Hello Group,

Life is plugging along here.  I assessed the damage on my car yesterday, its not bad, I buffed out the scratches.  I can't do much about the dents but they're not that bad.  The guy I hit called me yesterday afternoon to say he was sorry again and to let me know that he still had not gone to hospital but felt his foot was broken.  He doesn't have insurance so he doesn't want to go.  What I can do?  Nothing really, its not my responsibility to do anything.  Funny thing is, a year or so ago I would have felt extreme guilt over this guys foot.  Yes I feel bad, but he should have used the cross walk and crossed safely instead of bolting out into traffic.  For whatever reason he made a bad choice and got hurt, now he's out of work for a few weeks.  My neck and shoulders are more messed up than they were before.  I should have gotten an adjustment over the weekend, but I forgot.  The jolt and the shock from the accident has intensified my pain.  I scheduled a massage for tonight at the local massage school, much cheaper and the students need practice on deep tissue massages.  I hope this helps the muscles relax. 

My "a" decided to quit his job today and look for daytime work.  I'm nervous but used to this.  At first I reacted by saying the same thing over and over again.  Finally he said, o.k. I get it we don't have alot of money in the bank.  I'll work day labor and go on interviews.  Something permanent will come about soon.  He has a vehicle and a license now, he can go anywhere he wants and do anything he wants.  I'm glad he took the step because he promised his buddy he'd drive to and from work for the next month.  3rd shift for another month looked daunting to me.  I apologized for my nervous reaction, and said, o.k. I trust you, I'll back off and let you do what you need to do.  If we get to the point where we can't make the bills, I'll talk about it again then.  He's wanted this aprentice position with an electric company for a year now, but didn't have the car or the license.  I want him to have that job so bad, I realized on the way to work this morning that its not my place to keep nagging him about applying for this job, if he wants it he'll apply, HP will decide if he gets it or not.  There is nothing I can do about what job he finds, if he keeps it, etc.  Its his life, he knows the bills, he knows what we need.  He also knows he has not been contributing like he should.  I don't have to say anything, wow, that feels good to me.  I stir myself into a frenzy when I believe i have to confront him about his choices.  He doesn't respond well to it anyway, and I get angry because he doesn't see my side.  Knowing that he probably already sees his mistakes and what he could be doing better, is enough for me, because eventually he'll do something about it. 

Hope everyone has a great day, I'm going to ice my neck down now.

Hugs,

Twinmom~