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So, I have been separated for three weeks now and yesterday was our anniversary. Kind of awkward...we did go out last night just went and sat at a picnic table by the ocean and talked. I had a really nice night. It's funny how all of the little things I used to want to do (like that) we now magically have time for.
I am quick to cry, always have been...but I haven't at all these last couple weeks until last night. And then out of nowhere the grief of our whole situation hit me. Once I wasn't living at home, I really wasn't feeling a lot of emotion except peace...which is really unusual for me. Usually, if I contemplated leaving I was sick before I even packed a bag. Maybe that's why I never left.
Today I am grateful that last night was nice even though it wasn't the ideal situation. I think I always stayed because it was almost Christmas, one of the girls' birthdays, Easter, whatever...not good timing. So, I made it through my first special event, and it was just fine. I just wanted to encourage anyone else who has felt that or is feeling that today.
Maybe I am learning detachment yet???
Have a happy day everyone...especially those who have a special event today!
Isn't it cool Robyn, when our fears turn out to be a bit overblown? I did exactly the same, stayed well beyond what was reasonable to do, always looking for the excuses of why I can't quite do it yet.... I take comfort in the belief that you are at peace with your decision, today, cuz you are right where you need to be in your recovery.... Sometimes we truly are NOT ready to make such a move, and that is all part of our respective recoveries as well...
Take care
Tom
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