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Hi MIP, I woke up early this morning and of course once I am awake, my brain clicks in and I start to think, not always good at that early time. I was looking at what was happening in my life at the moment. Because of Covid here where I live, it has become rampant within the Schools, and because my Daughter, who lives with me, is a Teacher, I know that we are both at risk more. Earlier this week, she has come home sick, which we both thought that it could be Covid, but with the Test proved thankfully, negative. But I know that it could change at any moment.
We have been very, very lucky here where I live, as within our State, the Government closed Borders and kept us safe for a long time. For where we are now, everything is becoming opened, and of course so is Covid. I go to a Craft Group each week, but because of the position I am in, I have decided not to go. As I don't want to put other people at risk, especially a close friend of mine who is recovering from Breast Cancer. I will miss it, for I am a people person, and need that companionship, so I am using Just For Now.
My thoughts started to feel down, because of, and I started to compare myself and my life with that of one of my friends, who to me, her life is much more easier than mine. She has much more freedom, to do and go where ever she wants to. I have many challenges with my Health and life style. But when I started to feel sorry for myself, I believe my HP put the thought in my head, saying that she hasn't walked your path. That changed my thinking straight away, instead of feeling down, I started to look at what I have come through and how very far I have come especially within my recovery, of the many assets that I have discovered about myself.
Especially the reading that Skorpi has on the MIP Board, that applies to me today, Progress, not Perfection. Being a recovering perfectionist, I can slip into that role pretty easily. I am not afraid to look at my self, do an inventory, especially when I lose my Serenity, and I can thank my HP for helping me change my thinking this morning. I especially like the reading for that day. Because that is me today.
"As a result of hard work in Al-Anon and a willingness to change, I am moving in a positive direction. I will celebrate my progress today, I know that the process of recovery will continue to help me grow toward a better way of living.
So thank you Skorpi for choosing that reading, as it has reinforced to me that I am not alone.
One thing my first sponsor Betty taught me, was: compare=despair. Like a number of things, this has taken up space in my brain. I find it very helpful and pull it out when I need to. If I take a good honest look at my life, which has been very painful, lots of loss, physical issues, two marriages to alcoholics, I have MANY things to be grateful for. What I think about determines how I feel. Assets and gratitude are very important. :)
