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In the dream I am at my maternal grandparents house and it is a holiday of some sort, cuz everyone is there. Everyone is sitting down to eat dinner. Well my mom comes over and says something to me (and I wont go into the details..lol) but what she says crosses over a boundary I have with her ...and well...I just loose it! And stomp out the front door!!! Of course she comes after me. And I wind up talking to her AGAIN about this boundary, and the subject gets on to Al-anon. And she wants to know again, why I keep going to the meetings now that I am no longer married to my acoholic ex-wife. And I am getting angrier and agrier trying to explain it to her, and feeling that I have to justify myself to her!
Well in the middle of all this, I realize that I am way off target here! That I am out of control and caught up in my old behaviors again. And I am at once remorseful for the way I am talking to my mom and for the way I walked out on a room full of my family!!!! I knew I had to go back in there and make amends to my family and to my mom!
It was at this moment in the dream that I woke up. And felt so guilty for my bad behavior!!!
I sorta shook the cobwebs outta my head and .... well.... realized I was feeling guilty for something that wasnt even real..and just started laughing.
Boy! This program is getting deep into my pores folks!!! Even in my dreams, I am working a program!
Step 12 states: "Having had a spiritual awakening as the result of these Steps, we tried to carry this message to others, and to practice these principles in all our affairs".
I didn't know "all our affairs" meant dreams too!!!! he he he
In all seriousness though, it really did make me feel good to think about how strongly these principals are becoming a part of my life!
Anybody else dreaming Al-anon? I read another post here the other day about dreaming having to go to the bathroom, but that it might somehow break confidentiality! I am still pondering the meaning of that one too!! he he he
What are you eating or doing before you go to bed? (Ummm.... maybe I better not ask! ) But I think it's cool that you can take your recovery even when you go to bed. Keep on dreaming !
Love and blessings to you.
Live strong,
Karilynn & Pipers Kitty
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I came on to post an update and your post was still on top, so it caught my eye because I am the one that had the dream that going potty was going to break anonimity. Hehe, but your dream didn't have Harrison Ford in it. LOL.
Hey at least your dream made sense, mine was bonkers.
Yours in recovery,
Mandy
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I think it's great that it is getting so deep into your subconscious. The most telling thing u wrote was that u felt guilty for getting angry (or not being able to express yourself), maybe you are on the verge of an epiphany about it.
I get frustrated that I can't get my family to understand what I'm trying to say when I express my feelings... I just get accused of blaming them ~ nope ~ but I can be understood here, thank God.
In the Program, I've found that I can forgive & make amends in prayer & don't even have to talk to that certain person who wouldn't be able to hear it anyway. Or as my therapist told me once, 'not to waste pearls on swine' ~ some ppl just never get it.
Hehe, no one could accuse you of not working your Program! Kudos, hon!
Love, -Kitty of Light
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How interesting...What came to mind for me was to be "gentle with yourself." I've beaten people up in my dreams. I dream very vividly and can remember mine almost nightly. Yesterday (during a nap) I dreamt that my landlord invited me on a trip to Bermuda, all expense paid! Funny thing is, she's leaving today for Bermuda with her son and asked me to feed her cat. oh well. lol
What a phenomenal dream. I am the queen of losing it, or rather I was before al-anon. Therapy helps me a lot, having that hour a week to focus on what is going on with me helps. I also have a great deal of help from this board and the wonderful people here. I hope someday to dream al-anon I am coming up on my first anniversary and treasure this place a lot. I know I would not be even approaching equanimity without it. Sometimes it is hard to imagine you ever losing it but I take your word for it. I know anyone who lives around an A has a trying time. I also know that my being with an A, at least for me, is a product of the family I grew up in where alcoholism and unfortunately for me, codependency was rife.
) But I think it's cool that you can take your recovery even when you go to bed. Keep on dreaming 
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~ nope ~ but I can be understood here, thank God.