The material presented
here is not Al-Anon Conference Approved Literature. It is a method
to exchange
information, ideas, feelings, problems and solutions on a personal
level.
After work today I went back to "our house" to sign our tax returns. I also had a chance to pick up a few of my belonging while I was there. Most importantly I was looking for my journal that I've searched high and low for since Oct. when I left. I finally found it in a box on the book shelf and was able to get it out of the house today! TY HP!
I've spent some time reviewing the last 4 years and I must say that I can still feel the pain in those words. I also see that I really did do all I could to save the marriage and of course what he's been telling me is not true. I did NOT give up years ago but what he saw as giving up was my searching for myself and ultimitily learning that I deserved more. I can support myself and I can be happy. The landing is sweet but the journey was a little hairy. My message is that you can do what you set your mind to and that you are worth it. We all have a different goal and a different path and this program will guide you to it. Okay, it took me 4 years but I'm very thorough or maybe just stuborn!
We see newbie's here all the time and I encourage you to work this program, work it your way, set boundries with your a's. You'll be amazed at what you can do to reach serenity. It may be the most challenging and most enpowering journey of your life. Work it 'cuz you're worth it.
I am very glad that you were able to find your journal.
I too am on a wretched journey.
I found MIP and alanon 07/04.
People here welcomed me. They told me to go to meetings and I did online.
They told me to go to face to face meetings and I did.
In time, I realized that I have choices.
05/05 I finally had enuff pain in my life and left my husband of 14 years.
My journey and growth have been painful.
The self awareness, the reconnection with family and friends, the opportunity to be closer to my HP whom I call God – priceless.
Good message to the newbies, “Whatever your problems , there are those among us who have had them too. If you try to keep an open mind you will find help. You will come to realize that there is no situation too difficult to be bettered and no unhappiness too great to be lessesned” This is from the alanon closing.
I learned to pay bills, get my trucks oil changed, schedule my time. All things I never did before. I am doing things I have never done and becoming an adult, at 43. growth is always possible as is change.
I too am forever grateful for this board. Y'all loved me before I was able to love myself. You listened and shared your ESH before my ears were ready to listen. You held me in the gentle embrace of the alanon fellowship while my ears lost their wax and my mind opened up and I thank you all.
Megan
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Megan
If you want things you never had you need to do things you have never done
Love your picture of the Sun shining the flowers reaching up.
Within us, we decide if its going to be cold blustery or a nice sunny. We have choices. The freedom to choose our personal dispositions. That " peace " lies within us. What a wonderful feeling. Once we accept its there. Its life changing. Just like the Alanon Program that shows us soo many ways to change and make healthier lives for ourselves and our loved ones.
Keep Looking uP! ((Whitie)) Your Doing Great! So glad your here. Thanks for the posting. Lots of inspiration there.
I know some day the choice to leave the A will be a real one for me. Right now the choice involves being homeless and that is not a choice I can make. Sooner or later it will be a viable choice and I hope that I have the tenancity, dignity and grace you have.
Just like the Alanon Program that shows us soo many ways to change and make healthier lives for ourselves and our loved ones. 
Your Doing Great! So glad your here. Thanks for the posting. Lots of inspiration there.