i want to thank the few people who sent prayers and kind words,to me after the death of my dear father in law..it has been a rough month few weeks..first off i went on my cruise oct 8,on oct 9 my daughter who is 7 and half months pregnant went into premature,and was in the hospital for 2 days she is now on semi bed rest till her due date nov 23 and she is taking medication everyday to control the contractions,her grandfather,my father in law told me about this on wednesday the 11 while we were in port in st thomas,then one week from my daughter going into labor we lost my father in law,i wish he could have lived long enough to the birth of his great grandson,but he had 7 children 2 stepsons and a bunch of grandchildren and 5 and half great grandchildren.this man was a great person,if he didnt like or liked you you knew it cause he would tell you...nothing ever kept my father in law still he worked right up until the day he died,and he was 79..he is going to be very sadly missed.my mother in law is having a hard time figureing out the bills since he paid all the bills,they had 2 car payments and a mortgage,besides other bills,i dont know how my mother in law is going to be able to manage,but at least i will be there to help her and help her to decide what is best..i dont think she will ask my AH  for advice since he is still drinking and using..she told him the day at the hospital when there was no hope of my father in law getting well and that he was brain dead,she told my  AH that she wanted him to stop this crap and get his life back in order if not for himself and for me to do it for her,cause she needs him right now..since this all happened my AH has gotten very nasty,he never ever woried about me being on the net the other day he wanted to know who i was talking to and he wanted to see what i was writing,i told him i was talking to my eldest son.he wanted to know what i was saying..not only that my daughter cannot get stressed for any reason,and he is always saying something mean to her.he knows that he cant stress her out but i think he is doing this all on purpose.my father in law was not his real father it was his step father,my AH is start ing to look real bad cause of the drinking and drug use.but i have a real bad feeling dont know what it is,well this was a long post sorry..it started out thanking the few people who prayed and posted to my last post thanks so much{in a better note i started going back to church last sunday going to my mother in laws church,and next week im going to start back to al-alon}thank for listening love to all my al-alon family you r my rock