The material presented
here is not Al-Anon Conference Approved Literature. It is a method
to exchange
information, ideas, feelings, problems and solutions on a personal
level.
I read a great post here today titled the list. I give this person so much credit because here's the only list in my head. The only phrase in my head is I'm so sick of....Here's what I am sick of: sick of the smell from my A, sick of the drunk mumbling, sick of the hurtful words, sick of the namecalling, sick of it being all my fault, sick of the crying, sick of the fighting, sick of the being alone, sick of the next day phone call like nothing happened the night befor, sick of never hearing I'm sorry, sick of the worrying, sick of not knowing the future, sick of being embarassed at parties and events, sick of lying to friends and family, sick of pretending, sick of not doing anything besides sitting around, sick of feeling like it's never going to end.
I don't know why I am posting this but I just had to vent . Thanks.
I think its great to vent. One of the things I love about this board is that people tell the truth about their lives. I am so tired of not being able to tell the truth about my life. I am so tired of the A too. I reached a point where I did not want to hear it anymore.
This group has been very very good for me in learning how to detach. When you are swimming with emotions it is a good idea to be able to practice detachment.
I used to so jump into other people's lives. Now I want to be in mine and fix my own. I was such a rescuer and enabler now I am learning not to be. It is very very very hard work for me. Last night the A was demanding food. There was food in the fridge he didn't want to make it. His idea of love is total sacrifice on my part. I am through doing that. I am also through shouting, screaming and begging. My days of begging him are over.
We all get to our limits. This is a good place to come and vent. People will hear you and understand you and support you here.
Gosh, I could have written that list a couple years ago, then I found this site. The great people here, lots of reading, venting can turn your world around! One way or another, things will get better, I promise, Praying for your recovery, with love, TLC
I'm glad you're hear - keep checking it. I've only been to this site for about four weeks, but it has encouraged me more than anything. It's also encouraged me to attend f2f meetings, which are very helpful to me.
Can I just say "amen"... "ditto"... "all of the above"... Not that I'm glad you are going through this.. please don't get me wrong... It's nice to know that other's know how insane this life is...and at this point, it's all the same with each one of us.
Hello Daisy , well when your truly sick and tired of being sick and tired you will make the decission to find meetings and change your life. for your sake i hope u have hit your bottom at this point there is no where to go but UP and Al-Anon will help u get there. good luck Louise
Good Luck.