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I am applying for unemployment, Just got out of the video session about an hour or two ago ,I got into the mearcy house and got a PO Box , the address is ... I will have a phone tomarrow. I will give you the number when I get it. I am going with a pre-paid one from Wall Mart I think it is my best bet until I am fully settled. I sure miss you guys something bad. I want to see the kids so so verry bad. I think about M's little smirk and S with her "little miss" attitude. I went to a great meeting the other day. Think I have someonet that would make a perfect sponcer... He has 23 years and seems to like me. I think I am going to be OK now. I was real real worried that I was going to start using again with all the pressure of the streets and the temptation. But I was asked to get high and actualy just laughed at the dude. I might need to get to your area to pick up some cloths as the thrift shops have nothing in my size here. I guess there are alot of black poor people here because none of the white guys are as tall as I am. My Mom told me that Tracy might be finding me work in Belize. I wish I could, but I feel I need to have the idea at least that you and the kids are only a few miles away. Even though I do not get to see you, It is comforting to feel you are close. Try and give me an idea when I can comeo over a visit.... OK?
Things are looking up with him but like I said before, I have little hope that it will ever actually stop and I really don't like the way I am when I'm with him. I must say, this is much better than the last one I shared with the group where in the end I was a bitch! LOL
Thanks for sharing his letter with us. I do remember the other letter you shared with us which was filled with his illness...this one was much easier for me to read too! He sounds humbled and healthier. Regardless though of his health, how are you and how do you feel? Sounds like you know how you feel when you are with him and right now that is not healthy. Keep on keeping the focus on you and your health - you deserve it!
In my prayers and a hug to you, Your friend in recovery,
I do not like the way I am around the A I live with either. At the same time I am so much beter I measure that rather than being perfect. I will never be perfect but I am always grateful to be better.
I think in early recovery, hanging around with the spouse is like jumping on a dead battery and expecting it to crank. It takes time to charge. If you don't wait long enough, not only does your car not start, you burn up whatever charge may have accumulated and have to start over. We are certainly an impatient lot!
I think the fear is that if we stay apart - not just physically, but... no daily phone calls, emails, etc, that the other person is going to be lost for good. If that happens, I guess it was meant to be. But both A and codependent need a bunch of things in early recovery, none of which can be provided by the other -- space to work on the program, breathing room, sponsors and friends to provide a sane perspective, and time to recharge.
See? He got desprate. He got it together. He realized where he needed to be. He's walking the path now. And he's either gonna get it togther or he's not.
He is on God's time now. He is on God's plan. This is not your job. Not your dept. This is God's time. God's job.
I too live in North Carolina, in the Wilmington area. We have a homeless shelter here called the Mercy House. I am wondering if this is where he is? If so, let him know that MIP does have a Recovery House here, and if he is real about his recovery he needs to move away from the homeless shelter, as they are not geared to help any one over come homelessness, alcoholism or addiction but instead they tend to cater to it. Just a thought.
John
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" And what did we gain? A new life, with purpose, meaning and constant progress, and all the contentment and fulfillment that comes from such growth."
