The material presented
here is not Al-Anon Conference Approved Literature. It is a method
to exchange
information, ideas, feelings, problems and solutions on a personal
level.
I am in a place that I never, ever thought I could be in. Just less than a year ago I thought the rest of my life would be doom and gloom if the A did not get into recovery. Several months later I realize that I am not in that terrible place and the A is still active. It really seems like a miracle to me. I am living a life with some normalcy and yes, even some fun, when I would have never believed it could happen. Thanks Alanon and HP!
Tomorrow my A goes to court for his first dui. He is very afraid because he has a drug charge on his record from about 10 years ago when he got caught smoking pot in his car. The "old me" would be full of anxiety over this. The "new me" just wants to be able to let him accept any consequences he gets from this. I would not even be that uncomfortable if he went to jail for awhile. OMG...I cannot believe that I am letting go.
I have a weekend trip planned that I am leaving for tomorrow night. The "old me" would never go through with going somewhere to enjoy myself on such a day that my A has to go to court. The "old me" would probably have taken off work because of all the anxiety I would have been feeling on this day.
So what more can I say except that I am so grateful for where I am TODAY!
