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I haven't posted in a long while but my life has been the usual - working my program, looking after my three children, home and working. I have had good days and bad days, more good than bad though!
Just in case you don't remember my situation about 4 years ago my AH and I separated. He has his own home where he can drink (he's a binge drinker) and when he is sober he is welcome to spend as much time as he likes with me and our children. So I guess you could say we have a part-time marriage. And this has worked for us.
I have just realised that the binges are getting closer together, like only 2 weeks apart instead of the usual 5-6 weeks.
I celebrated my 45th birthday 2 weeks ago and today is our 20th Anniversary. He was on a binge for my birthday and now again on our anniversary. I guess I just wanted to say it is a sad day for me. His disease is progressing and I am left alone more and more.
O.k I have had my winge! Tomorrow will be a better day.
Happy 45th B-day.... my birthday wish for you is to live the sencond part of your life in peace and serenity......
The sad truth is until he gets help, it will just get worse and worse, the bingeing will come closer and closer and last longer and longer......that is a sad but true fact about addiction....
Darlin Lady, I can feel your pain....and I know it hurts.....take it easy on yourself...
(((()) Feather. Glad you are back, do something special for yourself you deserve it. Hope your birthday ends up being a happy one. The Serenity Prayer may help today.. Luv Leo xxx
Happy birthday and so sorry you are sad today. Please try to enjoy yourself today, if you are alone. I have come to appreciate that I can be my own best friend, because I cannot depend upon my AH best friend. He has a habit, too, of ruining special events with his drinking.
I'm glad you are posting, and wish you a very peaceful prayer for your birthday to be a nice one, no matter what HE does! You can make it a good one to be alive another year for YOU!!!
Thanks all for your kind words. I was right, today is a much better day!
I had a laugh in the chat room last night which cheered me up so much. (Thanks Nigel)
I just need to remember that even when I feel alone, really I am not. I have my children, friends and friends here on the board, oh and not to forget my pets.
