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Wow! just spent a few hours reading Step 1. Brought up alot of my past present emotions etc. Now I have a pit in my stomach. Ever happen to anyone else? I think Im going to skip the chat meeting and go read something else. Maybe go to bed
It's hard to face all of your emotions and be completely honest. Also, change can be dificult. Sometimes when i am working my program I feel terrible and unsure because it is taking actions I am not used to.
Admitting powerlessness over something we have been trying to control and trusting in a HP to take care of can put us thru many feelings. If you aren't use to it, its harder when you are new to changing things around. The more you practice the easier it gets and sometimes you are so glad you didn't have to do the work for someone else. It can be awsome to see the work of the HP. And sometimes it real hard to let the outcome be without trying to control some of it. It doesn't mean you don't care.
Take care and keep reaching out
-- Edited by d53sjurne at 21:39, 2006-03-04
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I tell myself when times are rough, "this to shall pass!!!" Ask HP for guidance, if the door is open, and I know how to look, I will become aware! I also visit http://www.inspiringthots.net/ . Blessings , Your sister in Recovery
Oh yes, I remember that well! Not only that feeling, but I was totally exhausted and felt like I had been hit by a truck. It was so worth it though. My sponsor finally had to tell me to slow down and quit working so fast and hard. When my daughter was in treatment for 2 months, I also worked my program every day and went to daily or bidaily meetings. When we work it, it works. Just go with the flow and keep reaching out for support. cdb :)
Yep, doing my 1st step work was a real downer. I was told that it would probably feel like that especially if you were really honest with it, but not to get stuck in it and move right on to step 2 which is where you will find there is hope.
I just finished my 2nd step and low and behold the promises I hear from those who have done it before me comes true yet again! It left me not with a pit like the 1st step, but with hope. Just like I was told.
Barbara, I got all the way up to Step 3 before I decided I needed to start over again. I'm now walking around Step 1, sniffing at it and shoving it with my toe. The problem that keeps coming up is a lack of trust in God. (See God? All these bad things happened even though I was praying for Right Action. Didn't look like Right Action to me, so why should I trust You?) Intellectually I know better -- the bad stuff had to do with human choices, not God. But sometimes I still think I can do a better job with my life than God. Even though I've proven repeatedly that I can't. (What's that definition of insanity? Doing or thinking the same thing over & over, and expecting a different result?) hehehe