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Yesterday I took a step towards freedom, very small step but a step Hub went off big time on the pitty pot with Mental Health yesterday, they sent the police there because they were afraid he was going to kill himself...heck he is already doing that......
Police called me and said, you have to come and sign papers, I said, I'm not coming...he said, we will come and get you he is not capable of signing for himself you are his wife and you are responsible.......I said, Sir, I told you I am not F***** coming and if you want to come and get me come on.....it can be nothing as bad as living with an addict.......we are seperated...........I am not responsible for him....he is a gown man....he said, sorry mam, woln't bother you again........
I said, you go girl...lol.....
Then today was challanged again by hub of course,5:30am calling here, come and get me I'm ready to come home......no you can not come home........he says, then take me to my dads........
Anyway, this went on most of the day then it was well then just bring me some clothes and some smokes, I didn't feel like it so I didn't do it.....maybe tomorrow.......maybe not........
I can feel myself seperating from the old ways of living, the old habbits are slowly slipping away....thank you god.........I can feel myself moving forward a very little at a time....need to find a job.....part time....but ai have some time.....school will be out and it will be easier....anyway......still taking it moment to moment, maybe starting to take it hour by hour....lol can't wait for day by day.....because these few steps towards freedom are awesome.....they make my heart smile........
Thank you so very much my wonderful alanon family......your love and support has helped my more than I can put into words.....The ESH I get here is filled with such love......
Andrea: How far you have come to unentangle yourself from over involvement. I am and have been so incredibly over involved so many times.
I am happy that you can put yourself first and not jump at a moments notice. Recently in the last few months I got a call from the A at the hospital he had been hosplitalized for a suspected heart attack. I did acknowledge it but did not jump up and go over there. I let it go and he came home on his own. I did not play into the drama. He did not have a heart attack. I would have felt incredibly guilty before. The A in my case certainly knew how to push all those buttons of over invovlement, needing to be needed and more. Now I have this family I can feel so much more centered.
I just love the words..."Free at last, Free at last, Thank God I'm free at last." Hold on to that feeling and what you did to get it because bigger things are coming.
Hub went off big time on the pitty pot with Mental Health yesterday, they sent the police there because they were afraid he was going to kill himself...heck he is already doing that......