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Things have been so up and down the past week I just wanted to share a good moment with my family...
I took the advice many of you gave me yesterday and did something good for myself. I went for a run...well it felt so good yesterday that I did it again tonight. I put on my headphones and headed out the door. The first song I heard was "You're Beautiful" I almost cried because that is exactly how I have been feeling about myself. Even amongst the craziness of the past weeks I have found some sense of peace in myself - I am holding true to me and doing the best I can to not let it eat at my soul. So I continued on my hike/run as I went through the old rock quarry in our neighborhood. I came around the end of the path and the sky just opened up in front of me as I came out into the main quarry. The sun shone down on my face and the wind just washed over me. I felt such a strength with my hp in that moment. I felt so connected to all of you that love me some much I almost got down on my knees. Hey we are talking a ROCK quarry here - I ain't crazy LOL. I just kept pushing up and down the small hills. It felt so good to just sweat all that bs out of me! I came to the end of the path about a half our later and just had to keep going so I kept running along the sidewalk and out of the quarry. I closed my eyes (just for a few seconds) and ran until tears started streaming down my face. I don't know why I was crying it just felt so good to let go. I always feel so much better after I run - rarely do I cry when I run. I just had faith in those few moments when I closed my eyes and pushed my body to the limit. I was just aching all over mentally and physically and it was such a release I knew I had to share it when I got home with you all. Such a poignant way to turn it over today. I ended my run tonight with Brooks and Dunn's "I believe" just amazing how when I want to hear or see my hp there he is right in front of me. I do believe - I believe in myself....I believe in my hp....and I believe in all of you.
Sounds like you may have opened the door wide open and said
" COME IN , I BELIEVE " and had a chance to feel nature's raindrops !
AWSOME SHARE !
BLESSINGS, RAINBOWS, AND ALL...................................................................
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I tell myself when times are rough, "this to shall pass!!!" Ask HP for guidance, if the door is open, and I know how to look, I will become aware! I also visit http://www.inspiringthots.net/ . Blessings , Your sister in Recovery
Sounds sooo wonderful! Being outside walking/running does the same thing for me. Gets me out of MY world for a while and puts me into the world of my HP. This is my favorite time for meditation and when I feel the closest to God.
Smelling the smells of the outdoors, someone cooking dinner, flowers, a rain storm rolling in....hearing the birds, dogs barking, the wind in the trees, feeling that wind on my face and body (feels like being wrapped up in my HP's arms)
Thanks so much for sharing your run with us, I felt like I was running with you!
When I first stated the gym a few weeks back, I pushed the workout. It hurt, but I felt great. When I got home and got in the shower, I just started to bawl. I have no idea what started it, but the release felt great. Then I had to have my "A" help me put my bra on, because my muscles were still in muscled failure, and that go tme laughing hysterically.
Thank you for sharing with us. That song "I believe" is a powerful one isn't it?
Much Love,
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"Today's problems can not be solved if we still think the way we did when we created them" -Albert Einstein
This is such a great post! I love running too, and it makes me feel super connected to my HP; I don't have a route, I just go where I think my HP wants me to, and I've found the most amazing little hidden corners and parks and stairways and all kinds of things all over my city that way. I just feel so led and guided! Yay, thank you so so much for sharing!
What a beautiful share! All of your descriptions gave me pause and I felt like I was right there watching you - sharing your triumphs, your athleticism, your tears, your discoveries.
What a powerful share. Thank you,
Love Maria
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If I am not for me, who will be? If I am only for myself, then who am I? If not now, when?
sparkette
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