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I mentioned a week or so ago I was really anxious about mtg my ex bf A for some coffee. I thought it might be a good idea for me to put some closure on our seperation. We never formally broke up just stopped talking when he went to rehab and it was suggested by his sponsor, hes been sober about 5 months. Anyway, I got real anxious after asking him for coffee, I did some soul searching and realized I did not have to have closure in order to recover!!!
What a breakthru for me!! I normally would've obsessed over what I was gonna say or what he was gonna say or when we were actually going to go for coffee. This time, I turned it over and asked my HP to do whats best for me. Because I just didnt know what was best. I didnt think much about it anymore. I focused on myself and my life. I ran into him after my alanon mtgs and he nor I ever mentioned the coffee again. I was almost relieved.
Last night, after an alanon mtg, a friend and I were talking outside and he walks over. He wanted my cell phone number. Said he lost his old phone with the numbers, etc. I gave him the number. If he calls great, if he doesnt that his choice. I feel no anxiety. I am so grateful!!!!!!!!
You are an inspiration to us all. Thank you for reminding us that our HP will do for us what we cannot do alone. All we have to do is "Let go and let god".
If it is meant to be it will happen. If not............
Good for you. I am not there yet. I certainly don't feel I love my bf much these days. I have concern for him but not much love. I think his alcoholism killed it.
