The material presented
here is not Al-Anon Conference Approved Literature. It is a method
to exchange
information, ideas, feelings, problems and solutions on a personal
level.
Just an update - I am still alive!! I am just working my tail off with my new swim school and new job. Things are going well - I am being strong and staying away from my A. My new relationship with the guy in Chicago is going well - but I am trying not to sabotage it - however I seem to already be doing it. My protective sheild is going up and I am talking stupid stuff to him (doubt that he is being real and honest). I guess the affect of being around an A for 8 years is worse than I imagined!!
40 more days of my crazy schedule and then I am off to Chicago for a few days of break. I cant wait!!
Anytime with an A has an effect on all of us. There is nothing wrong with being a little protective of ourselves, it is good that you know you are doing it. That is half the battle. Trust yourself.
I just love hearing how your life is going :) I believe that knowledge is power and what you put about knowing what needs to be changed in yourself is a sign that your alanon journey is moving along well. Have a great time in Chicago and wishing you all the best in your swimming season! cdb xoxoxoxo (((((((Cyn)))))