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(((()))Lauren your Mum is not choosing alcohol over you. The disease has overtaken her to the point that rational thinking and the ability to put you first is gone. She is a lost soul with no direction. Hope you know how much you are loved by all of us here. You have hundreds of Mums on this site who would be very proud if you were their daughter. Luv Leo xxx
Would you like to be one of my daughters for a while? I have 5 and would love to have another. One of our daughters, Ashley, is "out there" right now. In the active stage of her disease, in a very unhealthy situation, a place where I can't have contact with her, even though I miss her very much.
But what I can do, is take care of me and enjoy the gifts that my HP has given me. Today He has given me the gift of visiting with a beautiful, wonderful young lady named Lauren Ashley. For that I am grateful. So consider yourself hugged by Momma Rita, close your eyes and imagine that I were there I would cook your favorite meal, fluff your pillow and plop in the bed with you and talk about everything and nothing - just hang out - those things that Moms & Daughters do - that is what I would love to do, because you are a great person and I know that I would enjoy your company.
Please be good to you - You are special and deserve to be treated that way!!
Love & Hugs,
Rita
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No matter what me and my God are going to be ok, even better than OK -
My AW often is not really there for our kids. My AFather sober for 20 years has really helped me to understand that what you see on the outside, is in my opinion, not at all what's going on inside.
I know you have heard that before, and for my kids that doesn't make it any less painful when it happens. I can only hope that as time passes they will remember that and have some comfort in it.
I absolutely could not see that in my Dad when he was active. Could not! But, I can see it in my AW. She says and does horrible things from time to time, but there is such pain in her. The draw of this addiction and the denial of being capable of getting help is unbelievable.
I love your poetry, you are very tallented. What I see in it is pure honesty and expression which is so healthy. I hope you keep sharing them with us.
Take care of you, you deserve it!
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"Good judgement comes from experience... experience comes from bad judgement" - unknown
