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Just got off the phone with sons "recovering" alcoholic father. Seems that he got papers to show up in court with son too..... and what is the first words out of his mouth..... why do I have to go???? I don't have any money.... ugggggggh'
Ok.... I feel a bit better now. Except that I engaged in trying to get him to understand that just because he choose to leave the household and just because he choose to not be a part of his children's lives doesn't mean that he isn't the parent of the child and that he still has to be a part of their life when the court says he needs to be.
But I should know better than to engage with the stinking thinking of another.... but it also goes to show me that even with 14 years in the program, I still need to continue to work hard with my program.
I beat myself up so often for my regressing into my post al anon behavior. Thank you for sharing that it can happen even after years, if you don't really stick to the program.
I admire your ability to spit it out and move on. I'm working at doing the same.
I can so understand your thinking - which is why my Al-Anon friends have promised that when I'm old and to feeble to drive they will swing by the nursing home and pick up to bring me to a meeting!! - Because I will still definitely need to go to one (lol)
Wishing you well on the court visit,
Rita
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No matter what me and my God are going to be ok, even better than OK -
hey i scream/ cry now freely.....THEN i notice that SOON as i DISCHARGE the feelings, i can go on and ACCEPT and than MOVE on.......its a done deal, and the stinking thinking goes away as well......
i am glad that u CAN feel....so many of us, beginning, coudln't feel, and we stayed stuck, cuz discharging the feelings are the precurser to acceptance.....we wont accept till we FEEL FIRST..........gr8 share, rosie
Thanks all.... it's always wonderful to know that even in working our program we are still going to have those moments of being caught off guard with our own emotions. I know I'm extremely grateful to have such a great outlet with all my al-anon friends that understands yet helps to keep me focused as well.
Court date is July 6th..... sigh
Also daughter and my two grandchildren will be coming in from Germany the night before..... talk about some nutty changes.... good and not so good.... at least there is balance!
Cilla
Just for today I will be grateful for this breath of life.
someone told me once we are only as sick as our secrets .I learned from that as we spit it out to another person on a post or in a meeting we let go of its power to control us . good work .
Hopefully your daughter and two grandkids will be a good distraction to what is going on. Enjoy their visit as I am sure you will. ((((((((Cilla)))))))) cdb
