The material presented
here is not Al-Anon Conference Approved Literature. It is a method
to exchange
information, ideas, feelings, problems and solutions on a personal
level.
First of all, I would like to thank everyone for the hugs, prayers, support and encouragement. I love each and everyone of you. I would also like to apologize for not handling myself well and not showing much of the program at work the past few days. I apologize that I have been so into myself and my problems that I haven't been here for those of you that have needed it. I will take the time tomorrow to respond to some posts I read today. I would respond now but am still not in a great frame of mind. My husband and I have done nothing but talk since yesterday. We've had no sleep in almost 36 hours. I am going to sleep tonight when he gets back from his NA meeting. He's is still clean though all of this and going to his daily meetings. He had a real hard time with craving last night. I believe because he wanted to turn to the drugs so badly so he would feel the hurt and the guilt from what he had done. For today, I choose to stay. Love to all.
please try to make a meeting **for yourself** too being around others that understand can/will only help. my thoughts and pray ers are with you ((BigHug))
Try and get to some f2f meetings. You have been through so much recently and you need to deal with it. You need to deal with your own feelings and emotions and not just his.
He has to deal with his cravings and his recovery on his own. You need to deal with yourself. You are just as important.