Good Sat./Morning All,        Saturday 6:23 **AM**

                 Well....those of you who answered my post about the A' getting put into Rehab were right! UNFORTUNATELY...Yep...they turned him loose and he's back home! EVERYONE is just DEVESTATED no doubt. We just can't believe it. His older brother that lives in D.C. was on the phone for hours yesterday calling everybody and anybody to get the A' out of here and in treatment...but...they said it can't be done unless the A' volunteers. Ok...so it's on them if this man gets out and kills himself or somebody else drinking and driving, they can't say we didn't try. The woman at the evaluation clinic called me after she got finished talking to the A', and asked me a bunch of questions. She said he promised her he'd go back Tues. for a "followup". He wasn't considered bad enough to be put into a program. But...if over the weekend he shows signs of endangering me or himself to call 911 and they'd do it all over again, and maybe he'd be put into a 30 day program. I was in the process of moving some things up to my inlaws, and in the door the A' walks. CRAP! The police officer that took him away, brought him home! He of course "just couldn't believe I signed papers on him". I said, "yes, I signed the papers, but it is your whole family and your friend Craig involved in this also"! He said I was his problem not his drinking and he wanted me out of here and he wanted his guns back. Well his dad said "NO"!! He is not getting his guns back. Not until someone from the police department calls and says it's ok. The A' was telling me that the police officer that brought him home told him since he didn't have a felony that he could have them back. I told the A' to call the department and ask for that officer to call his dad and tell him if that was so true. He says..,"you have aggrevated them enough, they have better things to do"!! Then he's telling me that everyone misunder-stood him when he told them he took the overdose of pills last weekend. And then he tells me that when he reached under the couch to get the pistol he did not say he was going to do it that way. We were ALL WRONG about doing this to him. He says, "you dumbass's...there are more ways to kill myself than guns and pills...I could use a razorblade or rope or knife, if I was really going to do it"! Well...I had to go back to work, so I left. I called his friend Craig while I was waiting for the kids to get on the bus. I thanked him for staying overnight and being here when the police took the A' away, and for being the friend that he is. The A' had called him be-fore I left for work, so I heard his lies and BS that he was telling this guy! I told him that I'm so out of here as soon as I get my paycheck and get my stuff packed up. He said he'd come to the house while I did it, if I felt I needed him here, or the police would do it. When I got home from work the A' was in bed, but he came into the livingroom and I could'nt tell you what all he said now. My brain is dead I guess from all the drama. But the point is he was talking nice to me. Completely different than when I had left to go to work earlier. He grabbed a beer and  he went back to bed. I fell asleep on the couch. I was exhausted from having no sleep. Later I got up and fixed dinner and he was still in bed, but he came out to eat. Nothin' was said about any thing that happened that day. After dinner he went right back to bed and I fell asleep on the couch. And here I am awake this early on a Saturday morning dreading what the hours ahead of me are going to be like. But all I can do is keep a cool head and if he decides to start any arguing, I'll go somewhere. When he told me to get out yesterday, I told him I didn't have to leave, until all my stuff is out of here, I'm staying here. (Of course not if he gets to the point I feel threatened). Today, I'm going to tell him, "look, lets just be adults about this marriage not working out and get the divorce papers filled out, and I'll be out of here". No big deal. Let's not have any drama, I think we've had enough of that, I know I have. So...that's my story about yesterday. Oh...I told the lady that evaluated my A' that I belonged to this group on the com-puter and she was SO HAPPY to hear that!! She said for me to stick with it, and if at all poss-ible, get the A' to get into AA meetings. And both of us into counseling for our marriage pro-blems. I told her that isn't going to happen, he'll never do it. She said well, you just stick with your program and maybe someday he'll change his mind. Lady...I won't be here when or if he ever does, is what I wanted to tell her. But I didn't. OK folks... I'm out of here for now. I'm going to go start the coffee and prepare myself with prayer for the day ahead of me! I'll be in touch. Thanks again for ALL the support!! Love Ya's Bye! Hugs, Korinne