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I am having a hard day today. I feel like my HP is trying to show me something but I don't seem to be seeing it or hearing it. Maybe it is just this...Acceptance.
I was really touched by Jeff's post on "Loss of potential". That is just what I am having a hard time with today. Why does my son's life have to be eaten up with this horrible disease? Why can't I accept that he is where his HP wants him right now?
As I am sure as everyone in this program, I have good days and bad days. Today seems to be a bad one. Not for any reason inparticular...just woke up like this.
I am so grateful for this program and my HP for getting me this far. Most days I am able to let it go. In the meantime I will open my heart to hear what He wants me to hear for today.
Thanks so much for your post. I know what you mean about sometimes it just being time for acceptance. I read Jeff's post, too, about his daughter, thinking about my own son going nowhere. It's really tough. Sometimes I think it's just too much to accept. I love him, sometimes I wish I didn't. But if I just accept him and the current situation as being exactly what it is supposed to be at this point in time, that God knows what he is doing, that God loves him immeasurably more than I ever could and if I trust that if God could get me out of that same mess and turn me around, he can certainly do the same for my son, then I'm usually okay to get through the day.
Hello, Gailey, One thing I have learned through the 12 Steps is that there is nothing more powerful than acceptance. It is the greatest power in the Universe, as far as I'm concerned! That is all I can offer in terms of ESH. Prayers for you and your family, mebjk
