Currently my expenses are more than my income. I.have had an unexpected medical expense that is pretty big. Staging it out is really scary.

 As a child most of my needs were not met. As an adult I.have been around people who are notoriously selfish.  I learned to.ignore and squash my needs around them  

This last run in I had around the former roommate brought that home. He is incredibly selfish, belligerent and demanding. To.think I have been trying to relate to him for years is reallynvery very sad 

He has no concept any one else has needs.  His needs are paramount. I am in the process of moving to another place. Thank goodness I am taking it in stages. 

There are lots of  bumps in the road. 

It is so easy for people to say #move# drop this person. So very few of us can up and move in a heart beat. The same goes for letting go of people. There are certain relationshios you have to slip out of. The carnage is too much otherwise.

I am real real tired of the knock down drag out fights. Ultimatums.  It is so far from the way I live now. So when it comes up I can really red flag it. When you are eating drinking avd sleeping it that is another matter 

My manager is mad at me right now. So what it is not gonna kil me.  I will wait it out. I am so incredibly bored by people who have to make every occasion a stand off. Mature adults do not behave that way. The qualifier had a crisis every day. He went from being people's best buddies to sworn enemies all the time 

I work around people who make everyone around them miserable and other people dont know it.  They are like poison in the water. 

I am so grateful to be able to pick them out now and set huge boundaries. 

Every day with someone like that is pure purgatory. Every day I stayed with the former roommate was a horror show. He was deliberately obnoxious, deliberately selfish and deliberately punitive. That saga is incredibly draining

Maresie