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Again, I feel like I am slipping but maybe it is just growing pains. I have had this weird indegestion pop up, over a month now, I just know it is fear related ~ I can't seem to sleep regularly ~ this past week/end has been trying & I'm getting rundown from sheer exhaustion, stress, allergies.
Physically, I am trying to build up my strength but it is slow going... 5 weeks ill in August & now a month or more since the car got totalled, I've atrophied so much. I always felt super-human I was so strong ~ even when everything else in my life went to the dogs ~ I had strength & it is scary being weak, I don't like it one bit.
My allergies & the headaches, nauseau from the post nasal drip maybe I need to take to my bed again ((ugh)) for a few days... I guess I'm simply over-tired from lack of regular sleep.
I have to stay away from negativity, I am still too vulnerable, even sometimes just the room can get to me & I hang in like a bulldog ~ or a butterfly & my wings are getting wet, I can't fly w/out that pretty dust on 'em.
I've only been saying, "I feel like I could sleep for year" for a couple years now... apparently I REALLY do need rest!
I keep surrendering to HP, my will, body, mind, soul, & I hear the sounds of a 2 x 4 saying ~ retreat! rest! God's will be done, God Bless Us All.
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Light, Love, Peace, Blessings & Healing to Us All. God's Will Be Done. Amen.
Kitty, it sounds like you are just worn out from all the stress, the accident, being sick. Then you add in more stress, holidays, money woes, and just like. It's enough to make anyone tired. I need a lot of sleep when I'm stressed. HP says "Go take your nap....go take a lo-o-o-o-o-n-g one, baby girl!"
So, dear Kitty, sleep with the angels. Sleep is healing, in the proper amounts, just don't isolate yourself too much.
I can empathize with your feelings. When you don't feel well physically it is very tough to feel energized spiritually.
In the past few months of unreal awakening for me, I have been totally exhausted. I am sleeping a bit more, but it is more than that. Around here the sun is out and it is almost 90 degrees. I love this time of year, but I have not done what I usually do to enjoy it.
The sun is so healing... I have been trying this week to take my breaks at work and make sure I spend time before and after in the sunlight. Walking, playing football with my son, or just taking my smokebreaks (my addiction <sigh>) outside and bask in the glow of that wonderful warmth.
It has helped, it lifts my spirit to let go and clear my mind as I let his warmth take my thoughts away. Maybe it would be a gift for you too if it is good weather where you are.
I will keep you in my prayers.
Take care of you, and don't forget we are all here for you...
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Kitty - I think the filth builds up in all our lives at times and makes us feel that way. Thank heavens I have the boys to keep me going every day and a reason to get out of bed, or I could easily retreat myself. But I could do more, I could get up and shower and put make up on every day and I don't. I know I would feel better.
Try and find a reason to keep going, make a promise to yourself. You deserve it.
Josey
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Julianne - It's best to move on. You cannot look back in anger in life. It's too short
sometimes when HP slows us down, he does so for a reason. I know it must sux to not be able to do what you want but use this time to recoup, rest and recover !
Is that a 2 x 4 or a clue by four? ;)
{{{{Kitty}}}}
Bob
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You are a perfect child of God and God and I love you just the way you are! (added by me...in that special alanon way)
I'm sorry you're feeling low. I know what you are saying, and have had some of the same long boring problems too since last summer. The sleep cycle is driving me nuts now.
I've found that no matter how dragged out I feel or how goofy my sleep time is, to get dressed and start the day over in my head helps. I try to accomplish one thing that's important to me in a day. Even if it doesn't get finished, somehow I get going.
I think, too, the change of seasons affects me. I know it does.
You are such a sweet person, gifted and talented. Seriously.
Get out in the sun when you can. You are Kitty of LIGHT.
sorry you are feeling so "blah" lately! It may not be fun, but it does sound like you need rest. I always pictured myself as strong and capable of handling anything. But when our bodies give out, they give out!!! Take care of you, sweetie!
I get behind on the boards time factor here at the house that keeps me at bay sometimes. Got to take care of my business and also, like you said, get a bit of rest. Changing seasons always puts me in a rough. BLAH. It is true what they're saying about getting some Sun. Sun has some very essential vitamins that only it can give you. And now is the time before it gets tooo hot to be out at all. (grinning) This will help you in ways you cant see. It will also help to stop the/ any depression. (if thats part to this your going through.) I just wanted to tell you since i havent seen you much in chat., that I'M Thinkin about ya, ((Kitty.))
I'm reaching now., so take this lightly if it doesnt fit., (ok?lol) I want to use that phrase from Moonstruck when Cher said," "Snap Out of IT!" I mean it in fun. But I do mean it!! You know I care about You. Love you lots too!
Please get the needed rest and then do as you know is right " for You." You have to "Get a Plan." ... maybe you really are in some ways like Me. If your not busy,... not working on a project or something... you get bored and then you get sick. sickly. i could be wrong., if so, i apologize for being so brunt.
Know this too, Kitty, I'll sit on the pity pot with ya anytime. Just say the word and move over. LOL. OK-- HERE GOES!: Your a strong minded bird and I know you need a push to get back in the swing of things. I'm pushin' (( lol)) Want to see Y O U ~ Takin' care of Kitty!! YAAAAH! ((((BigHug)))) I Love You! (((Kitty)))
maybe I need to take to my bed again ((ugh)) for a few days... I guess I'm simply over-tired from lack of regular sleep.
I'd be lost without my "chosen family."
Sun has some very essential vitamins that only it can give you. And now is the time before it gets tooo hot to be out at all. (grinning) This will help you in ways you cant see. It will also help to stop the/ any depression. (if thats part to this your going through.) I just wanted to tell you since i havent seen you much in chat., that I'M Thinkin about ya, ((Kitty.)) 
when Cher said," "Snap Out of IT!" 
I mean it in fun. 
But I do mean it!! 
You know I care about You. Love you lots too! 
YAAAAH! ((((BigHug)))) I Love You! (((Kitty)))