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Been thinking of you a whole lot this month. Remembering the shock and grief we all felt hearing of dadrrb's passing.... So glad we could all be here for you during that time. Remembering watching you grow in the program and finding your love for him again, even on the difficult days. You were and are a strong loving woman. Understanding life is different now and some days can still be hard. Glad you still keep coming back. Tomorrow is the one year anniversary (I looked it up on the board), hope you know you are in our thoughts, hope you are doing okay and that if you need to reach out, that you know we are here for you. Loved and love you both so much. There is a song I hear on the radio...the chorus always reminds me of that love you spoke about finding again in your marriage....
Luv you much (((((((((txmom))))))))), Kis
Leann Rimes Lyrics
Probably Wouldn't Be This Way Lyrics
Got a date a week from Friday with a preacher's son Everybody says he's crazy I'll have to see
I finally moved to Jackson when the summer came I won't have to pay that boy to rake my leaves
I'm probably going on and on It seems I'm doing more of that these days
[CHORUS 1:] I probably wouldn't be this way I probably wouldn't hurt so bad I never pictured every minute without you in it Oh You left so fast Sometimes I see you standing there Sometimes it's like I'm losing touch Sometimes I feel that I'm so lucky to have had the chance to love this much God gave me a moment's grace 'Cause if I'd never seen your face I probably wouldn't be this way
Mama says that I just shouldn't speak to you Susan says that I should just move on
You oughta see the way these people look at me When they see me 'round here talking to this stone
Everybody thinks I've lost my mind But I just take it day by day
[CHORUS 2:] I probably wouldn't be this way I probably wouldn't hurt so bad I never pictured every minute without you in it Oh You left so fast Sometimes I see you standing there Sometimes I feel an angel's touch Sometimes I feel that I'm so lucky to have had the chance to love this much God gave me a moment's grace 'Cause if I'd never seen your face I probably wouldn't be this way
Probably wouldn't be this way
Got A Date a week from Friday with a preacher's son Everybody says I'm crazy Guess I'll have to see
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Let your light shine in the darkness. "I can't just bring my mind to meetings...I must also bring my heart."
Thinking of you and Dad. Even though I didn't know have the joy and priveldge of knowing Dad at the time, I have grown to through your eyes. You have helped me so much and I am eternally greatful. Will keep you and your family in my prayers tonight and always. Send our love to Dad.
Love and blessings to you and your family.
Live strong,
Karilynn & Pipers Kitty
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It's your life. Take no prisoners. You will have it your way.
(((txmom)))) I went back and found some of the posts regarding when you lost your beloved husband. I have only been on this board since New Years Day 2006, so that was before my time here. I read the one written by you about three weeks afterward, and you wrote just beautiful words about Christmas and your daughter, and how you spent it as a family. I got cold chills just reading. Your husband must have been a special guy, and you are too.
You know, I just told my husband yesterday that we need to stop all the fussing and not talking, etc. that goes on here. He's fine until he has too much to drink, then he goes off. I told him that life is too short, and one day one of us is going to be left without the other one, and we will wish for these days back. Then today I read this post, and looked up your old post. Eerie. Well, everything happens for a reason, they say.
My husband, too, is the love of my life. We have been thru so much, separation, law involved, etc. You name it. All in the name of alcohol.
I am glad you have good memories of your husband, and you choose to cherish those, and let the other stuff just go. That is so important to our recovery.
Hope you and your daughter are doing OK. I know you must miss him something awful, but from what I remember, you are taking care of yourself and your family. Keep up the good work.
P.S. I know that song that was mentioned. I used to listen to it when my AH and I were separated, because our separation to me, felt like a death. Yes, it speaks so well of the love in a marriage so few people are blessed enough to experience, whether they are dealing with an A or not. Beautiful and haunting song.
Thank you so much for this post. The past year has been so hard. I've learned a lot but I still feel like I have so much further to go. I have been able to see more clearly than I would have ever imagined who my true friends are. This board and the room have literally saved my sanity on more than a few occasions. You all mean so much to me and I love each of you. I'm still trying to figure out this "new world" and who I'm meant to be in it. Thank you all for your support, patience, listening ears and loving arms in the past year. I know that there is so much more I should say but I'm a little emotional at the moment. Just please know how much it means to me that you remembered.
((((((((Kis))))))))))))))))))) and (((((((((((((((((Regina)))))))))))))))))
WOW Regina I just want you to know I love you with open arms and I too know dad was a special guy cause I got to know him... He taught me alot and I wont never forget the compassion the love the peace and his strength that I felt through chatting with him in the room and PM when I was hurting deep down inside Dad knew I need a laugh so he told me a joke or a true story that made me laugh.... Regina your a wonderful person and I miss seeing you your love,compassion, and strength has got me though some tough times too and reminded me how much I need HP in my life!!!
Wow I am in tears I can't beleive it has been a year already!!! Continue to take one day at a time and know I am always here for you sweetheart!!
I remember your day of sadness very clearly from last year and the outpouring of grief from members on this board. Please know that you are always in our hearts and we think of you often not just today. Hugs for you and your family from Australia. Luv Leo xxx
