Last week I posted about my feelings of missing a concert due to a death in my recovering A's family.  I shared about resentments I had over his past issues vs. my want to attend this show.  That night I attended a meeting in which one of the topics was step 6.  During this meeting it occured to me that these feelings were more than just general.  I had 2 major character defects working on me.  The issue of feeling like a victim - poor me I cant do what it is I want.  Add the scorekeeper role to this.  No wonder I had stinkin thinking working in my head.  Once I realized what was going on I was able to look at things objectively, and make appropriate choices w/ the help of some close program friends and HP.  I went w/ my hubs to the services and for me it was the best choice w/ no regrets.

Today via UPS I got 2 tickets for my hubs and myself to attend the same show at a different venue.  My oldest daughter bid on them from an online auction.  Her and her brother paid for one of the tix and hubs and I are paying for the other.  So tonight hubs and I will be attending the show for a group that I have waited 22 years to see.  I am so very excited and grateful. 

I have learned much about myself in this past week.  I know that doing the right things has its own rewards.  Being there for my hubs in his time of need and having his gratitude for it was the reward.  This tix are just a bonus in life.

Karen