very bad, what should I do?

Asked my hp to take care of us, thought about if things went real bad, I had to trust hp.

I went inside and layed out cloths for wet cold winter. got leashes ready, thought about carriers...halters....I knew if my house went i had to get us to the barn. It is a stout barn. The addition blew apart like a twig.

I was invisioning dogs,cats,goats,pigs, chickens, guinea pigs,  my parrot and rat, llamas and horses all in the one big stall on the hay, would have been like an ark. lol

The pot pigs condo's stayed 100% together, just the one the limb went thru the roof was damaged.

It is interesting for me to think how we have no more control over our A's disease than we do a hurricane. And all we can do is take care of ourselves.

I hope others are ok.

love,debilyn still so pooped from hammering, sawing, carrying, hauling, yikes...I did pretty well for a gal pushing 60!!