I feel so good tonight.  I am going to visit my daughter next Saturday and it will be the first I have seen her since January.  I am nervous and excited.  I keep reminding myself to keep it simple. 

Tonight we went to an NA meeting.  It was a speaker meeting I chaired for someone celebrating a year clean.  It gave me hope that not only will I be there some day, but my husband will too.  A few months ago i could not imagine my husband being willing to work a program yet now I am seeing him thrive and grow.  After the meeting I was talking to other addicts and my husband's sponsor came up and told me how much progress my husband is making and that made me feel so good.  I know I am not supposed to worry about his recovery, but I can't help but appreciate how hard he is working at recovery.  It's nice to know that others notice too and it's not just me with my wishful thinking.

I am learning to live in today and focus on myself.  I am learning to look at my own part in things and take responsibility for my part in things.  I am learning to deal with the pain.  I am learning to apply the principles in all areas of my life.  I am learning that I don't know anything.  Some days I feel superior and some days I feel inferior.  I am learning to take it easy and keep it simple.  I am a pro at complicating things and projecting.