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Ria


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 Hi everyone, I'm not only new to this site but new on-line too. It's a challenge to do something different and so far I'm loving it! I've been in Al-anon UK for over 5yrs and my A has been clean and sober for 2yrs 6months, a day at a time. For this I'm truly grateful.


 However, all's not quite well with me right now. I am under a little stress (life happens) and I know God never gives me more than I can cope with but I made the mistake of not attending my f2f meetings. This was due to ill health, a 5wk trip to the Philippines to spend time with my father (joys of recovery), my local meeting closing when I returned and trying to cope with an impending court case while I am ill.


 To make matters worse, my literature and daily readers were packed 'somewhere safe' when I moved to my flat and so far have not come to light despite vigorous searching! My life is becoming rapidly unmanageable and I'm becoming irritable and discontent. The good news is I know it! I know my HP is still at work in my life. While searching the web for a list of meetings in the UK (which I didn't find) I 'stumbled' on this site. What a Godsend! Thank you all for being here. I gained some perspective while reading your posts. In replying to some I became aware of how much time and energy I had put into working my own program and how my serenity and happiness were at risk as a result of neglecting it. I received a few private messages and I was thrilled to think I could still reach out to help another even when I'm 'in a bit of a pickle' myself!


 I've now managed to get the meetings info I was looking for, where there's God's Will there's a way! I'm off to a f2f tonight and am so looking forward to it. One thing I know is that no matter how new you are to Al-anon or how long you've been away, you never have to feel like a stranger. I know I will be welcomed back with unconditional love and warmth. I'm hoping I'll be able to borrow another daily reader (I've already got two copies of each SOMEWHERE). If not, I'm sure there will be other literature available. I'm going to arm myself with more phone numbers as I deleted my mobile memory by mistake. I'll be looking out for another sponsor too, sadly my last one left the program. When I'm feeling a little more well I'd love to do some service again.


 One of the lessons I've learned from all this is that even if I'm careless or unfortunate enough to lose my tool-belt, Al-anon is still there for me, giving me choices. I felt a little cut-off but my HP was always there, I just had to feel enough dis-ease to want to change it. Just for today I will have a program and embrace the joys of recovery. Love and thanks to all  



-- Edited by Ria at 07:06, 2006-03-10

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penny


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Hi, I am really glad your here, as you have answered 2 of my postings and both have been of tremendous help, so a huge thank you..


I struggled to find a contact list in the UK and ended telephoning London, you probably have their number but just incase 020 7403 0888.


Hope you find your books etc.


Love


Penny



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Your in the right place!  You will find much needed reassurance, love and strengtening within the walls of Alanon. We're here   and  You  are blessed to have your local meetings.  WORK IT  ~ Your Worth It!  Take careYOU!



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Ria


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Special thanks to 'penny' and 'aunitedway' for replying to my post and welcoming me. I did go via the London G.S.O to find out about meets, just before I posted, but thank you for the number as I did have trouble finding it!


I went to a f2f last night and it was wonderful to be back! As expected, I was greeted with unconditional love and warmth. (Don't know what I'd have done if I hadn't been! You know what they say about expectations!) I got so much from the meeting and I could feel the peace radiating in the room. When I 1st attended I was too messed up to be aware of something like that and I was unable to concentrate for long on people's shares. Thank God it's not like that these days!


However, I've been giving myself a hard time today as when I did share I spoke quite quickly (didn't want to take up too much meeting time so instead of editing my share, I just said it faster! Oops) I'm not sure if I rambled but I was so excited and happy to be back I just couldn't contain myself. I did stick to the topic but also said things that were off-topic (like why I've missed the fellowship and the effects not pracising my program has had on me.) I'd like to think I was sharing program but I'm uncomfortable with myself as I feel I should've known better. I'm obviously 'off-kilter' and I know my medical condition affects my 'presence of mind'. The other thing I feel uncomfortable about is that I and a few others shared twice but there were some members who didn't share at all (I'm feeling a bit naughty/selfish). There were several silences and I've told myself that those who didn't share could've come in then so maybe they just didn't want to talk. Am I rationalising to excuse my own inappropriate behaviour? Please help.


I'm not having a good day so I'm going to take myself off somewhere quiet and try to recover my equilibrium and still my racing thoughts. Then maybe I can start over. Any other suggestions would be very much appreciated.


Yours in madness, with love  



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Maria123


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((((((Ria))))))))))<<<<-------hugs,


Welcome to MIP!  This board and chat room is truly a Miracle for so many of us.


www.mipchat.net is the link to the chat room.


Keep coming,


Maria123



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