I keep coming back to Alanon for many reasons, and sometimes I question why? Afterall the A in my life for many years is gone, and I dont have to directly deal with any A's in my immediate life. I have been coming to alanon now for over 6 years, and I remember how I once was a "newbie" and how desparate I truly was for a solution to my agonizing pain and problems brought on by alcoholism. My inner well being, my soul, my mind was in total chaos. I was obsessed with my husband and his drinking, and was bound and determined to fix it no matter what. Well guess what I almost took my own life battling this disease, and became the lowest I have ever been in my entire life. I hit "my" bottom and reached out to alanon. There I found the compassion and warmth of such understanding people, people who were just like me. I am a self willed stubborn old goat, and I battled for a very long time to admit defeat to this horrific disease, and still to this day I waiver on the thoughts that maybe I should have done this or that,etc. Alanon meetings kept me sane, made me think clearer, and when I left each meeting, I had a sense of balance in my life , some serenity, and some hope for "my" future with confidence that I could do it. Since there is no magical day in alanon on which we suddenly achieve serenity, peace, and a stress free life, I keep going back, slowly changing myself, my life, and stepping towards a more serene way of living. There will never be no stress in my life, that I understand , however I can deal with it better now, not so insane with my thinking. Each week attending my meetings reinforces my journey to a better way of life, with or without the A's in my life. This is my life and it has to begin with me. That is why I keep going back........................................