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I have seen some big struggles on the board this week and also have been reading about alot of growth happening in so many people. I gain so much wisdom and insight from reading the post and people's honest open shares. My program is coming along very well and I'm now working on Step 2 with my sponser. I really took my time working Step 1 not by choice but by circumstance. Recovery is still there even during the chaos and I was really proud of myself for sticking to my daily readers, prayer, communicating with my sponser (who talked me through some tough times), and working my step questions. I have learned that even in sorrow and pain I can choose to take care of myself and that's exactly what I've been doing the last three weeks. Finally this past weekend the A and I had a wonderful weekend together with lots of fun and laughs. I found the courage and ability to put into words my true thoughts about our situation and what that means for me. My plans of leaving are still there but I have not committed to anything as of yet. My A really wants another chance and his actions are lining up with his words. Funny how being honest with someone can just release all that tension and anxiety. My new mantra is to take care of me no matter what and continue getting healthy, regardless of whether I'm with the A or not. I have shown myself a different side a lighter brighter me that has not been around in a long time. I have been attracting more positive people in my surroundings and feel the energy I'm exuding is very positive.
The A is doing fine, plugging along with his life. We have really worked together this week as parents and friends. So many messages that you all have been sharing lately include being honest but be respectful and of course honoring our boundaries. For today... I will remain open and positive to life's gifts and possibilities and not allow myself to be mired down with negativity from the A or anyone else that I might come in contact with. Wishing you all a blessed day as well.
Hugs,
Twinmom~
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"The people who don't mind matter and the people who mind, don't matter". (Dr. Seuss)
What a wonderful "working the program" post. We joined MIP around the same time...7/2005. I have seen so much growth from your post. I really love reading them because they are very inspiring.
Such an inspiring post of strength and growth in the program. You should be very proud of taking charge of your life and your happiness. It is so hard to change and not base that change on everyone else.
I struggle with it daily (heck hourly... LOL)
Good luck with your step work, it is tougher than I thought to explore all those parts of me that I thought were ok before.
Take care of you!
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"Good judgement comes from experience... experience comes from bad judgement" - unknown
I am so glad you shared this.It's always great to hear how this program is working and making positive changes in lives.It's an encouragement to us all to keep going.
We all know this program works if you work it. Thank you for putting into words so that the new comers to our board can see just how the program works if you work it.
Glad your program is going well. Stay strong.
Yours in recovery,
Mandy (Dolphin123)
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"Today's problems can not be solved if we still think the way we did when we created them" -Albert Einstein
