The material presented
here is not Al-Anon Conference Approved Literature. It is a method
to exchange
information, ideas, feelings, problems and solutions on a personal
level.
I have learned so much in the few months I have been introduced to this program. When I first found this board I was panicked, full of fear, total rage, and tears. I felt like it was the end of the world.
I did not know what Alanon was about. I just wanted my AH to stop drinking. I had no idea the lessons I would begin to learn.
I never knew there was so much to learn about my own behavior and reactions. It is such a blessing....
I know now that:
I am worthy of respect and love...
I am not in control....
I can love myself and be content with myself, no matter what anyone else is doing....
It is okay to feel feelings like guilt, anger, loneliness, gut-wrenching sadness... they will pass....
It is okay to laugh again, to enjoy this very moment....
Life is so short, be grateful for what you have in this day....
The alcoholic in my life has a disease, and he feels guilty and sick. There are good days in this life with him. I love him deeply, though I know I have to begin to set boundaries and stop caretaking.......
Energy is better spent on not worrying about everything and everyone, but improving your outlook and reactions....
All of these things help me. It takes sometimes reading something 50 times before it sinks in and then 50 times more to practice the toool, but I try to remember progress not perfection. God wants us right where we are, we are presented with situations and they teach us lessons we need to learn. They are not punishments, but experiences to strengthen us and our faith.
Love is the most important of all. To have compassion for myself first was so foreign to me, but I am beginning to really love myself. Little by little, I am capable of so much more compassion and patience for others as this happens.
This program is such a gift. Thank you all for being here. Have a great day....
Thank you for this post. I keep a notebook of poems, logos, etc. that help me in my spiritual journey. I am going to print your post and add it. What a great summary of what al-anon does for us! Babysteps
How great it is to see you growing. To see you doing so well despite all the tests life throws at us. Your post is truly an inspiration. To focus on so many positives is surely great progress.
Clearly you are a very kind and caring person and you deserve to grow and be happy in your life.
Well it sounds like you have peace and serenity now; which is the goal of this program. Thank you for sharing your recovery with us, it means alot to see how someone can transform themselves from grief and despair to being happy, healthy, and full of hope.
Live Life One Day At A Time,
Twinmom~
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"The people who don't mind matter and the people who mind, don't matter". (Dr. Seuss)
