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Subject: [Cat-A-List] My horse with wings, has flown away
Went to feed and Chief, my appy/paint was down. horrible. send message to my animal groups. this is a sad story. but part of it all.





thank you for your loving thoughts. NO question, I could feel it. All of a sudden I stopped and felt the air around me and realized it was you guys.
 Did all I could, enema, arm up pulling out gunk, he even drank mineral oil for me. Started getting bowel sounds.
Was a rough day. After my dear friend helping by going to get the mineral oil and tubing, Dr. Sally showed up.
 
She immediately gave him something for pain. I could not find my bute anywhere.  Tore my house apart. I read a concoction I need to have here. Whisky and ginger and something else.
 
He was horribly dehydrated. He must have twisted during the night. Gums were pail. His heart was giving out, had almost no bp.
 
Man he was  a fighter. But what a gentleman. He fought some, but allowed me to do all that to him and was perfect with Sal. perfect. He kept putting his front hoove up. Sal kept saying watch out. I said no, he wants me to hold it. So I did. My glasses are totally gone now. totally. blind, great.
 
Foals do that to say I am a baby, be nice. Now my Chief was a baby again, vulnerable and scared. So I would let his hoove down, heavy, then he would hand it to me again. He leaned his face on mine, nose in my face, snuggled me.
 
He was so soft and furry with his winter coat, big blue eyes. smelled like  home. He has been out here about as long as I have. I felt a major part of Eden gone when he flew away.
 
Sal found tumors all over his behind. She did the rectal and said, "Oh honey this is not good." I said like dead not good. yes.
 
Of course my me went into the fog and pain mode.
 
I asked her, she said if it were her horse she would put him down. He was in horrible pain. I walked and ran him for hours. I even got on Elgin for a bit to help me walk Chief.
 
Suesue was around us.
I walked Chief up where I can see his body from the kitchen window. I called mom, she helped me. sal came up and put some barbs in him, I had to hand her five syringes becuz she did not have the right sized syringe. she was embarrassed. for petes sake. I told her she never has to be embarrassed about anything with me. She was on that big horse rescue with me.
 
that was when she could tell he barely had a pulse. He went down. I sat by his head and talked to him. Fannie was right there nuzzling him and pushing him with her snouter. Then she just stood over his head as I sat there.
 
I said fly away Mr. Munch. After sal left, $158 later. not bad for all she did, I called the bury guy, $150.
 
thank you linda for calling. I thought it was a wendy. I was so messed up could not breath, please know if I sounded short it was becuz I was having trouble getting my breath. I appreciate it so much. YOU can do no wrong as far as I am concerned. We have been friends a very long time.
 
I can still feel moms feelings. did all night. Was in pretty bad pain. my joints were screaming. But it does not matter to me. Have accepted it as part of my life.
 
Late last night I heard that sound again. I know it is a bird. From the sounds of it, it is a domesticated big bird and it is not leaving my area. Never gets more than about 1000 feet away. I heard Elgin winny over and over. I went up and he was about 20 feet from chief. He would not come down.
 
I was afraid to look  in the barn. I thought what if Elgin is in the barn and that was chief saying goodbye? I could not tell from where I was.
 
I know you would think it was a good thing. But to me it would not be.
 
came in to escape in a movie, dvd player does not work. Tv does not work, my camera died. just died. did not really care much. least not now. things work out. Now my vcr works of course but could not find the remote. but did get my popeye movie to rewind and listened to that. I LOVE that movie. "Even if something helps you that is wrong, it still is not the right thing to do." Popeye.
I am going to try to get a bunch of vhs tapes. Anything. I won't have satellite for a bit. OH I used another tv, but no remote.
 
small stuff. I have to use bill money to pay for my chieferoni. I got lots of feed, hay and me a bit of food though.
 
OH and as I am up there with Chief, laying by him. I look up and there are the four dumb dogs running up the gravel road across the street. So I had to go get those numbsculls. sweating horribly in my sweats. mineral oil all in my hair. Looked like I had not washed it in weeks.
 
Finally got them and came back home.
 
Wore t hem out. Now I gotta figure out how they got out.
 
The rental looks sooooo nice. man so nice. the kids did a great job. Have some very very good people wanting it and they have the money.
 
I gotta pay my power bill at least. I may lose internet nad phone for a bit.
 
keep falling asleep. I love you guys. debilyn of Potter's Eden

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(((((((((debilyn)))))))))))


I am so sorry.I didn't realize horses could be so loving.Any animal can tho.We have an iguana, Herman.Have had him for almost 11 years.When I pet him he leans his head against my hand.Most people don't think a lizard can be loving.But he is.He has such a personality,very stubborn and determined to have his way.Loves pizza and macaroni and cheese and riding in the car.But he is very sweet,not mean at all.Even tho his owner is an A,lol.


When my husband brought him home 11 years ago I was pretty upset.I didn't want a lizard.I had seen full grown iguanas and they looked so ugly.Now I am very attached to Herman.I love that lizard!To me he is adorable.I am so glad I got to know him.


I also learned something else from your post.Popeye is very wise.


Try to take care of yourself during this time of grief.I'm sure the other horses will be missing Chief as well so lean on eachother a bit.


love and hugs    dru


 


 


 



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(((Debilyn)))


So very sorry for your loss.  You were there with him though and it sounds like he loved you and knew you were loving him unconditionally.  How amazing that he did that with his hoof....


Take care and get lots of rest, love on the rest of your sweet animals and feel better.


My prayers are with you and your Chief, may he rest in peace and not suffer anymore...


Love, HeidiXXXX



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I dread any day any of my pets gets sick. I have had some close calls. I am sorry to hear of this expense. I have no money to deal with unexpected expenses either.  I hope you can get the rental full again soon for your bank balance.


 


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((((Debilyn))))


Nothing I could say would help, so just know I am hugging you and feeling so horrible for your pain and grief.


Take care of you and hug the rest of those furries.


               love Jeannie



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(((((((((debilyn))))))))))


There are no words.  Am just sending hugs.


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((((Debilyn)))))


I am so sorry.  Obviously a dear friend.  I am sure you have many fine memories to comfort you in this difficult time.


Sending hugs and prayers your way.


Take care of you!



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((((deb)))) Chief was one lucky guy to have had you.  Tears rolled down my face as I read your post, you are such a good writer, I could see, like in a movie, you running here and there, trying everything you knew.  Doing your best for your buddy.


That is amazing that he did that with his hoof.  I didn't know horses did that either.  I have not been around horses much, and to tell the truth, am a little  intimidated by the sheer size of them.  But not you, dear Deb.  Your strength and your heart must outweigh you by 10,000,000 lbs!


Am so sorry for your loss.  Try to get some rest.  (I'm always telling you that, aren't I?)  You did your best, now Chief is at rest, and knew he was well loved by a very special lady.


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((sweet debilynn)))

How lucky Chief was to have you as his human, as are all your flock.
My next thought after I know an animal or human has suffered before dying is that they are now free.
I was actually able to be happy/grateful when my MIL passed after months of suffering.

It is us, the ones left behind that have to deal with thier absence. But ya know, I think if they could, they would say "Don't cry, I'm free and beyond any joy you will ever know on earth"!! .

Take care (((debilynn)))
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(((Debilyn)))


Wow gal, you've had a very tough time.  You have given so much love to Chief and he in turn knew to trust you in a very special way.


I hope you are able to take some moments for yourself as your mind and body will now need some healing time.  Sounds like your body is in pain from the stress of everything.  Mentally it is just time to greive as you have lost a dear companion in Cheif.


Thanks for sharing with us even though it was very difficult for you.  You mentioned that you kept falling asleep.  Let us know that you have been able to rest and that you are doing ok when you can.  In the meantime you are in my prayers and thoughts.


Love


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I'm so sorry for your loss, Debilyn.


Chief was indeed lucky to have a home with you.


After reading your post, I had to stop, dry my tears and go hug and snuggle my two dogs. They are the best friends a girl can have!


Take care of yourself.


Love,


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((((Debilyn))))


I'm so very sorry.


You always knew the right thing to say to me when I found my Jasper had cancer and when I had to decide when the time was right for him to go. I wish I had the words to take away your pain. We are lucky to have had such good furry friends in our lives.


You are in my thoughts and prayers.


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((((((Debilyn)))))),


I am so sorry for your loss.  But he's not suffering anymore and is a good place.  He loved you very much and he knew how much you loved him. 


Love and blessings to you and all your animals.


Live strong,


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Darling Darling Debbie,


You so evoke a mood when you write.


Chief and you were so blessed to have each other.


I hug you and love you


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((((((((((((((((((((Debilyn))))))))))))))))))))) I am soooo sorry!! He was a beautiful horse, and was so lucky to have had you for a 'Mom'. I know you will miss him terribly! My God, Debilyn, how much can a person take?? Prayers for you my friend, and loads and loads of Love and TLC

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Debilyn I'm so sorry. I lost a 3 yo this summer. She was in the NBC, ICU for 2 weeks across the hall from Barbaro. She picked up a virus that went to her heart. They gave her a 5% chance of living 6 mo. I tried to get her stable enough to bring her home to die. She worsened when taken off IV meds. I'll be paying her bill for many years. We sure do love these noble animals.


This is for Chief... big hugs to you... he is now in greener pastures running with my Pearl, Charlie and Paper Moon.


Don't cry for the horses that life has set free,


a million white horses forever to be.


Don't cry for the horses now in Gods hands


as they dance and they prance in a heavenly band.


 


They were ours as a gift, but never to keep;


as they close their eyes forever to sleep.


Their spirits unbound, on silver wings they fly,


a million white horses against the blue sky.


 


Look up into heaven you'll see them above;


the horses we lost, the horses we loved.


Manes and tails flowing, they gallop through time.


They were never yours-they were never mine.


 


Don't cry for the horses, they'll be back someday.


When our time is gone ,they will show us the way.


Do you hear that soft nicker close to your ear?


Don't cry for the horses, love the ones that are here.


 


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