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This is really irony, I always felt like I did not want to be abandonnded & that I genuinely had a fear of it ~ yet I was the one that had abandonned myself all along.
I spent all of my life pouring out all I had onto others & being jipped in the end... ironically I did it to myself!!! Boy did this take me forever & a day to "figure out" - no I couldn't just "snap out of" anything. Not depression, had no clue what loving myself & when I married my mom sd "keep a part of yourself" those words were Greek or Latin to me - foreign beyond belief - not a clue what that meant.
I never was able to have emotional self-protection... I was all over the place & a virtual slave to my emotional state of mind.
Since I understood & applied self-love, for real, all of that went away. Now when I feel myself slipping, it is my slipping in love for myself, losing my focus of *me* so I can realize it sooner & bounce back faster.
Wow, I am actually learning coping skills for living! hahaa, what a joy, what a miraculous Blessing! i thank You God, Amen.
-KoL
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Light, Love, Peace, Blessings & Healing to Us All. God's Will Be Done. Amen.
Boy is that ever true for me too! I have always abandoned myself. My health emotional and physical has always come last. The only time I took good care of me was when I was pregnant. Ironic isn't it? I never thought I was a self defeatist type. Wow! That was an eye opener.
Hello, kitty, This is an amazing insight. I am the one who abandons myself now, too. I am an adult, and sometimes I forget to listen to the Little One who is crying out for help inside of me. It makes sense: since we were abandoned by people who did not know how to parent themselves or us, that is the model we learned. But if we learned it, we can learn a new way. That is the hope I have received in the Alanon program. I have found the most powerful form of prayer is to myself, to the HP that lives within me. Thank you for being here, kitty. We value your insights. Blessings, mebjk
