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I seem to travel in circles. I'm back to that place where I want someone else to do this for me. I am tired. I just don't want to do this anymore -- "this" meaning working my program, dealing w/ all the crap.
The thing is I know without this program I'd have a WHOLE lot more crap to deal w/. Today at my home group a man there knew what I meant, and directed me to the 11th Step. Well I'm just not feeling it.
Any help here is appreciated. I know this too shall pass -- but what do you do when you find yourself, that is if you ever find yourself in this position.
i've been there luna. i was "just NOT in the mood" for a while. what i did was keep going. i kept going to meetings, i kept talking to people, i kept turning the focus back to myself and what i could change in me. and it did pass. not in my time, but it did. i brought it up at meetings and i just listened alot. one person said that i should try to enjoy it. not think of it as negative, just a plateau, a rest. good luck, much love...
I accept that I am perfectly imperfect and am glad for the tool "this too shall pass." Lo and behold as I look back over my patterns in life - the good has passed but oh so wonderful when the bad passes too.
I just sit still when I am feeling uncomfortable, or try HALT - Hungry, Angry, Lonely, Tired, or I get to a meeting, or I call my sponsor (who kicks me off the pity pot ~ lol).
love ya, Maria
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If I am not for me, who will be? If I am only for myself, then who am I? If not now, when?
There are different ways of working the program, and different program tools for different situations.
Looking after yourself, and being good to yourself, are also parts of the program, just as much as doing your Step 4 inventory is. Any way you can arrange for yourself a little holiday? Even if it's just taking yourself out for a movie or something small.
Sometimes I just take a break, not a vacation, but a break. Or if I need a new perspective, I'll hit an open AA meeting that works the steps. It's helps for whatever reason hearing it from the other side. Other times, I'll come to the here and skip the meetings for a few days.
I think this is a balancing act. We so much in our lives. I can't keep all the balls going at the same time. So I drop a few and that's ok. When I'm really in doubt, I go back and remember Step 1. That always seems to pull be back.
Live strong,
Karilynn & Pipers Kitty
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Lunamoth, I've struggled with this too. I came to understand that recovery is a process. It's all a way forward. Sometimes I feel like I'm standing still or even maybe going backwards, but I then remind myself it is all progress. I try to just focus on the now...live for today....
so much in our lives. I can't keep all the balls going at the same time. So I drop a few and that's ok. When I'm really in doubt, I go back and remember Step 1. That always seems to pull be back. 
