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So today my H went to pick up his boys for easter weekend. he was going to take my car and i would have his truck but at the last moment he discovered that my back brakes are shot....lol thats part of the downfalls marrying a mechanic your stuff is always the last to get fixed. Anyway..... I spent 3-4 hours of my day consumed by the thought that he didnt take his truck at all. He took HER car...maybe she even went with him. He called me around 2:30 to say they wer on their way back. Not doubt he is in his truck. its noisy as all get out. So here i realize that I drove MYSELF nuts for almost 4 hours about something i didnt know I assumed....
just wanted to share that with you..... I gotta stop doing that i am driving myself crazy with the what if's.
God let me stay focused on this moment.. no projecting what may be, only deal with what is right in front of me
I find myself projecting a lot also. I remind myself that I have to live in the moment...1 minute at a time...1 hour at a time.Sometimes reading some alanon material that reflects my frame of mind helps. One Day at a Time and Courage to Change are great cuz you can look up topics in the back of the book. The fact that you recognize that you project is a good start.
Worrying about it will not change it, it will just keep us preoccupied. I know myself, that things are often a whole lot worse in my mind than in reality. Knowing that we are doing it, is half the battle.
Then your brakes really are shot! Get them fixed and stop. Maybe you can get them fixed at a meeting or with your sponsor. Brakes...great metaphor. No?
