The material presented
here is not Al-Anon Conference Approved Literature. It is a method
to exchange
information, ideas, feelings, problems and solutions on a personal
level.
Wow--I have been in these rooms for three months. What a crazy three months. Thanks for being there. I bottommed out when my A lost it on my 19 year old. He went to rehab. He got out. He lapsed a little several times. We are working through paranoia and he is doing better. I have spent the time trying to identify and fix my part of the problem. I don't want to be the one that enables him any more. I want to be the parent my children deserve. I want to have a healthy relationship with my spouse. You ahve been there to help me learn how do do those things. Thank you for putting up with me and my naive comments. I am sure that some of you are chuckling to yourself as I have ranted, raved and cried. Thank you for keeping the chuckles quiet and sharing hope and experience with me.
We are working this program one day at a time. some days I think we will end. Some days I think we will make it. It is trying. thanks for your support. My prayers are with you.
Believe me, nobody is chuckling. There is no humor in what we are all going through... but a little humor will help some through it. If you work on yourself enough to see some humor again, you can count that as a milestone.
I knew I was getting better when my AW had spent 20 minutes raging at me over who was going to do something trivial. Her point was, if I really cared about her, I would have already done it. It was insane and she was hysterical over it. I detatched pretty well and kept my cool ... on the outside.
When I walked into the house I thought my head was going to explode, and on tv was an episode of the Simpsons and they said something funny. It made me laugh. And I knew it was going to be ok.
Can you imagine the headline.... HP SENDS IN THE SIMPSONS, SAVES CRAZED AL-ANON
Everyone here is pulling for you. Never doubt that.
Take care of you!
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"Good judgement comes from experience... experience comes from bad judgement" - unknown